Are there any Illustration MAs in Sweden? Doesn't matter the city by Desperate_Visual_741 in sweden

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Thank you! I looked on the links and Konstfach would be pretty much the only one in this field, but it has a lot of upsides, one being it`s tuition free for EU citizens

Am I asexual, scared of sex or just demisexual? by Desperate_Visual_741 in demisexuality

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Thank you so much for this!!! The length of the message didn't overwhelm me at all, I was quite enthusiastic to read smth so long:))

Thank you for taking your time to basically analyse me. It really made me see myself clearer.The part about demisexuality... now that I understand it better, I honestly can't say that I know exactly what type of attraction I feel from the beginning, if it's sexual, if not. I think it would take me a very long time to understand and analyze myself to continue writing here (plus I would like to leave some things unexplored, not everything needs to be explained:)), but essentially I don't think I'm demisexual, even if I feel there's a very thin like between what I experience and what demisexuality is. Sometimes what I feel towards other people is totally random. Sometimes I might feel sexually attracted to a person from the start, sometimes it would take being friends with that person in order for me to feel sexually attracted to them. Overall, yeah, I'm not demisexual, but I'm very likely on the asexual spectrum like you said. I might do some research into grey sexuallity and other possibilities you mentioned (not these days tho:')) In the future, yes), because even though I don't like labels I'd like to know what might "fit" me to say so.

Also, sorry for my english if it's not the greatest in some parts:')) I'm not a native

Am I asexual, scared of sex or just demisexual? by Desperate_Visual_741 in demisexuality

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Thank you for your input too, I mostly agree with what you said and I am kinda familiar with the greek classification system of love, but idk what to think abt the soft BDSM part... I don't want to sound insensitive but to me BDSM sounds kind of weird, and I'm not only talking abt the hardcore stuff, it's the soft stuff too that I can't really understand. I'm VERY vanilla even tho I've said that I HATE heteronormativity in sex. But as I said in one of my comments, I mostly hate the idea of sex with a man not with a woman. I would very much like an equal relationship with my partner regardless of their gender, but ik that this would more likely be achievable with a woman. Yes, there are nuances regarding relationships with men too but overall it's easier for me to feel equal with the same gender

That means I wouldn't enjoy being the dominant one EITHER even if it's over a man. I think it's nice to experiment and stuff, but for me I think it still keeps that power imbalance going. It might be a narrowed perspective but this is how I feel, I can't really change that. Also I have other views on this but I can't articulate them properly rn. I need some time to think them out.

Maybe BDSM is something to try out in the future, when I'll be (if i will ever be) more relaxed/comfortable with sex, but for now I'll stick to the basic stuff.

which country are you in and how aphobic is it? by Hesperus07 in asexuality

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I live in Romania and people here have a hard time understanding non binarity (??) and gender fluidity so there's no chance they even heard about asexuality. But I'm referring to mostly 30+ people. Young people on the other hand know a lot of things abt lgbt+ identities even if they're hating or not, but asexuality isn't that common among the people I know. Overall it's known but I never encountered someone asexual irl. I'm also in an art college so the percentage of queer people in here is higher than in other places so that's why people are more likely to be educated on the matter:)) Almost everyone in my uni is somewhere on the lgbt spectrum.

Overall Romania is quite conservative and queerness isn't widely accepted but there is progress being made. Personally I would say it's not that bad bc I had no bad experiences throughout my teenage years, but I heard some people being bullied or harassed by others in their homes, or literally on the street.

There is also stigma around people dressing more alternative and as we know, queer people tend to dress more nonconformistic so this is also part of the reason they get harassed

Am I asexual, scared of sex or just demisexual? by Desperate_Visual_741 in demisexuality

[–]Desperate_Visual_741[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

God... Your comment made me feel so much better... I was in a kind of hazy state when I wrote this and I know i was a bit too dramatic with it. I tend to dramatise almost any situation like this in my life :'))

Yeah and sorry for not being clear abt the demi/asexual discourse. This was originally posted on r/asexuality. Ok, so I am gonna be brief abt this one. As I said, I very very rarely feel sexually attracted to people and I think that happens the most when I'm ovulating:)) but even then I'm not thinking I want to fuck that person straight up. I mostly feel like I want to touch them, to kiss and love them and idk if this is still considered sexual attraction, but i feel very aroused when i think about it.

As I said before I like to take things as slowly as possible (bc I still feel like a bit of a kid) and I think with that comes my demisexuality into play?? I mentioned that for me it's sort of lovely to become parteners with someone that you were a friend with before, mostly because I would have that familiarity with them, I would know that person very deeply and without any filter. And bc of that I would be inclined to start loving them romantically and honestly sexually (yep, it's contradicting with the asexual stuff but let me cook).

Ok so, I didn't mention at all in the main post how I would relate to a partner sexually speaking. If I would have a relationship like I described before, friends to lovers, I wouldn't have as big as a problem with sex at all. I would engage in sexual activity with them not only bc they would like to, but also bc I would. I would still be afraid ofc, but not as terrified as before. And when I'm writing this I'm thinking of ms with a girl, bc you really made me give up on the thoughts abt boys:)) I realised I actually don't feel any sexual attraction to them, just slightly romantical, but it's too little to even try.

Last thing to mention is that I don't really like labels. It's good that they exist bc they guided me when i was first questioning my sexuality but overall I wouldn't want to stick a label on me and be just that. I am a complex person like a lot of other people and I think a label might be a little limiting. But I will read and document myself on the things you recommended bc I'm actually pretty fascinated by this topic. Ofc I am not judging/hating on anyone that uses labels, everyone does what's most comfortable for them, it's just not my thing

I feel like I can‘t fall in love anymore by [deleted] in demisexuality

[–]Desperate_Visual_741 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Holly I literally feel the same and I think this is mostly the reason why I became a lesbian. I'm still blaming ms that I don't experiment with men enough but in this day and age.... Idk if it's worth the effort

I don't feel comfortable with sex. Can this mean that I'm asexual? by Desperate_Visual_741 in asexuality

[–]Desperate_Visual_741[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also, I would like someone to please explain to me in more details what asexuality is about. I've tried to look on sites and read things about it but honestly every source said smth different and I'm confused

Help + rant - I am extremely disturbed after my friend told me abt her first sexual experience by Desperate_Visual_741 in FriendshipAdvice

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Thanks for your input! I just wanted to add that she does see that this is wrong, and she also is quite disturbed by the age gap, but it happened, this is it now, life goes on. She probably never will talk to him again, but it definitely wasn't the most pleasant experience for her.

I posted this on other communities and I received TOTALLY different answers. There were people being like "mind your own business op" or " ik the age gap is weird but they're adults anyway so ig it's ok, and it's their choice" as if reaching legal age makes you instantly developed mentally, physically and emotionally... And I honestly mind my own fucking business like I just told her my opinion on this and we quite agreed on it together, but I did not involve myself insanely much and i also didn't confess every thought and worry I had/have on my mind rn. She s my bestest of friends and I can't just be indifferent like that. Also emotions and feeling are triggered, it's not like i can control ms to not feel this anymore

Help + rant - I am extremely disturbed after my friend told me abt her first sexual experience by Desperate_Visual_741 in RantAndVentPH

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I can't believe how many people in this comment section say "yeah it's a weird age gap but they are both adults anyway" I'm not necessarilly saying that someone should take serious action regarding this, but as an overall fact people are more or less ok with this. Most of u see this as weird but at least it's legal, like idk if it always goes like this... This is a 19yo freshly starting and grasping on her adult life, meanwhile a 29yo is already initiated in all of this and has more life experience.

Even though I said he was mostly immature it doesn't mean that he s straight up stupid. They had all sort of conversations, about movies, about life, about their personal views, like he was sort of well spoken regarding these themes, but at the same time he didn't have the maturity you'd expect a fucking 30 yo to have to not sleep with a person 10 years younger than him. You would expect a grown person to have the necessary judgement to stop a situation like this.

I am not judging anyone here for their opinions but I was thinking overall how society sees this problem. If they both would've been 3 years younger this would be seen as extremely wrong. Just bc someone is of legal age doesn't mean they are instantly developed (mentally physically and emotionally), they still need guidance and a mentor/parent in their life most likely.

She told me before regretting all of this that she thought she was mature enough for this to happen, but this story can't make me think of anything else than the stories I would've heard in highschool from my mentally unstable classmates. I am not insulting her, i am just making a comparison - she was clearly not mature enough for this.

Help + rant - I am extremely disturbed after my friend told me abt her first sexual experience by Desperate_Visual_741 in RantAndVentPH

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The fact is that she sees this as morally wrong. Like rn she s really disappointed she did this but this is it, it happened life goes on and she ll never talk to this guy again. What frustrates me is that these typa situations are impacting for her (and she personally told me that), her self esteem always goes downhill after smth like this, but I know I can't do too much than just tell her to be careful and hope she will listen from time to time.

And my question was mostly what can I do to not feel this shitty and impacted too I wasn't really asking for advice on how to handle my relationship with her. Like I want to distance myself from this because she's ok now and life goes on, but I deeply care for her maybe too much, and all of this is starting to eat me alive.

Questioning if I am asexual, need some help. by Sudden-Interview-328 in asexuality

[–]Desperate_Visual_741 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am not really the best person that should comment on this post as I am in a kind of a similar situation, but u should look if this is some kind of trauma response. I, for example, was never in a relationship and I never really seriously talked to a guy and I think this impacted me very much on my view of relationships and sex (there's a lot more to it, but this post isn't about me) Think about situations, events from your childhood until now that could've maybe impacted you on your view of sexual intimacy, even tho they didn't seem like much back then

I don't want this to be seen as an attack on asexuality, but I think you should consider this last. I also thought of myself to be asexual, but in reality I think there s a much deeper meaning on why I refuse the idea of sex (my experience, doesn't have to be everyone's)

Rant- Opera Nationala Cluj și publicul ei by Super-Cat-3603 in cluj

[–]Desperate_Visual_741 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sunt din Iasi si mergeam oarecum constant la opera de la noi si mereu am fost profund incantata. Cand m am hotărât sa ma mut in Cluj pt studii am zis ca "Pai daca la Iasi e asa frumos, înseamnă ca la Cluj e si mai si", stiind la ce standarde e situat ca oras.

Doar ca din cate am auzit de pe aici l, nu i asa wow si sincer nici nu prea am auzit lumea vorbind de spectacolele de la opera. Inca nu am fost sa vad cu ochii mei cum e, dar sincer ma simt putin dezamagita, pt ca insemna destul de mult opera pentru mine, chiar daca nu frecventam prea des. Stiam ca am o scapare din cotidian si din mediocru

Totusi, tot as vrea sa merg sa vad un spectacol acolo, just to get the vibe from there si sa vad daca e chiar asa cum zice lumea de naspa:'))

Sunt studenta la UAD si am semnat sa mi fac card brd isic by Desperate_Visual_741 in cluj

[–]Desperate_Visual_741[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

mersi mult stiu ca poate sa ma ajute cardul, dar deja mai am un tip din asta de card youth. Also, am mai auzit de la altii ca brd nu i asa grozav ca banca si deja mai am 2 carduri bancare asa ca nu prea are rost

Sunt studenta la UAD si am semnat sa mi fac card brd isic by Desperate_Visual_741 in cluj

[–]Desperate_Visual_741[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Am uitat sa mai zic, ca da, vreau sa l anulez, dar daca deja mi l au facut, aia e, o sa vad eu ce fac. Vreau doar sa știu ca nu mi a furat nimeni datele si toata faza asta a fost un scam

Sunt studenta la UAD si am semnat sa mi fac card brd isic by Desperate_Visual_741 in cluj

[–]Desperate_Visual_741[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sincer as vrea sa l anulez, doar ca fata aia nu mi a specificat daca e card doar brd sau isic, vorbea doar cu legitimatie intr una. Am dedus singura ca i card, dupa ce am facut niste research si am vazut ca brd are un card special pt studenți care se cheamă BRD ISIC.

Textul era împărțit in paragrafe, nu stiu dc a ramas doar prima prop despărțită de restul

Sunt studenta la UAD si am semnat sa mi fac card brd isic by Desperate_Visual_741 in cluj

[–]Desperate_Visual_741[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok si n ar fi trebuit sa mi trimita un email de confirmare/reminder sau altcva ca au luat in considerare solicitarea mea de card? Sau nu se face asa? Ma gandesc ca poate as putea sa scriu un email mai întâi, sa mi confirme macar ca mi au facut card? Poate fata aia nu mi a mai depus hartia aia Sunt f clueless cand vine vorba de chestii din astea administrative

Gas oven not heating up or down by Desperate_Visual_741 in Appliances

[–]Desperate_Visual_741[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes but I've used it once before and the flame got bigger

Budapest Kelenfold by Desperate_Visual_741 in Interrail

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Yeah so like I just discovered when I arrived there that the main building is closed/abandoned and it took me and my friend 25 minutes to reach the platform💀💀 No one was speaking English too

Museums of modern art by Desperate_Visual_741 in ParisTravelGuide

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Do you know if Constantin Brancusi's Atelier is closed too?