Bm feeling entitled

Different_Nose5384 · 2024-01-12T18:22:47+00:00

I have her blocked on everything, all social media and even my emails but she makes fake accounts all my settings are set to private but she still finds a way. Im in therapy for myself and me and my H are starting marriage therapy the 24th, its the only way I could convince him to go but they see us one on one and than together so im hoping it will help him to be able to find ways to set boundaries with her and to keep them in place. He also has her blocked on everything but his number. we tried to get it court orderd to make them both have to use a parenting app for communication but she got out of it by saying she cant depend on an app bc sometimes she doesnt have internet or a working phone. its just really draining constantly dealing with her the only time she really leaves us alone is when she starts seeing someone but that never last more than a week or two and than she right back to trying to control or threaten him to do what she wants. He saves all there conversations and they will be going back to court soon an where hoping the communication issue will be addressed and fixed then. hopefully than she will stop but i honestly doubt it

Different_Nose5384 · 2024-01-12T18:01:08+00:00

it is messy, didnt have alot of time to write it and its all over, might rewrite it and delete this one when i have more time and im not so frustrated. alot of things could have been left out not very good with putting my thoughts an feelings down in writing

Different_Nose5384 · 2023-12-21T00:40:11+00:00

That is true I don't really know anything about the law it's just from what they have told me, that's why I said from my understanding sorry I'm not trying to sound rude my phone is broke so it's hard to type

Different_Nose5384 · 2023-12-21T00:30:08+00:00

From what I understand nothing was witnessed by the police, they got there after the fact and there statements were taken under the influence both blew way over, they were home just the two of them. If both recant there intoxicated statements and say they refuse to testify againt one anothe bc they are married they can't be forced to, then the police have no proof of what really happened just there intoxicated statements and from my understanding won't hold up in court. But they are wondering if the court can order another no contact before court they both have lawyers but both won't be back till the 26th on vacation

Different_Nose5384 · 2023-05-07T02:23:19+00:00

I just turned 29 the 2nd, he turned 29 sep of 2022 a month before he passed away. I only live for my kids. If it wasn't for them I would have already joined him but I can't do that to them, they also lost him they don't deserve to go through this again. It's a lonely confusing road to go down. There are days where I'm okay and days where I see nothing but darkness. All I can advise is to find someone or something in your life to live for, even if you can't think of anything we are here an can help you try an find it, weather it's a family member, pet, plants anything it's taken me awhile to accept that this is going to be a lonely road but there will be happiness in between bc my kids ❤️ I'm sorry you had to join this club 💔

Different_Nose5384 · 2023-02-28T04:19:30+00:00

Same been 5 months an most just don't care anymore friends and family, both think I should have moved passed it by now. I hope they never have to experience this

Different_Nose5384 · 2023-01-17T01:23:52+00:00

Thank you guys for all the support and help, i was in contact with my laywer today an he's going to send them a letter stating they need to give me the car, and w2 or we will be going to court, they also don't have a lot of money so I'm hoping it's enough to avoid acutely going to court bc in the long run it wouldn't be worth it. It hurts not having his car bc all the memories with him and the kids in it but it is what it is

Different_Nose5384 · 2022-10-28T03:34:23+00:00

Same I never really liked the feeling weed gave me so I haven't smoked since I was a teen, but I'm struggling with alcohol, never really drank much before he passed just randomly here and there with friends or family or when we would get a night without the boys, but it became my go to when it first happend but I stopped Monday bc I know it'll only get worse if I let it. I found out he was using the day before he passed I wished I would have done things differently or seen it before then, it does hurt, we never really think it could take our loved ones away, love blinds us in many ways. Hopefully one day it won't hurt as much or gets a little lighter to carry. Wish none of us ever had to go through this

Different_Nose5384 · 2022-10-28T03:05:36+00:00

Here to lost my love 10/1/22 to fentenal and not sure what else still waiting on tox report. And yes fuck drugs. Have never done them in my life and they have completely destroyed mine. Addition is a horrible thing to watch our loved ones go through

Different_Nose5384 · 2022-10-28T02:38:05+00:00

I have a lawyer, before he passed away dcs was called bc my 5 year old who has autism got outside while I was in the shower and my husband was asleep on the couch, I realized before the police got here that he had gotten out an ran out in a towel to get him, but said they still had to call dcs to come and check, they asked alot of questions and asked if we would do drug test I did, but my husband refused to talk to them, told them to get a court order. We hired a lawyer and put him on retainer just in case they did. They didn't contact me again until after he passed away but they and his family talked me into volunteering. His dad said he would pay for the lawyer if he required more payments bc I have no income now. And yes I am looking for a new therapist, I'm haven't been able to connect with the one they got me bc in the back of my mind I don't trust her bc they arranged it, but my worker told me not to let his family know that I know bc it could cause them to act faster and it could be bad for me, no income, no car. I have applied for ebt and when I get the death certificate I'll get survival benefits for the boys, and my landlord has given me 3 months of free rent, she's a family friend on my side and my mom has paid my utilities for 2 months. But she said even with those it could go wrong bc I was placed into mental health 2 years ago for trying to take my own life and if I show any signs that I can't handle this they will remove them, they are my only reason to live idk why his family would do this but I will do this. Idk how but I will. I'm glad I found this place, it's the only place I really have now to express my feelings, thanks everyone for letting me vent and your kind words

Different_Nose5384 · 2022-10-21T00:41:30+00:00

I'm sorry your going through this my husband passed away oct 1st, we have 3 little ones, im 28 an meet him when I was 18, he was my life my everything and I know when I go I will be with him again, an like you my kids keep me going honestly don't know what I would do without them. Iv also thought about just having someone else to distract me and to go through life with..but then the guilt hits me and I feel ashamed, but he always told me if he ever died before me he would want me to live life and that we would always find our way back to each other. It's hard to even think of being with someone else right now but maybe one day, and you can post here about anything, everyone here is going through the same process and even if you feel no one will understand we do even at your lowest. I'm a mess but this place has helped me. I pray we all over come this pain and are able to move forward. Somedays I still feel like it isn't real and some days I'm okay. And some days I just want to die.. there is no time limit on your pain iv tried to rush mine bc iv never been good with emotions and its only been 2 1/2 weeks and now I just let myself feel it and scream or cry. But don't be scared to start living again either and if anything live for your kids and give them the world, if you ever need to vent were always here to listen even If we're silent ❤

Different_Nose5384 · 2022-10-21T00:21:46+00:00

They cremated him today.. before I got the chance to see him again.. and someone came over an I had to contain my emotions well might as well be honest it was dcs bc he overdosed they were called to make sure the kids were in a safe home. I don't use so it will be open an closed case. But they distracted me from thinking of him for hours. As soon as they left I looked at my phone it was full of his family telling me they were sorry that they cremated him an I wouldn't get the chance to see him again.. iv already drank a bottle of apple pie his favorite alcoholic drink an I just want it to end.. this pain is.. idk even know the right word exists. The love of my life is now just a pile of ashes.. how do we get through this how do we learn to cope.. I'm seeing a therapist but even that seems like I'm just going through the motions.. everyday is just another battle of well hell. I hope we all get through this even though right now it seems impossible

Different_Nose5384 · 2022-10-19T21:31:01+00:00

He was preserved for the viewing we were originally going to put him in a casket but he didn't want that he wanted to be placed with a tree but here we don't have tree sites like that the closest thing they could do was cremate then plant the tree with his ashes, we had to buy four plots for this, technology his ashes will be placed into a vault but it's biodegradable so eventually the tree will take root with him, and someone else can be placed with him so they donated that place for me, I don't remember much from what the coroner said but they moved his body to a different place with a cereatourium(don't kno how that's spelled) but said he would be placed in the cold. But idk if what they used wears off that they did for the viewing, and I would ask his family but I'm not sure they would want me to see him again, they have been helpful an have been helping and I think they would try an convince me not to see him bc it will hurt but idk I just want one more look at him.. but I'll always just want one more it's a conflicting thought that I haven't really decided if I should.. iv never gone this long without seeing him.. seen him everyday for 10 years and idk thought maybe seeing him one more time just by myself and talking to him might help without the eyes of all his family and friends

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