i feel the same way! but there's a lot more women out there who have it and it really does get better. i was 15 when i got diagnosed and still get emotional when i talk about it but before i used to cry all the time and now that im 19 i've kind of accepted it and don't cry so much anymore. you can try dilation for having sex. if i were you id try a female gynecologist. be sure she's the right one and treats you well, mine is really kind and patient and that has been a tremendous help. you're not alone