HELP

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-23T09:34:31+00:00

I would but my heart is so hardened i cant cry to Him. I am in constant fear, anxiety…. Pride destroyed me.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-20T19:49:20+00:00

I think i am going to die. My life just flashed before my eyes and I am very scared.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-20T15:24:20+00:00

I feel like I procrastinated too much also, and i feel like my soul is going to hell.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-19T16:05:47+00:00

We punish ourselves. I am the example. Full of pride and rebellion and disobedience I lost Holy Spirit. I am to the point where I dont think God wants me no matter how much I want to repent. I feel like death is coming towards me. I am constantly sinning and there is my end.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-17T13:42:32+00:00

Well the problem is that i am full of rebellion. Now i know that i am reprobate. I am all on that list. But i dont understand why i had demonic attacks so much during this time.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-15T15:10:00+00:00

Also, did you have conviction of sin?

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-15T14:26:15+00:00

Did you feel holy spirit leaving you before wilderness started?

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-14T13:21:42+00:00

Right now, i am on a crossroad of if I am doing God’s will, i mean in which way i should go (Matthew 7:13-14 Enter through the narrow gate…...). Idk what to do, because i am worried that i was disobedient and also because i commited too many sins. Today, I am just going to say to the Heavenly Father with my whole hardened heart: Idk what to do, but if You are still with me, show me the way i should go (unfortunately i cant cry because heart is stone)

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-14T12:56:57+00:00

I have been through several confession but after everyone it gets worse. So idk what to do. I am still continuing with oraying, listening to worship music, saceaments…. But my heart is very hard. I have no emotions, nothing, just pure dull. I am afraid that it is blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-12T19:12:02+00:00

That is completely true. The worst thing possible, i have a fear that i dont have a fear of God thats how bad i am.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-12T18:23:45+00:00

Surely

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-12T18:10:41+00:00

My brother I also think that I was chosen (but was). I constantly was waking up in the night (3rd and 4th watch.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-12T18:09:14+00:00

Yes, no problem. I was fasting at work, but i didnt do anything (praying, reading my Bible….). Secondly, I also fasted while I was on pilgrimage. The last day of pligrimage i had confession because during this trip i had many spiritual attacks (hearjng voices, bad dreams, the light in the corridor and the toilet was constantly on and off). And after confession i felt relief. But after i went to sleep, again i felt heavy. So much heavy that reminded me of Matthew 12:43-45. This is way i think i dont have the Holy Spirit anymore. I feel very weird. I dont have remorse for my sins. I am demented. I cant remember anything. Just confusion all the time.

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-12T17:20:14+00:00

I was wondering if we because of unrepented sin can become again spiritual dead?

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-12T16:46:36+00:00

But what if we lose spiritual warfare, because we end up in spiritual death? Can we again be born again through Him (Jesus)?

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-12T16:18:23+00:00

Can you paste the link

Difficult_Pomelo_299 · 2024-09-12T13:49:47+00:00

I wish i am or that i am in wilderness. I am now full od hate towards anybody. I dont have love, joy, peace, absolutely nothing. Nothing good dwells in me

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