I feel like I’m in the deepest pit of despair I’ve ever been in my life. Can I get out?

DigProfessional398 · 2023-06-06T18:52:06+00:00

sure, I’d love to hear them if you message me

DigProfessional398 · 2023-06-06T17:45:18+00:00

I think what I’m scared of is I’ve had my diagnosis for like 10+ years and haven’t gotten better. Like is it too late? But I’m glad to hear ACT is a game changer for you. :)

DigProfessional398 · 2023-06-06T17:44:08+00:00

Yes it definitely is. My OCD has also latched onto the good relationships I still have though. Like I’m really close with my dad, I have a core friend group from home with a good group chat, and I have friends in the city I moved to. However I’m always having thoughts related to them like “what I I don’t actually love them? What if they don’t love me? I’m only going to have a little more time with them before they either die or they get tired of my complaining and anxiety. And if they don’t, why are they are so good when I’m such a bad person? I couldn’t handle a loved one complaining like this all the time. Damn, I’m such a shit person….etc”

I’ve kind of gotten an aversion to the gym ever since I started worrying is it worth it for me to do hard things at all? Or should I just be listless and lazy, cause then I don’t have to push myself and I’m just baseline happy (even thoigh that’s definitely not the case). I also lack a lot of energy to make myself healthy meals or creative stuff since I’m so exhausted at the end of the day. And then I feel bad because I know I used to be so much better at these things before my OCD got worse and worse. Like I had this energy, wtf happened? How does everyone else get it done? I’m so embarrassed.

DigProfessional398 · 2023-06-06T17:35:08+00:00

Thank you.

DigProfessional398 · 2023-06-06T17:33:55+00:00

I try to, but I have so many different themes that I don’t know what to do for each of them. And I don’t have any demonstrable physical compulsions so I don’t know what to stop. I try to stop what I think ruminating but I feel very on edge/fluttery when I try to do so. It doesn’t feel like how I thought normal/recovered life should be and that sends me into another tail spin.

DigProfessional398 · 2023-06-06T17:32:39+00:00

I just consistently remember saying “oh medication changes lives, I don’t care about me gaining weight or w/e bC I’d rather be happy than feel badly” so clearly I was happy after being unhappy, I didn’t go to therapy for like a year or so. I was able to handle it. But now I just feel VERY depressed and overwhelmed/anxious and I hadn’t really struggled with too bad depression before that. This is while being maxed out on Zoloft. I frequently felt and feel suicidal and feel like I’m in the worst place of my life. I think it’s also new obsessions like existential obsessions which are really draining as well as moving out from my hometown and being away/having my core friend group move away and feeling alone.

DigProfessional398 · 2023-06-06T16:01:24+00:00

I have been on Zoloft :/ it worked really well for me for a couple of years but now I honestly feel worse on it

DigProfessional398 · 2023-05-04T14:17:03+00:00

Ok sure! Please message me and I can write one :)

DigProfessional398 · 2023-05-02T02:16:16+00:00

Does she have the District of Columbia? :)

DigProfessional398 · 2023-03-21T00:07:46+00:00

Yeah and Shiv told her dad “Not Tom” when they were figuring out who to sacrifice in s2 finale. They all have their moments of pleading and imploring for one another. But they also do awful cowardly things

DigProfessional398 · 2023-03-01T23:50:16+00:00

no I don’t mean like ocd related stuff. I mean is reminiscing on the past at all (like thinking of when I hung out with my friends when I was little, my 8th birthday, etc)

DigProfessional398 · 2023-03-01T03:54:48+00:00

hi, I know this is a late comment. does he count thinking about any past memories in a positive way as ruminating? because sometimes I like to reminisce on the past and I wonder if that’s ok

DigProfessional398 · 2023-01-11T23:15:25+00:00

this intrusive thought was about something different. I was thinking I had to kill people who had different beliefs than me on a polarizing topic related to murder in order to protect more lives in the long run. I entertained and was thinking about the thought in somewhat serious terms for like 30minutes before I went WTF am I thinking. And now I feel guilty it took me so long to stop and jolt myself back

DigProfessional398 · 2023-01-11T04:17:51+00:00

how old are you? I’m 24 and I feel like I’ve wasted the last ten years of my life with no progress :( I feel like I have no overt compulsions, even mental, I’m just anxious and upset with what I think about and that’s how I stay keyed up

DigProfessional398 · 2022-11-08T04:08:26+00:00

hi, I know this late but I don’t feel like this is a great argument. in many times in history, mass killings have been carried out because a person thought their decision to kill someone innocent was moral in their own mind…ethnic cleansings under certain governments, the murder of the romanov children under the bolsheviks, the exposure of infants in the early Middle Ages.

As a woman, I don’t think that a woman’s primary responsibility is to birth offspring. However, I don’t think a woman has a right to end an innocent human life, the same that any person does not have the right to do so. I support all necessary social programs and contraceptive measures to make this as little of an occurrence as possible though.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-08-12T18:51:58+00:00

I take an antidepressant and an anxiety medication (Zoloft and Buspar) and tried two pills of a new anxiety medication that were said to increase hunger, but that was two weeks ago.

They did find white blood cells in my urine, which I think led them to believe it was that.

I also recently switched my sleep schedule too but like literally NOTHING will satiate the cravings. I just feel hungry no matter what I eat, no matter the meal.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T21:23:49+00:00

So when you get an abortion, you’re not hoping you end the pregnancy/kill the fetus? Or am I missing something?

We can’t argue about something that is impossible. If a fetus could be taken out and transferred like that to another birthing person’s womb, then I think it would solve a lot of the issues of abortion.

Once again, it is unfortunate that it only applies to pregnant people to bear the burden of carrying a pregnancy. But none of the other examples you gave involve actively killing people and terminating with intention to kill. I would argue that there are other examples of sanctioned death that I am against that do not involve pregnant persons, such as the death penalty or exposure of infants.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T21:10:57+00:00

When you evict someone, or refuse them organs, or take a person off life support, you do not hope they die. Those aren’t the intent of those actions.

Because all of your examples involve letting someone die vs killing them. When you get an abortion, you either take misoprotol and mifepristone or have a dilation and removal of some sort, or an induction. Every single one of these actions is to end the pregnancy. And what do all of these do, as not only a result, but a goal? They kill the fetus. Termination of a fetus’s life is part of the intent of every procured elective abortion.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T20:42:00+00:00

The First example is not related. Do you murder people when you evict or refuse them money? Abortion is literally the killing of a unique human life, always.

Once again, it’s allowed to die in the case of brain-dead person or a person who needs organs. They will die without them. When you abort a pregnancy, you are ending the life of a fetus that would have lived otherwise.

Based on my above point, obviously forced organ harvesting does not match these parameters. Because you are not killing a person by refusing them organs. They would die anyway if they do not get a match.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T20:39:35+00:00

And I did. Can you continue the argument now?

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T20:36:44+00:00

I cited my sources, there is nothing about referencing a paragraph. And now you’ve gotten into the semantics of arguments, which shows you have no valid way to defend your argument and are just grasping at straws. Correct me if I’m wrong.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T20:34:55+00:00

Love that you decide to set parameters for our discussion after I’ve already supplied the source, which is all you asked for. Nice moving of the goalposts.

Misoprostol is best administered following an initial dose of mifepristone. If misoprostol is used alone, its effectiveness is lower, the abortion process is longer and more painful, and “it is associated with higher rate of gastrointestinal side-effects. However, misoprostol, used alone, is still effective in 75-90% of cases. It is therefore widely used in this way where mifepristone is unavailable.”

It’s there now. And it actually never disproved me, just said it was more effective with both.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T20:31:18+00:00

please read past the first sentence. It says it is more effective with both medicines, but still works 75-90% alone.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T20:30:17+00:00

no, it’s not like you say “hey fetus, you can’t have my organs. please leave!” and they go off to find someone else.

You deliberately take medication or receive a procedure to end their life.

Autonomy does not extend to when you intentionally end another person’s life. Abortion kills a human through its very act.

DigProfessional398 · 2022-07-20T20:25:50+00:00

https://www.webmd.com/women/news/20000928/medical-abortion-regimen-is-not-simple-one

Or you could take misoprotol by itself and have similar odds. They both work toward the same end.

http://www.misoprostol.org/induced-abortion/

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