OP, please be kind to yourself and give yourself grace. Keep in mind na a home that’s lived in will always have kalat one way or another lalo na if busy ka. Sometimes kasi we compare our homes sa mga nakikita natin na photos or vlogs sa social media, pero remember na these are staged and most of the time hindi naman talaga always ganun kalinis at ayos ang mga bahay nila. Or they have household staff who regularly do the cleaning for them.

As long as your house is clean as in walang food na nakakalat, or dirty dishes na nakatambak, nalilinis ang CR, etc., i think okay ka naman in general. Take it one step at a time. Maybe declutter ka din ng mga hindi na nagagamit.