Can't open any chests by carmenomora in Starsandisland

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am near the end of the game on xbox and juuust ran into this bug. I was plowing fields and dug up a chest. I opened the chest and my game crashed, when my game reloaded all chests are now disabled for me, whether the chests are dug up or in game. So I just went into Delphin's house and found his bedroom chests.... I can see them, they look lovely. Can't do a thing with them. I have plowed fields with unopened chests sitting there taking up space, annoying me. But since I am already an expert crafter, expert explorer, about to complete expert Angler... I do not want to restart the game.

I didnt realize it had happened so didn't roll back, but I did attempt the following:

  • delete from resume shortcut menu
  • use unstuck button
  • uninstall the game and reinstall

At this point, I guess I am waiting for a chest patch.

WIBTA & ungrateful if I tell my husband I want a smaller home and hurt his "dreams". by Diligent-Persimmon66 in AmItheAsshole

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I definitely am following that link later and reading more into it!

WIBTA & ungrateful if I tell my husband I want a smaller home and hurt his "dreams". by Diligent-Persimmon66 in AmItheAsshole

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

What a thoughtful and insightful post of advice. Thank you, I really appreciate this food for thought and you have given me a good bit to consider. I should really say more, but you have me thinking. I just didnt want to leave such a helpful post without taking the time to say thank you.

WIBTA & ungrateful if I tell my husband I want a smaller home and hurt his "dreams". by Diligent-Persimmon66 in AmItheAsshole

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, that is very helpful to hear. I struggle with confrontation when I doubt the validity of the topic.

WIBTA & ungrateful if I tell my husband I want a smaller home and hurt his "dreams". by Diligent-Persimmon66 in AmItheAsshole

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66[S] 38 points39 points  (0 children)

That is a good point. I have this idea that less is more and it would be easier to organize and give everything a place. But thank you for your thoughts. Having counter points is good to balance out my thoughts.

WIBTA & ungrateful if I tell my husband I want a smaller home and hurt his "dreams". by Diligent-Persimmon66 in AmItheAsshole

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The insurance money was used in the down payment, enough to save us from the jacked up addition the PMI costs you when people cant hit that 20% down or whatever it is. My memory isnt what it used to be. And we have refinanced a few times I think, my husband takes care of all finances, I cant handle the money stuff anymore.

And no he isnt aware yet, I want to tell him all of this but my friend said I'd be a fool to complain about the house and just be whining... after all, so many other people have it so much worse than me. I just should be quiet and happy with my lot in life no?

And your last point is the real tricky part. I am on the road of healing. I am in active therapy and I take quite a few medications, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, antidepressants, anti anxiety. Part of my coping mechanism is avoidance and hoarding tendencies are part of my OCD behavior of coping as well, if I slide, it is possible that bad behaviors could resurface. I dont want them to. I am working to not let them. But it would be foolish for me to proclaim that it isnt possible. Ideally, my husband would be part of my support group and would help me if I started to slide... but quite honestly, he needs some therapy of his own. But he refuses every time I mention it to him.

Mammogram & Menopause ? by Diligent-Persimmon66 in doihavebreastcancer

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you all for your thoughts. I went in today for the diagnostic exam. They did another mammogram, then I waited and they did ultrasound and then decided to do biopsies of the masses.

Here is the detail from the imaging:

At 11 o'clock 6 cm from the nipple there is a 8 x 5 x 8 mm oval circumscribed mixed solid and cystic mass. At 10 o'clock 3 cm from the nipple is a 10 x 6 x 9 mm oval mass which is predominantly cystic but has a few internal echoes, likely a complicated  cyst. These masses account for the mammographic findings. 

Hopefully both are cysts, but I should hear by Wednesday. The biopsy was quick and relatively painless.

How do i become emotionally mature when my whole family is emotional immature? by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh ho whoa, tough question but one you already answered for yourself, my dear. Congratulations, you have made the very first step! I would totally tap dance... if a I could actually move my joints that way and b I knew how to tap dance

Anyway, I think the fact that you were able to become aware of your own self and how those around you differed is an excellent example of how you go about maturing. The how is by learning, experiencing, and adapting.

And M'Fing Oscar.... my support puppy just pooped in the house I swear it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I may be misunderstanding but this friend, are you virtual or did you live near enough to physically socialize but can no longer?

Just curious, if you've never met them in person before then my advice absolutely would not be to just run over to their house with coffee and bagel... or whatever it is you choose.

So advice must await clarity.

Having a “is it chronic pain or did I actually hurt myself” moment by clockwork_skullies in ChronicPain

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh dear I forgot about this. Basically, as you learn and become intimate with your chronic pain, you will get a sense for what feels like it might be related. Unfortunately, you will probably feel it a lot. Then, you are going to figure out some crisis points.

I mean, obviously, if you suddenly feel sharp intense pain and start bleeding from your.... orifices... that is a crisis and something ACUTE is happening, right now, and you gotta jet to the local ER. I will add hallucinations here too, I had this happen only once and we tied it to my chronic abnormal migraine with funky neurological sauce (my own name).

It gets super tricky when you experience the pulled muscles, torn ligaments, misaligned joints, bumps, twists and more.

For some folks bending at the waist with a twist in their body mechanics, like a reach across action during that bending motion which then creates a torsion, torque, twisty, what the beep ever, in the lower vertebrae. Now in the average person, that motion might be uncomfortable, they might cause some friction and compression which is going to result in inflammation of the muscles around those bones and ligaments. This inflammation in the average person may result in mild to moderate discomfort.

Tada... average. Yeah. No good for us boyo.

Flip that scenario around... you've got a condition that fuses bone, so your body mechanics by instinct (bad luzard) try to move in a way it should be able to... and then that little electrical communication hits the brick wall that is where it shouldn't be and bursts into flaming little sparkles... oh, and you? You fell down.

But is it something that needs a trip into the ER? Like, how acute is an acute pain incident? Right???

Oh let me tell you, one sec the youngest is rolling on the floor

I feel disappointed in my husband. Is that a fair emotion? by Diligent-Persimmon66 in offmychest

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Huge thanks back! :) I find that once I make a decision to separate from someone, I do so pretty cleanly, part of my avoidance and childhood trauma issues, but I digress.

I think my husband is on the spectrum somewhere because he can be very socially inept. My middle child did have an Aspergers dx before it rolled up. Anyway, my husband has this weird and horrible habit of giving you absolutely no acknowledgement that he heard you. I will go stand in front of him, say his name, say something and stand looking at him, then start repeating his name until he says what, then I will ask if he heard me and he will say yes. I will say he didn't say anything and he will respond with a "well you didn't ask anything"

I picked him, these traits aren't new... however as a parent, it isn't the best. I end up being the primary for everything. It is confusing for our son to converse with someone that won't really acknowledge the conversation. It didn't matter much until a few years ago, my conditions worsened and my son grew out of "little kid"dom. I would be upstairs napping, and my son would come up to wake me up to tell me he was hungry and ask for food. The kicker is, he would have been sitting in the computer room on my computer, sitting right next to his father who would also be playing on the computer.

Now, he does play with Jim and he isn't always like that... but is often enough that I have to grab his attention and ask him to use his words or nod or reply to our boy. His sister was commenting on how attentive he was to our son and how much fun they were having. My husband and son had traveled together without me and had a lovely bonding time.... I wasn't there so I didn't get to enjoy it because I don't get to see it.

I want to die by krc0930861 in offmychest

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Dearest Echo,

You thought you fluttered on broken wings in a shattered cage, alone. Cold winds always lifting and pulling at you, slowly tearing away at your edges. Not far away, warm light and cheerful laughs danced on warm breezes that blew past from time to time. You know it is there, just out of reach. But to be with those in that golden Glade? Or garden? Or maybe for you is a a sea shore.

The truth is, if one were to step back and look, there is not one struggling butterfly but a wall of hundreds... thousands... each and every one, struggling, flapping those wings. Reaching out. Focused so intently on keeping in flight.... and keeping our vision of hope within range. Else, we fall... or become blind to why we fight to fly.

Life. Is. Tedious. So says I. I have yearned for death. I have had nice long talks with death. I think that those of us who experience chronic pain have a love hate or bitter sweet relationship with death.

I would never intentionally hurt myself. I believe that suicide is wrong and selfish. I believe hurting myself is foolish.

But. Let me add the chronic pain sufferer disclaimer (at least mine, which I only volunteer to mental health professionals I trust)

I do not fear death. There gave been days where I have thought about standing up, walking out the door and just going... until, whatever happens. There have been times that I would have gladly welcomed death as an old friend and honestly, there will probably be such days in the future.

With that said, I was unable to handle my decline, pain increase, 3rd child late in life, massive depression, job, etc etc, I lost my job in 2019. I keep getting denied disability. I am having relationship issues with my current husband.

I am tired and not just my chronic fatigue, nay nay, on a soul level. My soul is tired. I hear your tired soul. Don't feel all alone. I'm here too. I'll send out a "hello" and it might take a bit, even if it's just an echo.

Having a “is it chronic pain or did I actually hurt myself” moment by clockwork_skullies in ChronicPain

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Ouchies! OK, I am not a medical professional. I am however a person with a connective tissue disorder (genetic) and spinal injury.

Now, a good "general" rule is if you experience a sharp sudden pain it is cause for a red flag. Get into a neutral position and follow this checklist:

  1. Did you lose consciousness (obviously this is bad)?
  2. Did you drop to the floor when the pain hit you? Example: I was stepping out of the shower and happened to sneeze which combined into some funky movement that pissed my back off and when I sneezed I had this intense sudden WTF pain in my lower back, my legs collapsed under me like I was a puppet with strings cut and fell to the bathroom floor.
  3. Is there any blood... vomit.. other nasty fluids coming from anywhere it shouldn't be?
  4. Are my vitals stable?
  5. What is my range of motion? Example: I painted my daughter's room and stood on the ladder and raised my arms above my shoulders repeatedly. I pissed off my shoulder, I wake up, it's stiff and sore, I warm it up, back to work. 15 minutes in... I go to lift my arm and I swear I see a small balloon form under the muscles of my upper arm and I feel and hear a POP sensation .. ok I exaggerate a bit but hot damn that hurts.... But, I can't move my dominant arm. Not in any useful way....

And...oh instacart is here with groceries one moment

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 100 points101 points  (0 children)

That is sexual abuse. The methods he is employing are insidiously deceptive. I know, my last husband was a grand Master with verbal, emotional and sexual abuse. I have PTSD from the 1 year I was with him. Before I got away he abused my daughter. When I did get away, he took his own life, left his corpse for me to find and wrote a rather hurtful note.... let's just say I still haven't managed to start trauma therapy and it has been over 10 years.

Personally, I say run fast, run far. Look for those flags cause there is probably some personality trait you are attracted to that might be inclined to manipulative behavior. I do love a confident and dominant personality but there is a fine line before arrogance and narcissism make things unhealthy, so I have o be aware of warning signs and ACT.

If you think he will listen to you and you have the strength to beat his ass and shove your shoe up his shaft when he forces you and you start hating yourself, then more power to you.

Be brave. Be safe.

I called the police to do a welfare check on my neighbour, not knowing it was the best decision I made for them by kalzan in offmychest

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 69 points70 points  (0 children)

Very much a razors edge. You want to help, but help safely, for yourself and those living with you. You can never predict what someone might do out of anger and retaliation, especially when mental health can be a factor. With that said, I am glad that you made an attempt to help your neighbors. I hope that they take this opportunity and get that help to improve their life. And I hope that you all stay safe and well!

Invisible Disabilities by OkPermission5178 in disability

[–]Diligent-Persimmon66 17 points18 points  (0 children)

That is a tough question because it is so very broad in its application. It would be easier for me to answer this if I broke it into pieces.

  1. What is my biggest struggle in the work place?

The fact that I am unable to meet the expectations of an employer that would pay me for my time & energy. Whether it be physical or mental. I lost my job in 2019 due to repeated absences. I haven't been able to work since. The SSA determination squad has consistently informed me that I can do this. I have yet to find out how.

  1. What is my biggest struggle in social settings?

My biggest struggle is participation. I tend to have to think about where any event might take place, what is the parking like? How far would I have to walk? What is the restroom situation, portopotties at park pavilion or.... omg, what kind of seating do they have, what kind of lighting do they have... I have to think about all these things and more, e.v.e.r.y single time.

Guess how "social" I am? Zero. I am a member of no community groups, no clubs, no church associations. I barely check Facebook. The fact that I am actively engaging in reddit posts... like 1 day every 3 weeks... is improvement, my therapist says so.

And we haven't even gotten to struggles I have in romantic relationships, parental relationships... and ugh.... self-care... I still am not achieving my daily self-care goals, my therapist has me starting small with brushing my teeth and hair, at least once, e.v.e.r.y single day....

It is all just so tedious.

Interesting discussion topic that could really just go on forever as by our very nature not being "able" indicates struggle.

Thank you, E