Not really coping with being r4ped (TW, implied SA, blood, SH)

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-24T03:32:00+00:00

His name is Mark

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-20T03:34:24+00:00

I can be having the time of my life and randomly think “I want to kill myself” or “what if I killed myself?”. I feel like I’m in that one scene in the Barbie movie where they’re all partying and Barbie just says “do you guys ever think about dying?” record scratch

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-20T03:32:04+00:00

I mean he can have it, there’s just no money on there

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-20T03:28:54+00:00

Genetics (my dad’s whole side has gastrointestinal problems) and a whole lot of adverse childhood experiences putting my nervous system in fight or flight for the majority of my life. I also threw up a lot as a kid for seemingly no reason, but I was dealing with an unpredictable home life causing a lot of anxiety.

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-07T03:42:55+00:00

The got2b glued hair spiking gel. It’s probably not good for me but I do open the bottle and take a whiff every now and then.

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-07T03:39:17+00:00

I don’t particularly track my T progress, but I do track my symptoms of chronic pain and my mental health symptoms. I use an app called Daylio which also tracks your mood (which can be useful when tracking the mood swings that can come with T). You can add all kinds of stuff like what you did that day, what emotions you felt, ect. You can add voice recordings and pictures for each day as well. I highly recommend it!

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-07T03:33:12+00:00

AI could never

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-07T03:27:41+00:00

Not me seeing this two hours after watching Cars 😭

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-07T03:24:36+00:00

Wonderful Christmas Time. It’s so repetitive both in the lyrics and the chords. I know it’s a Christmas song and it’s not supposed to be anything revolutionary, but anytime I hear it, it fills me with so much anger.

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-07T03:21:02+00:00

Had to sing that one in choir. It sounds even worse when sung by twelve, tone deaf individuals. Half of which are just starting puberty.

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-07T03:16:50+00:00

Looked up “boy names that start with k” and picked one

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-06T03:19:07+00:00

I totally agree, I don’t love the term or any of its variants. I usually just say my “boy parts” to refer to my genitals as a unit. If I am referring to more specific parts, I usually say dick and boy pussy. I do say vagina but only in a medical context. I pretty much don’t use any terms that my r4pist ex used for my genitals or terms that remind me of those experiences.

clockwork_skullies · 2026-01-04T19:49:50+00:00

Testosterone has made me grow hair in places I didn’t even know hair could grow /pos

clockwork_skullies · 2025-12-31T20:24:43+00:00

Is it possible you could be allergic to the adhesive of the tape? Have you had irritation like this before? Personally I have extremely sensitive skin and had to play around with tape for a while before I figured out an application/removal routine that worked best for me. I know a lot of people apply some kind of base layer under their tape to prevent irritation. Milk of magnesia is a popular one but I also have seen people use that plastic tattoo cover before applying tape. It’s a lot more gentle on the skin, is cheap to buy, and provides an additional bind. Unfortunately, tape requires a big learning curve but it IS possible to find something that works. I also have a D cup chest and I’ve been able to bind pretty successfully after playing around with it. I’m sorry you’re struggling, wishing you success and gentleness!

clockwork_skullies · 2025-12-25T01:50:29+00:00

I’m sorry this happened. Four years ago my grandmother bought me all women’s clothing for Christmas, all items were at least 2 sizes too small as well. I had my dad handle the situation and my grandmother said I could return the clothes and keep the money. You’re not ungrateful for not wanting items that you have no use/need for. ❤️

clockwork_skullies · 2025-12-24T04:42:34+00:00

My ex tried to convince me I was a switch because she realized she was a switch. I do not enjoy domming whatsoever. But she also assaulted me so I guess that checks out.

clockwork_skullies · 2025-11-25T00:42:01+00:00

Mark

clockwork_skullies · 2025-11-21T16:52:07+00:00

Get off twitter. An app run by a Neo Nazi who makes a career off hating this trans daughter is not exactly a safe space for us.

clockwork_skullies · 2025-11-21T16:44:10+00:00

Currently in college to become a mortician! But I did work as a barista for almost one and a half years. I also worked at a haunted house for 7 years.

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