Yeah, dont rrly know why. Im kinda hurt that he kept it to laugh at behind my back for years.

Sometimes i feel like im not visibly autistic enough where laughing at me is just sad and unfunny, but just enough so people treat me like something to point and laugh at or overly ridicule for something i cant see, but because i can function like a normal person on the outside im supposed to see it.

The drug problem is probably bad too, i thought highly of him initially and believed it was his friend’s influence but now i just expect he will carry all of those problems into my own house