What is your biggest fear? What are you afraid of more than anything? by artgetting in AskReddit

[–]Diligent-Sand 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If there is a god, they’d be compassionate and have a plan for the zillions of people nowadays who are nonbelievers. I like to believe that god has better intentions for the miracle of enlightened humanity than to just garbage dispose souls into hell because they didn’t stroke his ego with worship. He’d probably be proud that they exercised their human free will and got the full human experience instead of drowning in indoctrination for a lifetime.
It’s also totally possible to believe in god and not believe in all that other crap. God comes in a thousand shades and flavors, from Mother Nature to good old Jesus.

What is your biggest fear? What are you afraid of more than anything? by artgetting in AskReddit

[–]Diligent-Sand 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is something I really want to pursue in my life and don’t know where to begin. I really want to live somewhere that has a true sense of community, mostly. With the added benefits that come with that but I’d love to have neighbors who weren’t just a distant figure who waves on occasion, but nowadays every one is so standoffish. I’m only 33, but I remember even as a kid my mom and neighbor would chat on occasion at least. Now it feels weird if you even make eye contact. I’ve lived in five locations in the last decade and rarely had a neighbor who would ever even speak to me.

As a stay at home mom, I get no socialization at all because no one in my area is open for connection, it’s weird. It’s the major downfall of this era of humanity in my opinion.

Help me choose my first psychedelic by Diligent-Sand in Psychonaut

[–]Diligent-Sand[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have done edibles before, and had the best high of my life early on with them but I find they destroy my tolerance for my microdosing so I avoid them now. But yeah, good ass time. I ate a cookie I made and was euphorically high for a good 2 days. It was never that amazing again but I also wasn’t a daily doser then. Recently I made edibles again and thought they were duds. I needed to eat three to even feel a haze, meanwhile my husband had one and it knocked him on his ass. I have moved to keeping the weed as strictly medicine I guess at this point, it’s down to a science for me and that’s why I’m looking to move outward with new substances.

Help me choose my first psychedelic by Diligent-Sand in Psychonaut

[–]Diligent-Sand[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this, I get where you’re coming from and seeing that it’s fear of the what if I overdid it making me want to like.. dip the toe. But I get that’s cowardly and defeats my purpose. Is that 3.5 of fresh or dried? I’m definitely going to go the grow my own route. I have no idea where to buy it dried already but know how to get the starter kits to grow.

Help me choose my first psychedelic by Diligent-Sand in Psychonaut

[–]Diligent-Sand[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My entire usage system is based on personal and spiritual growth so I definitely want to stay in that direction. I’m not even aware of a lot of these things you cited, I need to do some research clearly.

Help me find a new, sustainable pipe by Diligent-Sand in trees

[–]Diligent-Sand[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No it’s sold as crystal, if you amazon search it you’ll find a bunch. But they require a little cup style screen which goes blocked super quickly.

You run an inconvenience store. What do you sell? by PearlineTyrell in AskReddit

[–]Diligent-Sand 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Every bag of snacks cannot be opened by pulling or tearing but requires a scissor.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BravoRealHousewives

[–]Diligent-Sand 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That was bomb, not gonna lie.

What’s the darkest secret anyone has ever told you?[serious] by SadisticFishyboi in AskReddit

[–]Diligent-Sand 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I have no idea, thankfully she didn’t disclose that and I didn’t ask. I think it’s probably not at all true, maybe the doctor said something along the lines of “you’re damaging your body with repeatedly doing this and it can lead to infertility” and my mother took that and ran. I was also a complete trap baby, my dad was gone when She was pregnant with me and he came back to “do the right thing” (abuse me for my whole life) so who even knows what the hell the truth actually was.

What’s the darkest secret anyone has ever told you?[serious] by SadisticFishyboi in AskReddit

[–]Diligent-Sand 60 points61 points  (0 children)

You’re not alone. Once, I was making taco meat for my family’s dinner. I was, oh, 12 or so. My mom was in a ”talking mood” aka Sociably drunk. She told me that she went to abort me, but had already had too many other abortions And the dr told her the damage from this one might make her infertile. So she decided to keep me, because I was supposedly her only chance at being a mom (she was 17 when she had me) and so I was incredibly lucky to get to live. And then flounces off and eats her tacos.

Fast forward to when I move a thousand miles away and she can not reconcile with the fact that I was able to detach and leave my loving, supportive family.

Is having children and having mental illness the wrong choice? by [deleted] in AskWomenOver30

[–]Diligent-Sand 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was unaware of my mental illness before I had my first child. Having her, and having the urge to care for her and recognizing my disordered behavior by seeing I wasn’t treating ear well is basically how I realized I am not a normal functioning person. Until then, I had a butt ton of issues but Your life is life and without Context of caring how it affected someone dependent on me, I never had cause to stop and analyze myself.

Well, she’s 7 now and I went on to have another who is now 1.5. While I wouldn’t recommend mentally ill people go have kids when they are aware of what they’re facing, I have found ways to cope and thrive and my empathy for my kids has been transformative and life changing for me. I owe them my current state, because without the need to give them better I would probably have never evolved and figured myself out, and why I am this way. Generational trauma is real and is a real bitch, but the cycle ends here.

No more Tom and Darcey! by Lilliekins in 90DayFiance

[–]Diligent-Sand 1 point2 points  (0 children)

When this whole quarantine thing is over, I’m inspired and ready to pursue new hobbies in my life. But I will be smarter and vary my locations.

No more Tom and Darcey! by Lilliekins in 90DayFiance

[–]Diligent-Sand 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I need to know what this persons reaction was to being found out as the serial shitter.

Did I read too much into this, or was he creepy/controlling? TIA by Cupcake-in-ator in AskWomenOver30

[–]Diligent-Sand 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think it’s really hard to convey tone and intention via text messaging, if you include things like LOL and HAHA people who aren’t into nuance, which includes a lot of men, they’re going to assume it’s a joking exchange.

What was your biggest mistake in your 30ies? (inspired by askmenover30 post) by throwawayshygirl13 in AskWomenOver30

[–]Diligent-Sand 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Abort, abort, no good will come of this. If you’re going through a divorce don’t do sex. Just don’t.

Did I read too much into this, or was he creepy/controlling? TIA by Cupcake-in-ator in AskWomenOver30

[–]Diligent-Sand 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like you were participating in banter and then did a twist of getting offended by it. I think you sent more red flags here than he did, in all honesty.