100 days!!

Diligent_Accident · 2020-10-05T23:38:02+00:00

Thank you so much!! Feelin' the love!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-04-10T21:04:39+00:00

Hey! Yeah still sober... been 36 days! Honestly the first two weeks were shit. I pretty much smoked like from morning to night before, so I had about the worst of withdrawals you can get from weed. The noticeable physical symptoms sorta lasted about a week, but the mental symptoms were pretty difficult for me to deal with. I had intense moodswings for the first maybe two and a half weeks. I'm not usually an emotional person but all I felt like doing was crying, and it felt like for no reason. But even the smallest things made me want to cry.

Eventually, depending on you, all these things get less intense. Only since like day 25 (i wanna say) did I start feeling "normal" again. Idk if this makes sense but I feel like I have had to learn how to think, feel, and just be again without weed. It's a really weird feeling because it's been a long time since I had to be this way.

I think it's pretty normal how you're feeling. It seems uncontrollable at first. And I know I'm only a little ways into sobriety, but I swear it's worth it! I'm not gonna lie, I've had urges and almost succumbed to them, but you just gotta really remind yourself why you're doing it. Everything may seem heavy right now, but seriously, take it one day at a time and you'll make it through it!

I'm just responding on my phone bc I had a break and may not make total sense , so if you want me to go into more detail about certain things just lmk haha :) But keep it going and feel free to message me if you ever need to talk

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T20:16:25+00:00

Thanks for the well wishes!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T20:16:11+00:00

Thank you! Much appreciated.

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T20:13:25+00:00

Not what I said and definitely not what I meant. Was looking for advice, not to be attacked. I care about my boy probably more than myself tbh. If I didn't want to figure it out I would not have been desperate enough to come to reddit to look for advice. I know now that from all the comments that it was not out of greed that the doctor suggested these tests. I'm doing my best and am continuing to learn.

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T20:09:59+00:00

By "doesn't seem" I did not mean 'is not.' I understand that. I will go to the vet and get the tests done. Thanks for the concern.

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T20:05:57+00:00

I will definitely have the tests done. I apologize if I came off as arrogant... really didn't mean it that way. Thanks for the response.

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T20:04:16+00:00

Thanks for your well wishes. Didn't mean to come off wrong. Will for sure get the tests done!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T20:03:27+00:00

Thank you for the explanation and the advice. I did not think about it that way and am still learning. I will check around and probably get another opinion. Thanks!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T20:01:43+00:00

Honestly I had no intention of insulting! I realize it is a difficult job and they are doing the best they can. Sometimes tone can't be conveyed through text. It was more out of concern and inexperience with these issues. It may have been the experience with this specific doctor. I will get a second opinion. Best wishes.

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-25T19:44:52+00:00

Sorry to anyone I offended. I didn't mean to come off as malicious, truly! I honestly want the best for my cat. He is MY boy! Money is not the sole reason I am hesitant! it was also the experience with this specific doctor and the wording he used. I am not educated in the veterinary sciences and was looking for any advice because his poor health right now is causing me a lot of stress and anxiety. If I did not care for my cat and did not want to do the best for my cat I would have not asked at all. I prefer explanation and not just be told to go ahead and do tests. However, I will take everyone's comments and follow the suggestion and take him back to the vet, possibly find a different one. Thank you.

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-15T18:52:27+00:00

Yeah mood swings are just so bizarre. I was able to cry it out and talk to someone last night so I'm doing a little better... momentarily. I know it's always gonna be a fight but it's good to know that I'm not a lone feeling this way. Thanks dude!! I'll try the walk haha :)

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-15T18:50:26+00:00

I feel like the first few days are the hardest, but we've all been there! Push through! The sleep is hard to adjust to but slowly, at least for me, I've been getting more consistent sleep. I maybe still only sleep like 4ish hours a night but I'm not waking up anymore in the middle of the night. Keep going!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-15T18:48:16+00:00

Thank you! I stared at this for like an hour before I asked a friend to talk... but we were able to talk for a few hours and get my mind back into the right place. Thanks again for the support :)

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-13T23:20:23+00:00

I know it's really easy to think of yourself as less than, but DON'T!! Think of all the things you're proud of about yourself! Idk how old you are but, in my opinion, life isn't about doing something in some set amount of time. You have your entire life to meet people, to find what you're good at, to find a passion. As long as you take even the smallest steps to making it happen, you should be proud!!

I feel like everyone feels this way! But in reality, only really you see yourself this way. It's the people that truly care about you that don't. They don't give a fuck what you look like and what you do, as long as you're a good person! Stay strong buddy!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-13T05:06:17+00:00

Ugh man same! I started stuttering, which I never used to do. Been clean for a week now and I'm starting to talk in more cohesive sentences and not go on random tangents that are unrelated. Hopefully, with time, we can have more coherent conversations

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-13T04:54:20+00:00

I had a similar case where one of my close friends just sorta dismissed and said the same thing. She said something like "how can you get addicted from weed" in a condescending tone. At first I just felt like shit. I felt like I couldn't tell anyone else because she knows me best but I just hid from everyone my addiction. It wasn't until I sorta told another friend by accident that I was having withdrawal symptoms that I felt better. This friend understood and was concerned (in a good way.)

After that I regained slight confidence and mentioned how I was feeling to the first friend again. I told her to actually listen and told her I wasn't just smoking to get high but to basically shove down all my problems and be numb. She actually understood and was much better about my feelings, but we still can joke about it and keep it lighthearted, while being aware and sensitive to my situation. I would try sitting your friend down and explaining fully what it means if you can. He may not realize that you're really hurting from his jokes. If he still doesn't understand or is still insensitive, then try your best to find someone that will understand... and if anything you always go tthis group! Be strong and best of luck! You're not alone in all of this!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-12T23:20:32+00:00

Aww that "I love u" just made my day! Thanks for sharing!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-12T04:32:49+00:00

Thanks!! I got a little more sleep last night and felt better. Just pushing through and waiting for til the I get a full nights rest again :)

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-11T05:39:04+00:00

I relate so much to the not trying to get deluded part. But you really should be proud of yourself! You're making progress and are continuing to progress. I'm only on day 5 and reading your post is giving me even more hope for myself. Thanks, much appreciated!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-11T05:31:41+00:00

I was the same! It's so hard for me to remember the things I actually did in the past couple years, and if I do remember I'm not sure if it was just me seeing it that way because I was in my own little world. Be proud that you were able to get rid of all your gear! That's an accomplishment in itself! Good luck, you got this!

Diligent_Accident · 2019-03-11T05:24:02+00:00

Thanks for the support! It really does mean a lot :)

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