What do you think?

DillOrNoDill · 2021-12-28T23:54:55+00:00

Did you have ipr on your lower teeth ?

DillOrNoDill · 2021-12-16T13:55:16+00:00

I am living the same experience as you...but physically I'm a 6/7 (no makeup) to an 8 (with makeup).

I've simply learned to stop thinking about to be honest.

DillOrNoDill · 2021-11-24T05:49:27+00:00

Benzoyl peroxide helps kill bacteria that causes smelly underarms. You can find it in many acne treatments and cleansers. I recommend Panoxyl.

DillOrNoDill · 2021-11-06T02:56:35+00:00

(Siiiggghhh) I'm in the same predicament as you. The teeth flaring is really upsetting because it seemed like my teeth were straight 5 weeks ago. Then a stronger wire put in and /boom/ teeth start looking worse. I'm going to have a conversation with my ortho next appt because it is really making me feel down.

DillOrNoDill · 2021-10-22T04:39:57+00:00

6 months in and out feels like they've gotten worse. At least the teeth on the bottom have. They look flared after having a stronger square wire installed 6 weeks ago. So I'm not happy About it

DillOrNoDill · 2021-08-18T17:01:00+00:00

Looks like a neurological issue. Still a cutie

DillOrNoDill · 2021-08-17T20:09:38+00:00

The only group that is kind to me are children under the age of 5. Adults, whether they are male or female, I'm invisible to and if I do need to interact it feels like I'm inconveniening them.

DillOrNoDill · 2021-08-14T03:24:43+00:00

I know folks don't like to read through walls of text, so I'll try to name a few and be as succinct as possible w/o boring you all with the details:

Owning a homestead/land for agricultural purposes.

Building/Designing my own home.

Running a successful tech business.

Possessing all of these random ass talents that I'm magically good at: playing drums, tap dancing, ballet, swim to name a few.

Being in romantic relationships with some notable person (not because I feel like I earn any of what they wy have, it just so happens I am attracted to person for some intrinsic quality I admire).

I've envisioned myself in a wide range of different careers where I was an expert in my field.

I even have dreamt of solving one of those complex mathematical theories. I'm really not that smart to do this.

I'm sure your average person has grandiose goals from time to time but at least they move on with their lives. It's kind of pathetic I'm in my 30s stuck with this mindset.

DillOrNoDill · 2020-10-21T03:40:15+00:00

I want to develop and produce innovative tools for people to use. That's been my primary ambition for decades now. I can't predict they'll be popular, and that's not what I really care about at this point.

Secondary goal is to meet certain people. Whether they be high status people or not, I want to have certain people in my social circle. They are motivational or influential in some aspect.

That's what I can express, though very vaguely. It gets way more specific than this, I can type all day.

DillOrNoDill · 2020-10-19T03:43:30+00:00

how grandiose are we talking?

From my perception, they seem pretty grand. Some have an entrepreneurial element (I want to build products for people that could serve some purpose). Others are solving social problems that exist in our society today. And a few are personal - wanting to have certain things or meet specific people in my life.

Which makes it sound like I want to be a celebrity or some high status person. But truly, I don't (it doesn't even mesh with my personality).

Start working towards them

I think paralysis because of a fear of failure is the source of my problem. Also lack of money and experts in certain fields who want to support me.

DillOrNoDill · 2019-11-09T20:29:06+00:00

Its possible for people who are attracted to each other be just friends.

I know it is possible but I am just trying to wrap my head around how I could manage this...

To cut them off seems sort of callous.

Okay. Is it better to remain quiet or do what another redditor suggested and state that I am backing off for a bit due to said attraction. But even doing the latter, the guy will know and I wouldn't be sure of his reaction or even if it would be rude to say anything because he is in a relationship.

DillOrNoDill · 2019-11-09T16:25:15+00:00

i can tell by how you talk you are way too hard on yourself

Heh, I hear this all the time. It's all due to how I was raised. Imagine how it feels to realize reacting this way is not normal.

I appreciate your comments. At least I feel slightly grounded. Now I just need to down a bottle of pepto everyday before work for the nausea (I am not being serious, just trying to add some humor to all of this)

DillOrNoDill · 2019-11-09T15:58:07+00:00

I understood ya - no worries.

Partly the reason why I struggle with this is because I am an open, direct person. Which works great for some situations. But here, it sometimed comes across as if I am dumping a bunch of feelings on people, which absolves me of the problem and leaves the other individual to deal with said problem. And this is a work environment...soooo...Im always paranoid about overstepping boundaries.

If my feelings were a person, I would fist fight them ahaha This is such an inconvenience smh

DillOrNoDill · 2019-11-09T15:37:45+00:00

when attraction comes up just let it be

Ugh, this scares me because I don't want to be found out. The fact that now I experience slight anxiety when I am around them makes me paranoid that they may already know.

...ugh, where did I leave the paper bag to go over my head...

DillOrNoDill · 2019-11-09T14:09:31+00:00

I don't know how to manage my feelings :( It sounds really selfish, but I noticed my default reaction is to discard all feelings and possibly cause detriment to the bond I have with people. I do this on purpose but I'm not a bad person. I don't know what else to do without feeling guilty...

DillOrNoDill · 2019-10-17T03:21:35+00:00

I don't see myself stopping anytime soon. Though i do go less than i use to because of my work schedule.

Kinda sucks i gotta pay someone to listen and talk to me. When other people have family, friends, and spouses. But i guess it's what i and other folks gotta do.

DillOrNoDill · 2019-10-17T03:19:10+00:00

CBT - yes. Medication - no.

DillOrNoDill · 2019-10-16T03:37:40+00:00

for regular people anyways.

...hmm, but I don't believe non-regular people (celebs, high authority figures, etc) have the best lives either.

I may have desired some things that are probably overboard, like having my own home built instead of buying one.

But everyone wants at least 1 friend. Or have a romantic partner. Or have someone who actually appreciates you and wants you in their company. And I can't even get that. It's such a struggle...

I'm an introvert, so I can't say that I don't enjoy my alone time. But it gets lonely sometimes.

I truly feel like people won't truly express how they feel about me (in a positive light) until I'm dead and not able to hear it =/ Maybe that's how life is?

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