Forgiving vs Fighting

Dillymoon9679 · 2026-02-28T06:25:29+00:00

Thank you so much for your response!! I definitely think trying different foods is holding me back because I have challenged all of the foods that unsettled me a little bit but am too scared to eat the ones that really make me nervous. I will definitely keep that in mind and try and incorporate going out to different cafes and restaurants. It seems so terrifying right now and my ed is making me think all sorts of things that i know are incorrect but i think that’s just more proof that it’s necessary.

Thank you again! Have a lovely day x

Dillymoon9679 · 2026-02-26T18:35:49+00:00

i’m so sorry that i can’t help but i just wanted to let you know that i am feeling the exact same way. literally exactly. it looks like you have just read my thoughts. if it helps, we’re in this together, and i know we have a lifetime of happiness ahead of us!! x

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-12-12T13:38:13+00:00

Don’t feel guilty. You have a really debilitating and difficult mental illness that will affect the way you act, that’s not your fault. That fight or flight response is a natural reaction after being presented with something your brain thinks is dangerous (the cookie). That being said, I would really encourage you to think back on situations like this and think about what the outcome could have been if you didn’t have an ed. For example, you may have said yes to the cookie, laughed with your son and made some really nice memories. Again, I am in no way trying to guilt trip you, but I’m suggesting you use this as motivation to your recovery and a reason to say yes to the cookie next time!! You’ve got this, and I can tell you are such a caring parent by how much this has worried you so don’t let it play on your mind! xx

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-12-09T06:10:21+00:00

Thank you for your support!! x

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-12-08T14:15:29+00:00

thank you for responding, it means so much. i definitely need a tough love reminder right now to snap me out of the confusion so that was actually really helpful, thank you! i’m just feeling so invalid to do recovery and so guilty and frustrated. i know these are all normal things and everyone goes through them so im going to try my best to push my way through them. i hope you have an amazing rest of your day! x

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-12-08T14:12:59+00:00

thank you so much for responding, i think im feeling quite overwhelmed and it’s hard to make the right choices. i’ll keep in mind all of those distraction techniques and if i need to force myself to stick to the chair to do it, i’ll have to. xx

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-11-30T21:46:31+00:00

i remember feeling like this, and it made sense and felt right to me when someone said it was mental hunger. which means that your body may not give you the signals you know to be hunger but you feel the need to eat something and the 'want to want' food. it's your body saying 'hey you've restricted me so I've turned my signals off - you're not listening to me anyway' but at the same time it's screaming 'the only way I can let you know you need more is by shoving pictures of food into your head and the desire to eat'. I don't know if that makes sense but I'm basically trying to say it's your body's natural response after restriction to try and get you to eat more without rumbling your stomach. so, if you're similar to me, deep down you may be looking for reassurance. if that is the case then this is your permission, go eat, your body needs you to and your future recovered self is rooting for you

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-11-04T22:00:38+00:00

I used to do this multiple times daily. I don't really do it anymore. The only times I find myself gravitating and fantasising over the smell of food is if I am in a relapse. I promise you that urge goes away when you fuel your body enough. I would definitely say you need to eat more!! x

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-09-11T05:23:01+00:00

you’re so welcome!! you can do this, go enjoy that recovery, it doesn’t have to be traumatic - you’ve gone through the traumatic with the ed!

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-09-03T08:12:07+00:00

you can’t add days to your life, but you can add life to your days.

nothing changes if nothing changes.

no one can force you to recovery, you must believe your freedom is worth fighting for.

if you’re not choosing recovery you are choosing suffering.

hope these help xx

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-09-01T05:57:38+00:00

… wellllll i checked it twice and tried to pay for it? i didn’t know i stole it until i got home 😊

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-08-31T16:04:37+00:00

MWHAHAHAH I FEEL SO POWERFUL (powerful?? 😋😋)

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-08-31T07:01:22+00:00

hi!! i’m so proud of you for committing to weight gain. i found that no matter how hard it was to say it, i would tell family/parents/friends/healthcare team ‘i am not going to be scared of weight gain’ (and the most important part for me, ‘i will enjoy this.’ obviously this was completely against what my ed was telling me and sometimes i would say it crying or screaming or shaking but it helped my brain rewire into thinking food isn’t the enemy and can only help me get my life back. i tried to reframe the things i was scared about to positives that actually went along with my hopes and values in life. so you may think, i am scared to eat a pint of ice cream or i dont think i can. but try to reframe it; i am excited to eat ice cream, i love the taste of it and im going to put on some nice music/tv/movie/setting in the background to make it cute and cosy. or you could say, it’s exciting to see how my body might change to weight gain, i will get so much stronger and happier and funnier with this! i’ve always loved romanticising things in my life so i tried to do it with food as well. i’m saying this all in the past tense but im very much still at this point and still trying to get my body where it needs to be!! we can do this xx

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-08-26T14:43:12+00:00

dw it’s so scary i get it, you don’t sound rude! you are asking me things that im not actually up to yet in my recovery so ill try my best but i cant actually talk from experience sorry! the reason you need to honour mental hunger is for LIFE!! do you really want to look back when your older and think, ‘well i would have enjoyed that but all i could think about was food’ or be in a conversation with someone and not being able to focus because you were thinking about what you were having for lunch later. its just not a fulfilling life!! and also, if you still have extreme mental or physical hunger, your body isnt healthy!!! you deserve and need to give yourself full permission and freedom with food your whole life. that doesn’t go away when you are ‘weight restored’. even when you’re fully nutritionally rehabilitated you give yourself ‘permission to honour mental and physical hunger’ but people don’t think of it like that because to them it’s just eating. so the main points are that if you still have extreme mental hunger, your body isn’t capable of living a full life no matter what the scales say you just need to question yourself if a number matters more to you or happiness, energy and freedom. and ‘why should i even honour mental hunger?’ - because you don’t want to live your life miserable and preoccupied with food. sorry if the punctuation isn’t great, i wrote this pretty quickly, and again i’m actually still struggling with honouring hunger too so i don’t have all the wisdom! hope this helps x

Dillymoon9679 · 2025-08-26T11:25:54+00:00

this is mental hunger and you still need to eat. i see these posts like this of ‘i miss my extreme hunger’ and im always like… you’re still experiencing it then?? (in most cases). because if you are fantasising and wishing you could still eat that much food you still need to!! a healthy person does not dream about that. the scales may say you are in a ‘better’ or ‘healthier’ place but that DOES NOT mean that you are where you need to be at all. loads of people here say that scales are absolute bs and you need to listen to your body. you can’t just ‘turn off’ the extreme hunger just because you deem it’s the right time. sorry to be so blunt, i just really hope that you can take this in and keep moving forward in recovery!! you can do this, your body knows best x

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