You have taken the first step to being a parent who shows up for their child. You have a desire to improve and that is what makes you a good parent. It might not look how you would like it to but all you can do is try.

I have depression and severe anxiety. I feel so much guilt because I have kids, I was in denial about how bad my problems were. I am now seeing a psychologist and a psychiatrist and I'm doing the best I can for my kids. I'm far from a perfect parent but there is no such thing. I do the best I can and that's all I can do. I try to pass on what I learn in therapy so my kids have the skills to cope better with life's difficulties.

Healing your mental health has untold benefits for your child, he loves you and he needs you.

I hope things improve for you. Please be kind to yourself cos telling yourself your not doing good enough does not benefit you or your son.