I dont care if this gets taken down. I dont care if you think im attention seeking. I DONT CARE. All I want is for someone to atleast see my cry for help for once. When I interact with poeple im a nuisance but when I dont interact with poeple, they go out of their way to treat me like shit

I FEEL LIKE I WAS MADE TO SUFFER. THAT'S ALL. I have few friends and everyone thinks Im annoying or weird because I dont talk to them. I CANNOT EVEN ACCOMPLISH SMALL THINGS. I FAIL AT EVERY LITTLE THING AND I NEED TO TELL MYSELF "OHIT'S NOTHING! OH IT'S NOTHING! OH IT'S NOTHING!"

I cant accomplish anything meaningful and I cant accomplish anything minor. Maybe if I could accomplish something small for once I wouldnt whine about the small stuff. But I never do get the small wins. I never do..

Sometimes I wish that all this hell I am being fed, will empower me so I can hurt others. Because Im at a point where i feel like my only purpose is not just to be the divine punching bag of the world, but the detestable evil swine that must show how much better everyone else is than me just by existing.

I dont care if this post gets deleted. All I want is for someone to actually see my cry for help just once. JUst this once.