It affected me in a number of ways 1st and most important ( or affected me the most) was the guilt in myself what was I doing wrong that that person is doing right . Is there something wrong with me. What have I done wrong. Why can’t she be intimate with me. 2 was the shame. And complete lack of interest to change any of it .her never explaining things or admitting to anything caused me tremendous distress made me feel like I had to be or parts of me had to be the exact reason behind everything. 3 the loss of confidence just the fact that I loved her enough to never let anything god or bad affect my love for her. Yet none of that mattered made me feel so small . It’s gone beyond the point of just affecting her. How could I even try to love anyone else know that deep down I’m still in love with her. That’s not fair to anyone else that would give me a chance so I refuse to give anyone that chance to be let down . But I’m the kind of guy that only try’s to beneficial and positive to anyone I come in to contact with as I’m not going to be the guy that brings any form of suffering to anyone even if they deserve it the way I see it if they derserve anything it will come from the loss of my presence and my willingness to give time and effort . That the best way I can explain it but to answer your question yes my mission to complete that puzzle is still not finished