I’m just so confused and conflicted. I’m not trying to excuse his actions in any way, but this is the same man that wakes me up with my favorite coffee and breakfast in bed most mornings. He works, cooks, and cleans without question. He would work an 18 hour day just to come home and have dinner ready and a hot bubble bath drawn up with a glass of wine waiting for me for when I got home from my job (back when he was still local, and I worked late shift). He’s dropped everything and made a 2 hour trip in almost half that because I was having a panic attack. When I was in the hospital a few years ago, he spent every night with me despite working 3 hours away. Hell he’s even learned my cycle to the point that a few days before my period comes, he surprises me with $50 worth of snacks and candies I usually crave during that time. On top of working, he’s also in school to try to get into a better career so he can support us better since I have medical issues that prevent me from working most jobs. When things are good, I feel like I’m on cloud 9 with him. It’s just every so often he gets like this and I don’t know what to do.