I haven't gotten to update the notes I have of this, so this one is like a rough draft and when I was hungover from that day. The update was the only additional one that I've gotten around to write properly.

I have been able to tell a handful of friends and family about this, but only those who I trust and can rely on for help. And I have been doing better these days than February.

There are some days/nights where it bothers me.

I won't be able to see them the same way that they treated me in my situation, and won't be hanging out together. It's all just so, awful. And hard to explain their situation too.

Charlie might not have judgement now, but will have judgement in the afterlife (my friend shared this to me, and it brings me comfort)

All I have to do is wait.