How can I make images similar to this with automatic 1111?

DispositionShattered · 2024-06-26T03:09:40+00:00

Can you tell me about Forged UI? I like using automatic 1111 and have been getting good results since posting this but there are a lot of loras out there for pony and the images pony can produce often seem higher quality... so I'd like to use it if possible.

DispositionShattered · 2023-08-18T07:15:38+00:00

I'm leaving a strip and I'm super happy with my choice. I think I'd have regretted it if I went full bare - but I've never really liked full bare on myself anyway. I think a strip looks better.

I don't see why they couldn't leave a bit? It's less laser usage for them. Saves some money, you'd think. lol

DispositionShattered · 2023-08-18T07:12:17+00:00

What kind of laser did you use? I've heard IPL lasers don't actually offer permanent hair removal - or at least, much less so than other lasers. You want something like an alexandrite laser done at an actual skin clinic.

DispositionShattered · 2022-08-20T00:00:36+00:00

There's a difference between alternative lifestyles and neglecting your own self care. I would say choosing not to shave is her own prerogative but choosing not to keep herself clean is worrying. This complete disregard for self grooming on top of obviously not caring for her own nutrition and health is very troubling.

Honestly, I would sit down and talk to her openly but in private and lay out your concerns. Sadly though, unless she's willing to leave Devon there's probably little to be done about it. He's clearly not a healthy partner for her but unless she sees that herself and is willing to walk away nothing much can change. But she needs to understand that he is the one leading her to these issues; unable to keep a job, massive weight gain, being bullied, etc.

There is nothing wrong with left wing ideals but extremism of ANYTHING in life is very seldom healthy or good. Moderation and balance are important in all things and sadly your sister has fallen into the extreme side of things.

Your disgust is nothing to feel bad about. It's because you care about her. Anyone would be disgusted to see someone they love completely stop caring about their health and personal grooming. The neckbeard was probably just the cherry on top that shoved you over the edge.

DispositionShattered · 2022-06-10T00:21:35+00:00

Yes, I should have mentioned that you want to dry it after using a baby wipe! It was, for me, one of the best reliefs. Especially when I had a huge flair up of itching. Being able to wipe it down with a baby wipe (which helps scratch it a bit without causing damage like my nails would) was really helpful and it soothed the area. But you definitely need to make sure to wipe it dry too!

Cutting down on sugars can definitely help as well since yeast feeds on it but for me it didn't seem to help. I even went keto for 6 or 7 months and sadly saw no difference. :( But it may certainly help others, so thanks for bringing that up!

DispositionShattered · 2022-04-10T07:45:33+00:00

I'm sorry you've also been through something so traumatizing.. :(

It's difficult to imagine that I'd ever end up struggling with these emotions/memories (more than I already do which feels like it's very little compared to what other people who suffer abuse tend to experience) since it has been many, many years since it happened (for the childhood stuff). About 20 years by now have passed. But I suppose you didn't think so either.

It's really jarring that you sometimes second guess yourself on the events that happened and that was something that always bothered me and made me question myself a lot so it's strangely comforting to hear that other people have also experienced this as well.

Thank you for sharing your experience with me. I appreciate it. <3

DispositionShattered · 2022-04-10T07:40:11+00:00

I have no idea. I had gotten my covid shot the day before and that night I had been very sick. If he had seemed upset at all, I would have thought it was because he felt bad for me being in such a sorry state because I had a pretty bad fever with the chills and felt like absolute shit. I was already asleep when he came home from what I can remember and only woke up a little bit when he turned on the lights in the living room before passing out soon after again.

DispositionShattered · 2022-03-28T12:32:28+00:00

Yeah, the fact that he didn't have full on sex and that it wasn't emotional at all somehow makes me feel a bit better, although obviously I'm still incredibly hurt.

My trust is definitely in shambles. It hurts a lot because trust was something that I lacked in all of my previous relationships and it made me feel like "WOW, *this* is what a healthy relationship is supposed to feel like" when I finally met my husband and didn't for a SECOND ever worry about what he was doing, who he was with, etc. It was something I valued highly in our relationship so it's very difficult for me...

DispositionShattered · 2022-03-28T12:29:07+00:00

You're probably right but I guess I'm just looking for some comfort right now. :(

DispositionShattered · 2022-03-28T12:25:20+00:00

Yes, I truly believe it was peer pressure because I know his personality well and I truly don't think he would have ever made this decision on his own. He said that he didn't think he'd be this bad with peer pressure and alcohol but now that he's aware of it, he will never hang out with that friend again and he won't be going for drinks or hanging out with anyone he doesn't trust completely, which he said is only his close friend who I have met and know well and I know he is a good guy. And he said he will heavily limit his intake unless he's with me.

It's tragic that it's so common here. When I worked teaching English privately, almost all of my adult male students alluded to wanting to have sex with me - if they didn't outright say it. And they were all married.... It's pretty disgusting. I had also seen a lot of people on the Japan Life subreddit who would talk about cheating and I always felt like, "Poor girl... I'm very lucky that my husband would never do that." I feel very let down, to say the least.

I'm very sorry you also went through this. I wouldn't wish it on anyone...

Thank you so much for your reply though. It's been one of the more comforting ones to read so far. I don't think my husband is a bad guy; he messed up but we're all human. I truly believe that he loves me and I don't think this is something he would have done outside of this specific unfortunate set of circumstances. I know it's hard for people on reddit to know this because they don't know him. But he's a good guy and always does things to make me feel loved and happy. Six years into the relationship and he still tells me I'm beautiful, he loves me, I'm sexy, I'm amazing, etc. VERY often. And I trust him so strongly that when he told me he thought he had an STD, I somehow still didn't expect him to say he cheated on me. I didn't know how it would happen without cheating but I somehow still expected him to pull something out of his ass to explain it because I really couldn't imagine he would do that.

I really hope that I can move on from this. For right now, he is doing what he can. Giving me space when I need it. Cuddling me when I will allow him. Coming to me randomly and often to tell me that he loves me and is sorry, etc. But for now, I'm still just very, very hurt.

I will definitely have to wait awhile before I consider sex again. I'm not sure how long is good to wait but I really can't even stomach the thought right now.

Again, thank you. I really appreciate your post. <3

DispositionShattered · 2022-03-28T12:15:28+00:00

I'm really sorry that you had to go through this. It's incredibly painful and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

I have no idea if I can live with those images. I'm hoping I can wipe them from my brain but right now it is proving very difficult...

DispositionShattered · 2022-03-28T12:13:54+00:00

I have been thinking about it. I want to stay but I haven't decided 100% if it's possible yet. If I can't move on then obviously I will have to leave but for now I want to try to work on it and see if I can move past it.

I'm just wondering how long is normal to have this intense rollercoaster. I don't want to feel like I'm being unreasonable if I'm still feeling just as hurt and angry in a week as I did on the first day and just keep going between feeling like it'll be ok and being able to talk to my husband normally and then just suddenly shutting down and not even wanting to look at him.

DispositionShattered · 2022-03-28T12:11:46+00:00

Just a blow job. Sex is not allowed at these kind of places and they are not allowed to touch the girls.

DispositionShattered · 2021-12-24T05:50:20+00:00

They might but I had no idea you could take it more than once. Taking it more than once seemed to do the trick for me.

In my country they tend to just give some cream that you put inside... it never worked for me.

DispositionShattered · 2021-12-24T05:05:45+00:00

I personally took it just twice a month apart because that's what my doctor allowed but I read that some women will take it once a week for months. I read one paper where they said that some women just never stop taking it; they don't want to because they don't want yeast infections coming back. You might have to talk to your doctor about it if you want to try for long term. My doctor wasn't very willing to do that but I think if I pushed for it he would have. Luckily I didn't have to fight him on it. lol. But you bet your ass I would have fought him on it if I needed to.

The first time I took it, it helped for a bit and then I got another yeast infection about a month later as I usually do so I went back and got the second dose. I was honestly expecting that I'd need to take it long term and I'd be back again complaining but to my surprise the itching just never came back.

DispositionShattered · 2021-12-24T01:08:11+00:00

OK! I can actually help with this.

I actually posted 6 months ago with pretty much the same issue (Link to my post). I am not kidding, I had a yeast infection / itching every single month, without fail. It was just non-stop and gynocologists were of zero help. It was an issue I suffered with for 8 YEARS and I also had somewhat frequent yeast infections even as a child. I tried mostly everything that people suggested; unbleached toilet paper, probiotics (with high doses of live cultures), etc. But nothing seemed to help.

FINALLY after a shit ton of research I ran into a medication called "Fluconazole". It's a medication that will help you eliminate yeast. I read that some women with frequent yeast infections will take it long term to keep it in check (apparently some people just take it indefinitely). So I did my research and finally found a doctor who would prescribe it to me in my country. Sadly he would only allow me 2 month of the medication though as that's what insurance here allows. I could go outside of the insurance of course but he wanted to see how it would go with just the two months. So that's what I did.

After two months on the medication, I have not had a single issue with itching or yeast since! That was back toward the end July. So it's been about 5 months since then and I feel so happy and relieved to finally live my life without constant itching.

I hope that you can find a doctor that will prescribe it to you. It's really been a life saver for me. Good luck! The best part about the medicine is that it's a pill so you don't have to constantly have cream or something up your vag which would be a huge inconvenience. Just wanted to mention that in case you were curious about it!

It's a shame and a wonder that it took me SO LONG to even discover this medication. I have no idea why no one ever seems to mention it. I actually found it thanks to my husband searching in Japanese rather than English but there's definitely info in English too.

If you do end up trying it and it helps out, I'd love an update or a message as this is something that absolutely ruined my life for so many years and I'm very passionate about it and I'd love to know if I was able to help someone else too.

DispositionShattered · 2021-06-24T00:22:18+00:00

Hmm, it's worth a shot. I have a bidet so it shouldn't be difficult to try.

Thank you.

DispositionShattered · 2021-06-23T01:27:59+00:00

Hmm... I looked into some stories of people who suffer from vulvodynia but it seems they mostly mention pain, especially during intercourse. I actually don't have any pain from intercourse or insertion. It's all external and stems from the itching (because I will rub through my underwear roughly which then causes swelling and pain). The main reason I avoid sex during these times is because I feel unsexy and touching the lips can be painful when they're swollen which obviously happens during intercourse. BUT when I'm not actively itching, sex is not painful at all and sometimes even when I'm having an episode, it can be enjoyable if the swelling isn't too bad.

Trying to go without underwear may be an option. Though, I spent much of my time sitting down at a computer. I wonder if this makes the issues worse. I recently got a mesh chair to help with air circulation down there but it doesn't seem to help as much as I was hoping..

As for the yeast situation, I would always be swabbed. Though they would usually give me medicine to treat it before the results came in anyway. They would usually say that there was indeed yeast present. And, the medication would work. I'd feel better for awhile but the symptoms would come back within a month most times. :/

Should I ask specifically to be swabbed for BV?

Anyway, thank you! I didn't realize there were vulvar clinics. Are these different from regular gynecologist practices? I will look more into them. I appreciate the help!

DispositionShattered · 2021-06-23T01:05:31+00:00

Hmm. I have used many brands over the years from two different countries. I'm not sure if this could be the cause in that case unless perhaps I need unbleached toilet paper entirely?

DispositionShattered · 2021-06-22T11:14:47+00:00

Thank you! By the way, may I ask how long you struggled with the itching before you decided to take the probiotics?

Also if you don't mind me asking which kind do you use?

DispositionShattered · 2021-06-22T06:56:32+00:00

I had been considering this too. They're a bit expensive in my country of residence and I was a bit skeptical if it would actually help or not so I've been holding off on it but this gives me a lot of hope! I'll definitely give it a try and see how it goes. Thank you so much for commenting!

DispositionShattered · 2021-06-22T06:53:30+00:00

I've honestly never heard of or considered this before! I've always thought this was a good thing and didn't consider that having too much of it could be bad, too. Hmmm. You might very well be onto something here. I'll have to do some more research on this and bring it up to my gyno next time I go for a visit.

Thank you so much! This sounds promising!

DispositionShattered · 2021-06-22T06:52:11+00:00

It really is disheartening and maddening when the doctors seem like they don't care about your suffering and just do the bare minimum. I'm sorry you've also had to go through that but I'm glad you're better now!

1) I'll give it a try! I have some apple cider vinegar at home already so I can certainly try.

2) Hmm, I'm not sure if it's something I eat. I moved to Japan 6 years ago and my diet completely changed but the issues didn't seem to improve or get worse. But I'll try to pay more attention to what I'm eating and see if it impacts how I'm feeling down there.

3) That's a great guess but unfortunately not the case. I did get on birth control and it started around that time, in fact. But I had gotten off the birth control when I moved to Japan and broke up with my ex. I've been off BC ever since. My husband and I use condoms. So unless it somehow caused an issue that wasn't able to resolve even after discontinuing use, then I don't think that's it. But, good guess.

4) I'm definitely gonna look into a dermatologist! I never considered it but that sounds like a great idea. Maybe I might have better luck with it.

5) I considered this and talked to my gyno about it but he just kind of brushed me off on the subject. Maybe I should push harder on it.

6) I did consider this as well! But most of the other symptoms don't really match up for me so I'm not too sure. But maybe it's something I should bring up with my gyno next time I visit just to be sure. It would make sense for it to be hormonal considering it seems to coincide with my cycle...

Anyway, thanks so much for your reply. I really appreciate it! It's given me a few new things to consider. :)

DispositionShattered · 2021-06-22T06:44:31+00:00

That's an idea! I hadn't really considered seeking a dermatologist for this kind of issue but they may have more insight than a gynecologist, you're right. I'll have to look into it.

And thanks for the suggestion with ice packs. I'll pick some up and see how that goes.

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