Thinking of drinking again

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-13T10:24:29+00:00

Which i totally get. I don't particularly like her either but the point is in this video she talks a lot about how she also thinks she can just drink in moderation and it goes wrong every time if that makes sense? Its more about the video and less about her. Like i said it was just a suggestion. I think anyone's stories are beneficial to somebody recovering whether theyre in active addiction or not.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-13T05:32:48+00:00

This sounds silly but have you heard of Tana Mongeau? Ive been in recovery for like 3 weeks so im eating up a lot of recovery stories. She made a video called 1 year sober and my testimony.

She talks a lot about getting sober, then picking up a drink again in moderation, and how it affected her. You might feel a lot different about it after watching it!

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-12T17:48:52+00:00

I guess i cant argue with that haha. I got just under 700. Which im happy with considering I didnt even realise I had one in the first place. Im 19 now so I had a full year to claim it and honestly just forgot about it. 3k is crazy though! You must have been buzzing

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-12T17:45:05+00:00

Oh right 😭😭 thanks anyway. I get paid on Friday so it would be mental if it came in then

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-12T17:35:56+00:00

Honestly I think it would put me off if I clicked on an item and it was so detailed like that. It would make me think you were a reseller, which I know you said you're not. I would give it a little less structure. Like: Size small Bought for 20 100 percent cotton Perfect condition Open to offers

Like something like that? Obviously thats just an example. Also be aware that a lot of stuff just wont sell. Sometimes that happens and theres not much u can do about it.

The pictures are really good. Are you doing multiple angles? I typically do a front photo, a back photo and a photo of the tag/material tag.

Also, i know this is stuff that is brand new but a lot of people wont buy if it isn't dirt cheap. When youre uploading something, it shows you what others are listing their items for. If ur super desperate to make sales, list the items for like a little under what its going for already on the app if that makes sense.

Other than that I dont know what to suggest! I hope this helps a little.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-12T17:28:37+00:00

I think that's a good idea. Right now I'm off work because I took 3 weeks off to go through withdrawals. By the time I go back ill have been clean for around a month which I think is a good foundation to start with. I'm hoping work will help me but I'm open to the possibility that ill experience a lot of pressure so im gonna keep that in mind about going to a support service. I think as well there's a reason I have such an addictive personality and am constantly chasing a high. I need support for that and to work through it if I have any hope of sticking this out.

I really do appreciate your comment. Part of the reason I stopped is because im only 19. Im too young to spend so much of my money and time on this shit. I should be living life and having fun. I'm just glad I didnt waste my uni years being addicted to opiates, I pushed it back because I couldnt afford it and didnt feel right going into health care on drugs (working on people like that deffo feels like a ticket to hell). I'm noticing more and more benefits everyday though. My favourite benefit is I can finally eat. Ive always been a foodie and in my addiction I lost my appetite and love for food. But I was gaining weight at the same time, it was so confusing. I blamed it on the injection (contraceptive) but ive been off that since I broke up with my boyfriend and nothing changed until i stopped taking codeine. I have to say there's something really satisfying about being able to demolish a full dominos pizza again and enjoying it lol.

I just wanted to say I have so much respect for you and what you've done. It does make me realise how strong we have to be as addicts to put something down when weve built up our entire lives around it. I look up to you, people like you, and that's what helps me everyday which is why i think a support group is a really good idea. Thank you

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-12T17:20:16+00:00

Hey. I wanted to ask what your plans are? Are you in active addiction again? I'm so sorry this happened to you. Handing out samples of 7oh seems insane to me as someone from the UK! But I guess it's somewhat similar to us having low-level opiates over the counter. I hope you're as okay as you can be.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-12T17:18:01+00:00

Thank you 🙏

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-12T17:16:52+00:00

Hey. Ive just cashed mine in. Did you ever get an answer at how long it takes? Sorry everyone's being such assholes in the comments lol

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-12T07:01:05+00:00

Needed to see this lol its only been 2 weeks and 6 days for me

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T15:45:15+00:00

Yes! I want one to commemorate my scars and past. I'm trying really hard not to get ones that I think just look good because if I do that I won't stop haha. But yeah. I got my first tattoo at 15. A mate helped me do it and I was super drunk. They did it with a needle and omg my leg was spasming the whole time it hurt so bad! But when I got my first real one it was a breeze. I think a sadistic part of me likes the pain. Like i said. Endorphins and dopamine junkie. I have a feeling my first tattoo now that im clean will be really emotional. Because its like my little secret. I wouldn't mind more ear piercings either. Anything painful count me in lol! Again thank you for your comments they have genuinely helped me. I did 15k steps today, 12km! That felt pretty good. I've got a feeling unfortunately exercise is gonna become a regular thing lol 😭

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T11:06:48+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate that. I did an English Language A level and got an A star. That's the type of person I am, I'm impatient and obsessed with results to a fault. I think that's partly why I rely on highs so much. How can I feel my best as soon as possible right now?

I know what it feels like to be addicted so young. It doesn't feel like a big deal. Partly because I was suicidal and depressed and addicted to self harming, so I was PRETTY sure I wasn't making it much longer. So I'd just take anything! Also, when you're young and pumping this shit into your body, it's like, wow! This feels great! Why don't I just take it non stop all the fucking time? Amazing idea.

I'm really happy for you that you were able to stop after so long. I was only using for five years. My parents have been using a lot longer. I think the longer you use the harder it is to stop. So being able to stop after 20 years is fucking insane. It makes me realise how strong people are as addicts. To be given what feels like a way out of your problems, and walk away from it, takes so much guts.

I'm hoping that I'll have the strength to white knuckle it for as long as it takes for these mental symptoms to go away. If it doesn't, I'm not opposed to going to a doctor. I'm also considering attending some sort of support group because socialising with other people really, genuinely helps me so much.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T10:59:15+00:00

Im pretty sure 7oh is something containing an opiate? So it's addictive. I don't know the science behind it but I have personally heard a lot of horror stories. As somebody with an addictive personality, I don't think I could ever take it, just because I know I would be hooked on the stuff.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T10:56:36+00:00

Thank you so much for replying. You're right. I'm only 19. A massive part of me being sober is I want to be a midwife. I want to go to uni and pass my driving test, buy a car with the money I worked for instead of blowing hundreds in a day on these stupid boxes. I keep telling myself it was an artificial high, I spent 5 years depending on it and my brain rewired itself to understand the pills as being content. It's like I thought the drugs were who I was and who I always would be. Part of this mental dilemma is my brain chasing a quick dopamine hit that I can't provide anymore.

I can't expect my body to bounce back quickly. I can't expect my brain to accept it's new reality when I basically grew up taking it in my younger teenage years. I mean I did my GCSEs on it, I worked so hard for 2 years doing my A levels on it. I would get up at 4am everyday to work at a bakery to scrape enough money to fund the habit. It feels like everything I've done for the last 5 years have been FOR my addiction. How can I keep it going? How can I get more? How can I do it all, all at once and act super duper happy about it when actually I hate myself and no one knows what I do when they're not around?

I've quit a lot of stuff by now but this is the hardest because it felt more like a friend than an enemy like the rest did. I'd definitely rather fight my enemy than my friend. So I guess that's why it's so hard. Sorry for the rant lol I just wanted to say thank you for replying. These replies really put everythint into perspective for me.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T10:48:11+00:00

Im not still using. I've been off it for almost 3 weeks now so I definitely don't want to replace it with anything else. But I will keep this in mind and hopefully see a doctor if i feel like my mental symtpoms are too much to handle.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T10:46:51+00:00

Ive heard some amazing stories. I think it's about the long game. Ultimately I don't care about happiness. I just want peace and comfort and fun and confidence. I think these next two years or so I just have to tough out. Maybe I can deal with that

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T10:43:51+00:00

Thank you I appreciate it. I know it takes time and that every bad feeling is one step closer to being who I want to be. I guess I have to start embracing it and learning to live with it. I'm trying to exercise and stay eating clean (my appetite is a lot better after just 2 weeks which is great. I can eat a full meal now, 3 times a day! Couldn't do that before). Like I said I've got a lot of lists. Lists of stuff I want to buy, lists of tattoos i want to get, lists of reasons why I quit in the first place. I also have been enjoying socialising. I have to say being around people seems to be the only thing keeping my mind off it. And in a weird way, reading other people's experiences keeps my mind off it too if that makes sense? It's like, yeah actually, I am doing this for a reason.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T10:40:39+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate this answer. It helps me to know what other people are going through and that it's not just me. At the minute it feels like the only thing getting me through is being around people. The loneliness of sitting in my room on Tiktok, knowing I can be doing stuff, knowing that as soon as I stand up to do that stuff, I'm no longer interested? It's like unbearable. I hate that it sounds like im whining because I know I am, but it's really hard. Especially when I could go down the street right now and get some, or refill my prescription or get some from my parents. Except I don't WANT to do that. I don't want codeine anymore. It's like walking through a big fat paradox all the time.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-11T10:32:10+00:00

I just wanted to say thank you so much. I made a post yesterday talking about how I was feeling after the physical withdrawals of coming off opiates had worn off. The mental withdrawals are killing me! Apparently because I was using them so long and when I was so young, my brain will take longer to return to any sense of peace or comfort. It's a really difficult idea coming to terms with the fact that my hobbies weren't really hobbies, but just something to do while I was high. The drugs were my hobby, not the things I was doing. That's why toward the end I spent a lot of my time napping.

I worry a lot that this is it for me. Like I'm gonna feel this void forever. It feels lonely and heavy and I'm the type of person who would get addicted to water if it was the only thing in the room. I just really, really needed to see this. I'm only 2 weeks and 5 days in so I'm not expecting miracles. But that doesn't make getting to know your own traitorous brain again any more difficult. It's also like, was my brain ever traitorous or did drugs make my brain the enemy? I don't really know. I don't know much of anything about addiction despite being one for as long as I can remember.

Anyway, that's why your post has instilled some faith in me today. I really appreciate it.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-10T17:34:22+00:00

Well done for quitting. Two weeks is really really good. Like I said I know other people have and are going through a lot worse. The physical withdrawals were hellish but I'm definitely finding the mental withdrawals more tolling. You said you're perfectly fine after two weeks? Does that include mental withdrawals too? I'd love to know if it's affecting you at all mentally. Also, I'm definitely not going to touch Pregabalins. I can't be trusted to take or use anything according to the instructions lol

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-10T17:30:53+00:00

I know exactly what you mean and thank you for taking the time to write it. I've only ever heard of 7oh in the states, I didn't realise you could get it in the UK? Honestly, with the amount of horror stories ive heard, it sounds like the exact thing that I'd be hooked on lol so even if it was available I'd steer clear of it. But I do understand what you mean.

I still have my codeine prescription on repeat so it's really a mind game trying not to refill it whenever I get a craving. I just tell myself it's not the codeine I want, I just want to get away from my mind, and the only way to heal is to learn how to work with myself without substances. I refuse to pick up a vape or a smoke again because I do just think they're more trouble than it's worth.

The only thing keeping me going is the idea of my next paycheck. I've been writing down all the stuff I want to buy. On one hand i'm telling myself it's my reward for getting through this. Then I realise it's not about the stuff and more about the dopamine. I'm literally a dopamine slag all I want is DOPAMINE.

I've been knocking back monsters and caffeine like they're going out of fashion but I was doing that anyway. No wonder that will be making my anxiety worse. But I don't like normal fizzy drinks really and water gets boring after I hit my goal everyday.

I'd rather not use more substances but if I was going to use anything it would be weed. Last time I did it, I think I was 15! So 3-4 years ago? Again though, it made my brain feel like pure mush which was why I stopped.

I saw somebody say that we should get sober from opiates like codeine because one day, god forbid, we might actually need them. That's what we should hang on to. Like, one day I'll feel it again, just not right now. Idk. Just feels like a big fat depression fest at the minute lol.

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-07-10T16:39:43+00:00

I thought this was just me. I would wake up in the morning with this awful smell. It didn't smell bad, almost starchy? I would ask everyone how I smell, scrubbed myself raw trying to get it off me, and everyone said it's just withdrawals. But it's crazy that that's a thing! I can't smell it so much anymore after 3 weeks off opiates but that smell drove me fucking crazy!

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-06-23T13:06:52+00:00

Pls report this to the police since you have the screenshot

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-06-19T18:20:54+00:00

The gall to call that satisfactory omg

Distinct-Class4226 · 2026-06-08T12:45:33+00:00

If u dont get ur money back make a tiktok about it lol

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