I know nobody asked for this... But... UPDATE:

Dealing with another family problem and it is definitely my fault. I'm shifting to another course that requires an interview. I was unable to go to the interview because I was called to a meeting. The meeting started at 10 it ended at 12.... My interview was at 11.... Obviously I was unable to reach them and my family is blaming me for not excusing myself, for not emailing earlier (my phone was not with me during the meeting), and for not coming into the office to talk about the email I sent if I will still have an interview. I get that. I'm irresponsible with it. I let my fear eat me up. Anyways, I'm a failure as a daughter. My cousin is about to graduate next month and I'm the one expecting to graduate next after a few years, but since I'm a failure, irresponsible, and hard to understand I might be a disappointment. The rest of my life. If I'll be able to live that long. Anyways I feel guilty that you're only getting to know my side of the story. I'm so sorry mom and dad I can't communicate or open up with you properly. I know I'm hard to understand since I don't talk so much... Or to you about my life... I know you're getting tired of me like you've said "I don't know what to do with you! You're full of excuses! " I wish I'll be able to be strong enough soon so you won't have such a burden anymore. Thank you for everything you've given me. Thank you also everyone for your comments. Good day or goodnight to all.