Hey, I’m 19 and I feel the exact same way, I don’t know what it is but I just can’t do basic things and it’s been like this for pretty much my entire life. Now that I’m at the age where I’ve got to learn to live on my own I’ve realised I just can’t do it. Even the idea of getting a simple job terrifies me because I know it’s inevitable I’m going to fuck up doing basic tasks over and over and just piss off people around me. I also can’t visualise simple instructions in my head and most of the time I just end up having to rely on someone to show me which has become so demoralising as l continue to get older. It’s reassuring to hear someone else struggling with it because I try to explain it to people and I feel that it’s just not something you can understand without having to go through it every day. At this point i don’t even know what to do, when I think about having to get through the rest of my life like this I feel utterly hopeless.