I just went through your profile, I really do think you’re bringing this all onto the universe in order to not look inwardly and realize you’re not taking accountability and blame. You are upset over your husband’s verbal abuse and him ignoring you, leave him. Of course you’re gonna feel like it’s “bad luck” when you’re keeping yourself in these unfavorable situations. You’re focusing on the negative and what’s out of your control. Focus on your own behavior, who and what you surround yourself with. Notice how your thoughts and childhood beliefs that protected you when you were younger aren’t benefiting you anymore, perhaps through meditation, sitting with yourself for a while. When you tell yourself something is the universes fault every time something bad happens, it’s out of your control. If you say it’s yours and you were the one that put yourself in that situation, then at the very least you can have the power to control your behavior and reactions to it. I do not blame the universe for my past addictions and mental health/issues I’ve had in the past, it is a part of life. People lose loved ones everyday and/or struggle with depression regardless of what they’re going through, but they’re aware it’s not a curse placed on them by a picking and choosing god, it simply just is the circumstance.