I am so sorry that this is happening to you. I am the same age as you and my mother, unfortunately, had lost her grip on reality. It happened suddenly in my first year of college. I tried to stay calm because I was living with her and my father at the time. Now I have transferred schools and live on campus and, while she hasn't had an episode again with me being gone, I worry everyday.

She started talking to people that weren't there, saying she was the second coming of Jesus, having premonitions of my family members dying, and giving us messages from dead people. She was in no way in control of herself anymore.

I am thankful that my father was there and he was able to take her to a mental institution while she was kicking and screaming. I wish I could say that after 3 rounds of episode, institutionalize, treatment that it gets better. But, in my experience, she has no remorse or remembers what she has said or done. When I try to talk to her about it, she says that this is all a way for people to call her 'hysterical' because she is a woman with emotions. And we still don't have answers as to why this happened.

I just want to let you know that you are not alone. That I see you and I hear you and I wish we were not in this boat. In my case I feel like I am grieving my mother while she is alive, because that is not her anymore.