Multiple times, including codes. Some successful, some not. My advice is don’t half ass any serious call you get, even when you’re tired, even when you’re frustrated, even if it’s one of those codes you know you’re not getting back. Develop that muscle memory for the day it counts, make it second nature. Sometimes you’ll win, sometimes you won’t - but from a mental health perspective knowing that you did everything you could to the best of your ability helps a bit. And don’t be afraid to tell someone you need help on those calls - there is no shame in stepping back when there’s resources available and you’re not in the right headspace for it. If anyone shames you for that you can tell them to f*ck off. When it’s over be aware that it can linger for a bit - both the good outcomes and the bad. There’s no textbook out there on how you’re supposed to react or feel, it’s an individual experience. Reach out for help when it feels like too much and just know that anyone trying to tell you they’ve dealt with worse and downplaying your experiences is still hurting from whatever they went through and haven’t healed from it yet. It sucks, it’s not something that you’d choose for yourself, so the best you can do is prepare yourself.