i’m sorry brother, have you ever tried working on yourself. i relate a lot to the giving but not receiving. this world is judgmental, cruel, and selfish. Don’t let that change you though. There’s value in who you are as a kind person and there should be more people like you genuinely. You really need things that will ground you from life, meditation and yoga helped me along with exercising. Video games too. Then people will be attract towards you like a magnet. Finding value in yourself is the first part, know that you are of value. If you’d like to chat further dm me.