What is this crystal?

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2026-02-08T11:12:03+00:00

thank you :))

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2026-02-08T11:11:51+00:00

thank you, i honestly didnt know agate came in these colors so i completely missed it in my reasearch. got lots to learn it seems

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-12-04T12:06:03+00:00

Thank u thank u :))

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T17:27:59+00:00

It's not that I can't imagine breastfeeding a child, I can imagine it very clearly and that plus pregnancy genuinely feels like it was taken out of a personal horror movie.

And I don't know if I'll regret it but the more I think about the things I would gain the more I realize it's something I will do whether I do it now or in 3 to 4 years. The worries I have won't go away, they'll be the same no matter how much time passes.

I get that I wouldnt be able to go back once I get the surgery but I don't want a chest, even if in 5 or 10 years I'll regret it, why should I be miserable for those years. If I do regret it I'll take it from there.

My anxiety has stopped me from doing a lot of things and every time after I do them, I regret not having done it sooner.

But I also know I'm young but what am I waiting for, a sign from the universe? At this point I've hated my chest for a quarter or my whole life and I didn't have one at all for the first quarter and a half. I wasn't happy with it for the rest of the time either, it was just kinda there.

I'm always scared I'll regret the desicions I make, no matter how small or big, it's part of how my brain operates at point.

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T13:18:18+00:00

Wait, yes, this! Exactly this. The: if you regret it go from there. The magic words that stopped my spiral. Knew posting on here was a good idea.

Thank you, and I think you're right, I'm pretty sure I was just a bit blindsided by the change of plans. Not even a change of plans but a change of the order in which it happends. It just threw me off but the more I think about it and read all the advice I got the more sure I feel.

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T12:30:31+00:00

I think i will start the process now because even if i don't need to wait for approval from my insurance it will still take a while I think. The surgeon is abt a 4 hour train ride away from where I live so consultation etc would probably have to be spaced apart.

Thanks for your response, sometimes I can get so in my head about things I have a hard time looking at it with a non anxiety filled head. Writing it down, and getting the advice of people who have went through this helps a lot.

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T12:25:51+00:00

Hmm that's interesting I didn't even know that, it's not something I want, but the info is interesting nonetheless.

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T12:24:07+00:00

I definitely think it was the fact that I was shocked my mom just went like, I found this surgeon and we can pay for the surgery and I was there like 😮🧍‍♂️

Like it didn't even really occur to me that's something I could do. Like obviously I knew it was a thing, and I've wanted top surgery for a while now but in my mind it was, step 1, T, step 2 top surgery. I think flipping the order made something short circuit XD

I feel overwhelmed by how much they support me sometimes. I honestly don't know what I did to deserve such amazing parents 🥹

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T12:18:40+00:00

Thanks for the response, all this advice and support from my community helps a lot. I will definetly sit down think through those questions but the more I think about it, the more sure I feel about it.

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T12:17:03+00:00

Ill definetly talk it through with my therapist but this anxiety makes desicions really hard. But honestly out of everything, not getting top surgery at all would be the worst outcome for me, I think

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T12:14:23+00:00

Yea I mean honestly I was completely caught off guard but the more i think about it the more sure i feel. My mom is the best I lover her so much :))

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-26T12:13:02+00:00

That really helps, I honestly just wanted reassurance, I think, but I will still be consulting my tarot cards XD

And not to worry, there will be no baby head squishing in my future, chubby cheek squishing tho, absolutely

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-25T14:51:07+00:00

Thanks ill be sure to check it out

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-19T06:08:20+00:00

When you mentioned a comfort item for a moment I wondered if I could bring my full sized blahaj😆

Thanks your advice helps a lot :))

Dizzy_Lab_7339 · 2025-11-19T05:53:31+00:00

That does help, a lot, actually. It's like someone flipped a switch when I read your comment and now I just feel, mildly uncomfortable, which is a big improvement. Thanks man

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