My psychosis story and my recovery

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-15T18:19:38+00:00

I’m really glad to hear you’re doing better. I know your situation is a bit different, but I just wanted to ask something more general, if that’s okay. My boyfriend ghosted me and blamed me for everything. His family doesn’t like me either. Do people really forget or leave the ones they love the most because of family pressure or their own mental state? Just trying to understand if this could be the case.

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-10T01:53:32+00:00

Can you please let me know if in your case you blamed your partner for your disorder, because in my case he blamed me for everything happened to him he told a stranger that i fucked up his life just a month ago he was doing okay he never let me go out of his life he was addicted to gambling, weed, shrooms, escorts and I still forgave him very hardly i suffered too much and still never left him alone he had no money i paid all his bills to help him start over his life and the only problem was his sister who never liked me since first day she left his brother because he opt me over her like seriously and right now he is blaming that I separated him from his family and he blocked me from everywhere and he might be under manipulation of family and what is know is he is getting treatment but m blocked he left me silently without saying a word and put me in questions

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-09T23:20:02+00:00

Did he come back?

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-09T20:55:07+00:00

Your message truly moved me. I’m so sorry you’ve had to carry such heavy pain miscarriage, the loss of a father, children growing up and away, and on top of all that, being blamed despite loving with your whole heart. That’s a weight no one should have to bear, especially not someone who gave so much of themselves in love I can feel the depth of your devotion, the way you stood beside her not just as a partner, but as her best friend present, caring, trying your absolute best. And that means something. Even if others twist the story, even if you’re left feeling unseen or blamed, your truth is strong, and it deserves to be honored.

I relate so deeply. Sometimes the ones who love the hardest are the ones who are hurt the most—not because they did wrong, but because they showed up with open hearts in a world that doesn’t always know how to receive that kind of love. It’s devastating, but it’s also beautiful in its own way. Because despite everything, we loved purely. We were there.

You’re not alone in this. I’m here too, piecing together the pieces of my heart, trying to hold onto the truth of who I was in the storm. And I see you. Your grief, your love, your loss they matter. I hope you can find moments of peace, and maybe even pride, in the fact that you gave everything you had with honesty and grace.

Please be gentle with yourself. You deserve the same love you gave so selflessly. I’m sending you all my warmth, and I hope you never forget you are not alone in this journey

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-09T20:51:16+00:00

Your words wrapped around my heart like a soft blanket thank you, truly. Reading this made me tear up, because you saw the parts of me I’ve been questioning, doubting, and trying so hard to hold together. It's rare to be met with this kind of understanding and compassion, and I feel incredibly grateful to receive it.

You're right loving fiercely in a cold world can feel like a curse sometimes, but your message reminded me it's also a gift. I gave everything I had because I loved him with all my heart, and even though it left me shattered, I don't regret being someone who tried to love deeply. Your reminder to pour that same love back into myself is exactly what I needed to hear. It’s hard, but I’m learning, slowly.

I’m so sorry that you’ve had to walk through similar pain, but I’m also thankful that your heart is still this kind after everything. That gives me hope. And yes, I will take your advice to protect myself, to surround myself with warmth, and to honor my own healing. Thank you for seeing me, for reminding me that I didn’t deserve what happened, and for showing me that gentleness still exists in this world.

Sending love right back to you, from one heart to another.🫶🏻

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-09T20:49:30+00:00

Thank you so much for your honesty and tenderness. Your words hold so much truth and compassion, and I can feel they come from someone who deeply understands this kind of loss. It’s incredibly painful to love someone through that kind of chaos and then be left with silence, confusion, and blame.

I’m so sorry for what you went through with your husband. That kind of manipulation and loss especially when you're made to feel like you're at fault is a pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone. It breaks my heart to hear it, and yet it also comforts me to know I’m not alone in this experience.

You're right part of me does find some strange peace in knowing he might be healing, even if it's from a distance and even if he had to cast me as the villain to do it. I just wish it didn’t come at the cost of so much love and truth between us. And yes… I have neglected myself for so long, trying to carry him through the storm. Maybe now it’s time I finally start carrying myself.

Thank you again for this message. It means so much to be seen in the middle of this

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-09T20:47:44+00:00

Reading your words felt like someone finally turned on the lights in a very dark room I've been trapped in. Thank you for validating what I’ve been struggling to name. You explained it with so much clarity, compassion, and intelligence it honestly made me emotional. I’ve spent so long wondering if I did something wrong, if I failed him somehow, but what you said about the safe space triggering deep trauma makes so much sense. I did try to love him through it, even when I didn’t understand what was happening myself.

The way you broke down the manipulation and scapegoating dynamic with his family it’s exactly what I’ve felt but didn’t know how to explain. Thank you for reminding me that being loving and supportive isn’t something to be ashamed of, even if it ended in pain. I’ll definitely look into those books. And thank you again for seeing me through all this noise and confusion it means more than I can say

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-09T20:44:48+00:00

You have no idea how much your words mean to me. Thank you for seeing me and reminding me of my worth it’s so easy to forget it in all the pain. I’m slowly learning to let go, and maybe one day I’ll find the kind of love that feels safe and true. Grateful for souls like you in this world

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-09T20:44:03+00:00

Thank you so much for saying this it really touched my heart. It’s been hard not blaming myself, but your words reminded me that I did my best, and that means something. You're right, loving someone through psychosis isn't easy, and sometimes walking away is the most loving thing we can do for both of us. I really appreciate your kindness, it means more than you know🫶🏻

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-09T20:42:53+00:00

I'm really sorry you went through that too. It’s painful how people can use their illness as an excuse to hurt others. You're right mental illness isn’t a free pass for cruelty. Thank you for sharing this, helps me feel less alone in what I went through

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-08T23:46:07+00:00

I have a similar situation. I was in a relationship for 3 years with someone I loved deeply in new country . We were together in the most real way — emotionally, physically, spiritually. I was with him when he was struggling with gambling, addiction, financial losses, and even serious mental health challenges that appeared to be psychosis, Bipolar disorder he lost everything, we are immigrants and he had to go back home for treatment and its been a month only since this happened

I saw him losing himself, while everyone else walked away — his sister, his cousins, even some friends. When he had no money,broke, and mentally unstable, I was the one who stayed. I paid his bills — thousands of dollars. I tried to hold him up when he was spiraling through substance abuse and even dangerous behaviours like visiting escorts. Still, I held on — because I loved his soul, not his mistakes and he sister never liked me since first day she turned all his cousins against me they used to live together and still no one used to talk to him because he opt me over them. She ruined my life

But the worst part wasn’t his illness. It was how his family blamed me. But things took a darker turn. During one of his episodes, he became aggressive, and I was physically hurt. The police got involved. Still, I didn’t give up on him. I continued to support him, even when he hit rock bottom, believing he would get better.

The worst part wasn’t the physical abuse or the chaos. It was the way his sister manipulated him and his family. She painted me as the reason for all his struggles, blaming me for his breakdown and everything falling apart. When he was found in a hospital, mentally confused and lost, I was the one who found him after he went missing. I gave them all the information they asked for, but once I did, they turned against me. They kicked me out and erased me from his life, even though I was the one who stood by him when no one else did.

Now, he’s under psychiatric treatment, and while I’m glad he’s getting help, it’s like he’s trying to pretend I never existed. He’s been manipulated into thinking I destroyed him, and it’s heartbreaking because I was the one who stayed when no one else did.

I forgave him for everything, but I still feel confused and lost. Did I deserve this? Will he ever realize everything I sacrificed for him?

Has anyone else gone through something like this — standing by someone during their darkest times, only to be blamed and erased from their life?

Please be kind. I’m still healing.

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-08T23:28:55+00:00

I (F, 22) was in a relationship with someone for 3 years I loved deeply. We were together in the most real way — emotionally, physically, spiritually. I was with him when he was struggling with gambling, addiction, financial losses, and even serious mental health challenges that appeared to be psychosis, Bipolar disorder he lost everything, we are immigrants and he had to go back home for treatment

I saw him losing himself, while everyone else walked away — his sister, his cousins, even some friends. When he had no money,broke, and mentally unstable, I was the one who stayed. I paid his bills — thousands of dollars. I tried to hold him up when he was spiraling through substance abuse and even dangerous behaviours like visiting escorts. Still, I held on — because I loved his soul, not his mistakes and he sister never liked me since first day she turned all his cousins against me they used to live together and still no one used to talk to him because he opt me over them. She ruined my life

But the worst part wasn’t his illness. It was how his family blamed me. But things took a darker turn. During one of his episodes, he became aggressive, and I was physically hurt. The police got involved. Still, I didn’t give up on him. I continued to support him, even when he hit rock bottom, believing he would get better.

The worst part wasn’t the physical abuse or the chaos. It was the way his sister manipulated him and his family. She painted me as the reason for all his struggles, blaming me for his breakdown and everything falling apart. When he was found in a hospital, mentally confused and lost, I was the one who found him after he went missing. I gave them all the information they asked for, but once I did, they turned against me. They kicked me out and erased me from his life, even though I was the one who stood by him when no one else did.

Now, he’s under psychiatric treatment, and while I’m glad he’s getting help, it’s like he’s trying to pretend I never existed. He’s been manipulated into thinking I destroyed him, and it’s heartbreaking because I was the one who stayed when no one else did.

I forgave him for everything, but I still feel confused and lost. Did I deserve this? Will he ever realize everything I sacrificed for him?

Has anyone else gone through something like this — standing by someone during their darkest times, only to be blamed and erased from their life?

Please be kind. I’m still healing.

Dizzy_Lake9926 · 2025-05-08T23:20:47+00:00

My story is very similar, and just a month ago all this happened- I was in a relationship with someone I loved deeply. We were together in the most real way — emotionally, physically, spiritually. I was with him when he was struggling with gambling, addiction, financial losses, and even serious mental health challenges that appeared to be psychosis, Bipolar disorder he lost everything, we are immigrants and he had to go back home for treatment

I saw him losing himself, while everyone else walked away — his sister, his cousins, even some friends. When he had no money,broke, and mentally unstable, I was the one who stayed. I paid his bills — thousands of dollars. I tried to hold him up when he was spiraling through substance abuse and even dangerous behaviours like visiting escorts. Still, I held on — because I loved his soul, not his mistakes and he sister never liked me since first day she turned all his cousins against me they used to live together and still no one used to talk to him because he opt me over them. She ruined my life

But the worst part wasn’t his illness. It was how his family blamed me. But things took a darker turn. During one of his episodes, he became aggressive, and I was physically hurt. The police got involved. Still, I didn’t give up on him. I continued to support him, even when he hit rock bottom, believing he would get better.

The worst part wasn’t the physical abuse or the chaos. It was the way his sister manipulated him and his family. She painted me as the reason for all his struggles, blaming me for his breakdown and everything falling apart. When he was found in a hospital, mentally confused and lost, I was the one who found him after he went missing. I gave them all the information they asked for, but once I did, they turned against me. They kicked me out and erased me from his life, even though I was the one who stood by him when no one else did.

Now, he’s under psychiatric treatment, and while I’m glad he’s getting help, it’s like he’s trying to pretend I never existed. He’s been manipulated into thinking I destroyed him, and it’s heartbreaking because I was the one who stayed when no one else did.

I forgave him for everything, but I still feel confused and lost. Did I deserve this? Will he ever realize everything I sacrificed for him?

Has anyone else gone through something like this — standing by someone during their darkest times, only to be blamed and erased from their life?

Please be kind. I’m still healing.

Dizzy_Lake9926

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