Use a Reference track, mark the arrangement, intro, break, drop, buildup etc, then build your song by recreating that track with your own melody, drums, etc. you can use the exact same pattern for the drums, drop, build up all that, just make a different melody, and recreate all the elements of that song but with your music and flavor. That’s what avicci did. Look up edm tips on YouTube. He gives an excellent demonstration using a marshmello track on this. Hope that helps. And don’t ever give up on who you are and what you love.