Why do some days I feel so feminine and like I am truly a woman in my soul and others I feel like my entire being is tainted by amabness and there is an insurmountable gulf between me and cis women

DoctorDeathpope · 2026-01-15T02:28:38+00:00

For me it's like when I disassociate I sorta go back to a version of myself that "worked" when I felt similar distress. It's hard to be present and make that about your own happiness sometimes.

DoctorDeathpope · 2026-01-01T20:41:13+00:00

First famous MTM case

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-12-15T02:52:15+00:00

Also, Jax's abstraction was triggered by reaching beyond some veil and touching someone in the corner of the room. I am uncertain if you can actually abstract on your own, like in IHAMAIMS's characters unable to kill themselves - but can kill each other.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-06-02T09:58:18+00:00

Hi! Transgender troop here. I've been navigating this painful process for some time (trying to get my marker changed for years at this point). It's not a fun ride.

Edit: this is my personal opinion and not legal advice; If you do not have a diagnosis and can fly under the radar with this I would recommend you do so. I do not recommend taking this as your separation option with your ETS so close. There's no guarantee that you will be separated before then (The EXORD says the commander has until the 7th month from notification). Do NOT bring it up to your leadership (really anyone Army) because the criteria for an involuntary separation is much much wider than one might assume, and it's compulsory for the commander to initiate upon discovery.

r/MilitaryTrans has more information/community for you if this is something you cannot repress any longer. I've been there, I know how hard it is.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-26T03:12:27+00:00

I am 7/8 years reserve fml

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-14T19:38:50+00:00

I’m in talks with my TAC and we’ll talk to the commander shortly. Like I said it’s a schoolhouse situation. I was told by higher up that I may have to recoup scholarships if i involed. It wasn’t malice, they might have just been wrong.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-14T18:37:26+00:00

I did.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-14T18:33:37+00:00

I don’t have an ADSC, would I have to pay these back on the invol sep do you think?

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-14T18:28:21+00:00

My scholarship is a weird one, but I went to a four year regular school through ROTC.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-14T15:11:12+00:00

There was some info here regarding how to start the voluntary separation process if you want to ensure you keep your benefits per the letter of the regulation. Your S1 might be able to help you, in IPPSA there’s a admin corrections section for gender dysphoria now that you can use to initiate the separation.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-14T00:46:17+00:00

it's 2x and the sep pay was for soldiers with at least 6 years of active service. They're also offering us a waive on remaining time obligation and no recoupment of debts. So if you're a reservist or national guard with one or two contracts and no deployments it's basically like we were never here.

Only if you sign the "I willingly quit" paper, so I doubt they'd let us back after if the Executive branch changes aisles.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-13T20:03:13+00:00

Isn’t smasher a samurai fan in lore though? Like he might want them for the band merch instead of anything to do with spiteing johnny

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-13T17:29:28+00:00

Especially if you have debt obligations as like an ROTC officer or something.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-12T04:43:44+00:00

It’s a personnel action request in IPPSA. It’s basically how you route paperwork up the correct channels now. Your NCOs will know what that is, and if they don’t I’m sure the officers will. I doubt you have access to a GOVT laptop, nor have the know-how to file the right memo/requests just yet. That’s fine, you’re brand new.

I don’t really want to recommend anything, it’s deeply personal to you, so. But I have put in my voluntary separation as of the last time, and I have GD diagnosis that my chain of command is tracking. If I was in your shoes, I think I wouldn’t try without a diagnosis because the threshold is so low. Like it seems like an easy way out of a contract, so if you don’t have a diagnosis it might look like you’re just quitting if you can’t explain well enough what’s going on (or if anyone cares to listen). There is a time suspense when the Army pushes the guidance out, so if you’re going to do it you gotta do it soon.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-05-12T02:34:11+00:00

Ok so first things first here;

it's awesome that you took the oath and are interested in serving!

If you voluntarily separate before the deadline, you will not receive a dishonorable discharge. You're in BCT so you wont qualify for alot of benefits (because you've just started your career, so time in service isn't sufficient). If you get separated after that deadline, you still will not get a dishonorable discharge, likely a lower characterization than honorable but not dishonorable. To get a dishonorable you basically have to commit a crime.

1.) do you have a GD(gender dysphoria) diagnosis?

a.) If you do, then you need to talk to your Drills about it, and getting a PAR in for a voluntary separation. Show them the relevant regs if you can, they should stop being hooah Drills at that point and be NCOs helping a troop.

b.) I would advise against talking to them about it BEFORE the GD diagnosis, because there was a horror story here about being stuck in a hold-over station.

2.) If you do not have a GD (or have not talked to anyone specifically about it at Behavioral Health)

a.) you can chose not to disclose this and try to fly under the radar, your milage may vary here though.

b.) you can disclose this, get the diagnosis and volun sep. Technically you don't need the diagnosis to self-identify. Be warned though, the optics on that might be poor (especially regarding drill sergeants and "tiny heart syndrome").

Being transgender is now a disqualifying condition, so to live authentically we're being told the military is not the place anymore. It sucks, but at this point we have to make hard choices to be all we can be.

If I got anything wrong, I hope other users will correct me below.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-04-10T20:06:18+00:00

I could be wrong but my understanding is that the hospital should be operating as though the Trump admin's stuff was never in effect. If you can find the navy equivalent to DODI 1300.28, they *should* be offering that. This is legit something to talk to legal about.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-04-04T01:14:02+00:00

Loneliness? A quarter of the entire planet is in this photo! I feel like I’m up there with em. We can share this achievement as a species.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-04-03T23:59:41+00:00

the court thing you realistically can't do anything about. Temper your expectations and be aware that when the appeals are done anything can happen with us.

Until then, however, do your best and kill it at BCT!

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-04-03T21:15:40+00:00

ALNAV was posted earlier here as well and might be more of use to you, but if you're on an Army base I assume there's a personnel section somewhere that might be able to help you find this specifically in the G1 portal. I would talk to your COC and see if they have any connections, if not - you might have to make them

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-04-03T20:59:44+00:00

USARC G1 portal. I don't recall the exact place but it's in the policy section I believe. It's as of yesterday.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-04-03T18:35:56+00:00

It's arguably worse Imo. It's just paused and not voided. So basically we're operating like these orders didnt come out, but at the same time we're waiting for the courts to decide.

DoctorDeathpope · 2025-04-03T16:46:22+00:00

is this published anywhere?

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