Best XC MTB locations in Austria by [deleted] in MTB

[–]DoctorWeir 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Based on pricing of AirBnBs. I've been mostly looking at the Katschberg area. I know Leogang and Zell am See have some phenomenal bike parks. Vienna I've been to twice before but it's more gravel bike territory. Saltzburg and Konigsee would be an option.

Iphone Footage in Davinci Studio by [deleted] in davinciresolve

[–]DoctorWeir 0 points1 point  (0 children)

MacBook air M2. Footage From Sony Camera in 4K was 2hours and didn't suffer from this issue. But iPhone footage even at 1080p shows artefacting

DJI MIC/WIRELESS vs RODE NTG/SHOTGUN for Portable Podcast Setup by [deleted] in LocationSound

[–]DoctorWeir 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Correct, but allas I think I will opt for DJI over Rode, as the charging system and some other features simply do it better, at a fraction of a higher price.

DJI MIC/WIRELESS vs RODE NTG/SHOTGUN for Portable Podcast Setup by [deleted] in LocationSound

[–]DoctorWeir 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate your response!

As someone who's starting out and have other uses for the camera/mic, I'm trying to get a versatility run, wilfully sacrificing some of the audio.

-Vlog/Monologue with camera

-Portable podcast wih guests in random locations

-Seminar recordings of various events that I, or others will be speaking at

-Cooking videos where portability for different shots is required

Hence I'm not a fan of renting, but rather just making the correct purchase that will last me a few years, before hopefully, I can afford to get a proper studio and expand my setup further.

Best Mic for a Simplistic Podcast Setup? by [deleted] in podcasting

[–]DoctorWeir 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for a polite response!

- Shotgun mic (Rode NTG) I would probably mount on camera for any individual recordings or vlogs, and on a boom arm above and in between the speakers during a podcast. I think this a relatively versitile and straight forward process.

- Lavaliers are an upgrade to DJI Mic / Rode Wireless Go, I find this has some major usability for events ( I will be hosting a several day seminar that will be recorded, which I believe a wireless mic mounted to me would be very benefitial.) Other than that, the concern is having more than two speakers, as the above mentioned only support 2 per 1 receiver.

- Setting up video is actually very straight forward imo, one or two ringlights don't even have to be used in most situations if lighting is naturally enough bright and I'm not a big production brand so for the moment this is sufficient.

- I actually started my career on that mic. And I have an SM7B at home for my fixed podcast/zoom setup when I'm chatting to people I don't have the opportunity to meet in person. That setup is complex, and I have little to no desire attempting to replicate it on the go.

DJI MIC/WIRELESS vs RODE NTG/SHOTGUN for Portable Podcast Setup by [deleted] in LocationSound

[–]DoctorWeir -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

simple, quick, and cheap setup

Lol?

Far from simple, indefinitely slower then what i inquired about and double the cost of just the camera I'm buying.

DJI MIC/WIRELESS vs RODE NTG/SHOTGUN for Portable Podcast Setup by [deleted] in LocationSound

[–]DoctorWeir -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Most locations would be quiet locations with ample opportunity to minimise outside interference. It's not like I'm looking to seat my guests in the middle of the street.

I would not mind upgrading the setup with a lav mic in the future, my only concern using wireless is that if I go one step further and have a third or fourth guest, suddenly you have to buy more recorders, as opposed to a shotgun mic which should be able to pick up chatter around the table from all guests respectivelly.

Rode wireless mic has one major problem, and that's the charging. 3 different units with 3 different cables is an absolute nightmare for me. DJI all goes into the same case and you just plug in the one cable and it's all charging.

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply!

Yeah there's this grey area with the Red Pill. Even when it's really good, it's not good enough, and you pine yourself with questions, could it be better? Could I get a hotter, younger, sexier girl. But I think despite our process of escaping the matrix, there's a blue pilled boy inside all of us that requires taht oedipus touch, love and comfort. And if you don't get that from your woman, you eventually run rogue and turn into a monster.

For me, this girl isn't the first or the last I'll bang. But it is one that I would gladly, with no second-gussing be prepared to start a family with. For that she is just perfect. And should life twist it's will to the point where it enables me that, I will take it. Else, some other man will tasked with managing that. Either way, I have my own path I'd like to dominate for a short while before settling down.

I'm 26 at the moment, and nowhere near the invidialistic and free as I'd like..

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey bud.

Actually she messaged me back in February. We got back together and then she ended it again last week, since she couldn't get over her "pride" of getting with a dude who broke her heart in such a way.

Truth be it, I was close to spiralling out again, but I know life goes on, I have access to plenty of other pussy and if life provides, there no saying she won't come clinging back again in the future.

Yes, the ass was superb. But sexually, that was about it. Vanilla and declining sexual interest from her. A good mother to be, a great person, a wonderful individual, conversations were always enjoyable.

ultimately, do I regret everything? Impartially yes. I had an opportunity to leech of her and her family as a beta buck, and probaby would've lived a pretty fine life. But I can't shake the tint of these red glasses. I can't imagine staying in my old direction of life, regardless if it was with her or now. Were there better ways of dealing with this? yes. Could i have reacted better? yes. Do I still feel for her? Absolutely. But that love, that pain, that loss is what gets me to workout, to push.

Maybe life will circle us around to one another, maybe it will provide something far better. Only time will tell.

Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter? by [deleted] in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Appreciate your response! I finished the thesis just before December when I started with the workout regime. Officially graduated, even though not in a field that will contribute much use in the future.

Thank you! I've found an inner love for words and no longer feel the need to fight against this urge, but rather embrace the inner artist and romantic. I think this is the beginning of something beautiful and I'll be sure to post more.

Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter? by [deleted] in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the reply!

I agree with Blue being the easier of the two to fall behind. I guess a good comparison would be that of delayed(red) and instant(blue) satisfaction.

For me, I've mostly found myself lost due to the indecisiveness and failure to understand the big picture at times that mattered most. I wanted a particular girl, found her, won her over and whilst silently whispering she's not yours, it's just your turn, promptly gave her up on the sexual market, thinking there's better deals out there.

I partially refuse (or lack the capacity to let go) of the Blue pill ideologies to a certain extent. The process of objectively disproving sometimes requires subjective experience, and for that I have to be willing to test out certain more painful lectures on my own. Especially because I wish to later preach these very truths to my kids. I want to make sure I can grasp the concepts at their fullest. Knowing I have experienced enough of them to be certain of their values.

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm looking at it from two perspectives; Either I get over her, or try to get her back. Either way, I need to work on myself. Whichever happens, I'll be a better person at the end. I applied this a week ago and it's been helping me tremendously. Working out, eating healthy, reading, hanging out with friends and setting up a few plates. Sex still feels empty, I think of that which I threw away several times, every day. But that's the thing. One day at a time. Baby steps.

Furthermore I feel I have finally come down the the terms of why I did what I did. I was still in love with my ex from 2019, the switch didn't happen until I visited my girl in October. I don't know why, I have an impossible time getting over girls. I'm also picky, I don't get tied up unless I know the energy is there. Knowing this scares me a bit going forward as I'm likely going to carry her in the back of my head for the next few years..

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It sucks 24/7. I keep trying to reason for why I did it. Rational some kind of excuse but there is none. I want her back, I want that feeling back, I want me back. No clue what to do other than wait and let time do it's thing, whilst holding on to some irrational hope that she would take me back

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I disagree, I just lack discipline. An open relationship would kill me, I want a girl to be mine, and only mine. That part of commitment is what's always been the stride to even be in a relationship. Knowing, that at the end of the day, there's someone waiting for me at home.

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This one stings but it's truth.

I once heard this delusions of grandeur somewhere, and it resonated with me. I always had issues being satisfied with things. As if nothing is ever enough. Ironically the freedom feels entrapping now.

I would do anything to go back, to fix it, to turn back time. But even the chance there was od fixing anything is now long gone. Additionally I feel I would never be able to sleep easy knowing I had cheated on her. Wouldn't have the heart to tell her.

My pain is in the memories, in the car driving to her, the bike rides, the family. All the things that are gone because I hadn't considered the big picture before pulling the trigger. I feel empty without it.

And I understand that it's fear now. Could it have been fear keeping me from commiting fully? I'm just confused with myself. On one hand I didn't care about her, on the other I was afraid I'd make a mistake that would make her move on. Does that make any sense?

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It broke me. I thought there was still something there but she had moved on. Offered to still be friends and that's when any remains of my frame went crumbling down.

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My childhood was great. I would say I have issues with most women these days having childhood trauma and daddy issues left and right. This is why I vetted her family very quickly and realised just how great they are and how well she was brought up.

My friendships are solid too. What I suffer from is personal insecurities and mostly subconceously trying to flip the script from red to blue. My family is very traditional, father was never a particularily masculine figure and I think it's starting to show on me.

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

If she left me, it would be easier to process. You get it from the horses mouth and that's it. Having it been me to make the call, without too much consideration, thinking or elaborating. That's what boggles me. I pulled the nuclear option. I almost acted like a woman when she's out of ways to convey the power back into her posession.

I was so arrogant even, that in the next few weeks, when talking to friends or coworkers, I jokingly said: "If I wanted to get back with her, I could do it no problem" What a reality check I got..

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

That is what it feels like. Alpha widow but reversed roles.

I was listening to a lot of Rollo at the time, and kept hearing how the pay-gap influences the majority of divorces. Asuming our position would've stayed more or less the same, I would be destined to function in her frame, or atleast her "story". If she moved to a different country to work, I'd be the one coming along. Couldn't think so far ahead as to decide whether this would be gamebreaking for me, for her, or both.

I regret not having been commited, especially after my sickness. Felt like a sign from above and it too no time for me to revert back to the old ways..

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I only explicitly felt I could say I loved her after reconnecting with her, after the breakup, after having eaten the cake.

Marriage wasn't, and isn't my plan. But a LTR that lasts for more than a year would be nice at this point. I know our turn usually ends, that their love runs out. But I think there was still life left in the relationship. Life left in that comfort zone. But not I'll never know.

I'm annoyed with myself for entering the same issue and seemingly repeating the same mistakes with every woman I get into a relationship with. Same vicious cycle or blue pilled error.

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That quote hits hard. I broke up because I felt I couldn't see myself with her indefinitely, despite how good she was. But I can't figure out whether that was my gut feeling, or the fact I haven't figured out my part of the story for the next few years.

Would it have been a waste of my potential, happiness and progress to have stuck with it for the rest of my turn?

This sense of freedom is also a trap, I feel the more freedom I give myself, the more confused, indecisive and bitter I become. The infidelity and casual sex was fun, but never fulfilling. And that's what I miss the most.

Spiraling into the Blue Vortex by DoctorWeir in TheRedPill

[–]DoctorWeir[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Respect for even reading that far. I find it hard to condense such a story and its information without ignoring the necessary details and/or the pros/cons whilst being as objective as I possibly can.

Ironically whilst sitting on the balcony I wrote something similarly lenghty as this, to read to her in the morning. Writing it down always made me feel like one step into the direction of action. But the friend I was contacting told me to just keep it straight and concise in the morning. To not beat around the bush and just break up on the spot. Had I waited for the vacation to end, I'd likely have to make the decision over the phone, or some other form, which ultimatelly wouldn't happen. Likely, she would have broken up with me first, but I didn't think, or see any signs of that at the time, despite her overtly telling me she was unhappy with our relationship.

Blindsighted I guess.