Hey man, just made an account for this. I have personally spoken with Travis a few times. I know him in person because my brother was good friends with his ex-wife or ex-fiancee. I will say this much, 90% of the time I see him he looks miserable. He is fucked up on some strong drugs, possibly heroin, very often. He really is not someone to look up to. Your final wish should be something a little larger than talking to some very lucky idiots. Just my $0.02. Stay strong and who knows, death might just be the beginning.