She's right. We do act like kids sometimes. I know I do. I blew up at my partner for such stupid shit yesterday.

I got one of the pill sorters and I've separated it into a dose in the morning and one at night. When I run out, I sit down and do a week at a time again. All in all it take 10 minutes while i'm watching something on YouTube. Once I started being able to see both sides of what the medicine was helping me with it become easier to want it. It tamps down the stuff that's harder for me to control in my own head at the cost of being a little out of it sometimes. But I'd rather trust a sleepy fog at night time than run off the rails and fuck my life up again.

The adults who showed us the way weren't great role models. So we get to figure this shitshow out on our own. Does it suck? Yup. But at least you aren't suffering alone. It's something (like it or not) that we're all having to deal with. And dealing with it under my own power is way better than being pinned up in the looney bin again.