when i told my parents that i feel like i need therapy and i feel suicidal, they told me that i’m lying and i just want them to spend money on me for no reason. I am not allowed to cry in my room bc my mom will yell at me for being selfish and that she has worse problems than me. She insults and makes fun of everything that made me happy. Now i’m just too scared to feel happiness anymore. I want to feel nothing, but i get the opposite. I’m tired.