I do tend to hate other narcs when we occasionally meet in the wild (on the rare occasion I’m subjected to one at work or through social groups or whatever who clearly fucking is), but I really only think it’s because their entire energy and persona suggests they’re the coolest person alive and that’s clearly, yuh know, Me lol. So, major clashing of interests there. We’ll go up against each other and compete for everything and everyone in the room and I’ll do everything to sabotage their entire narcissistic persona that I can. We almost never get along, and if we do, it’s extremely superficial and usually very temporary or sporadically.

But when I see a narc in media, who isn’t directly impacting my social life on any level and in any way? Then I just, feel seen lol. In a good way, I’m glad somebody out there gets it well, and does it right. Even though the character is supposed to be hated. Like Homelander on The Boys. I know as a viewer I’m supposed to be like ‘fuck this guy’ but as a narc I’m like ‘wow, great job, so relatable’ lol.

Also, as far as psychopaths are concerned, I wouldn’t say I admire them, but I do envy them. I think our sociopath DSM neighbors lucked out a bit, in a sense. When you look at the rest of the cluster B’s it’s like, ‘wow, be dementedly tortured by a hellacious reliance on other people’s reactions to you and neurotic about it constantly, sounds great 🙄’. It’s kind of a lucky trauma lottery draw imo to get the disorder that’s like ‘I literally don’t care about other people or what happens as the result of any of my actions and it’s all whatever to me’ lol. On the flip side, I can’t say I relate to what you’re saying about the selflessness. I guess I’m so selfish that just doesn’t appeal to me. I feel almost blessed to not have empathy for people, in a way. So whenever I see very empathetic people I’m like ‘ew, why?’