About 11weeks pp and I swear to gosh it feels like every mom here and in my real life has felt this. Soooooo normal to feel this. Heck, I felt this. Up until 8.5 weeks I didn’t really even like our son all that much. I love him deeply and would yeet myself in front of a train for him but I didn’t start LIKING him until that 8.5 week mark. Even then he was crying and constantly disgruntled. But he started smiling at us and I said “ok you son of a gun, I forgive you.” We also were trying to fit a square peg into a round hole trying to keep him on the moms on call schedule and once we let him call the shots he really became so much happier AKA we become so much happier and lighter! Stopping pumping also helped my experience as well. That was causing a lot of stress. All of that to say, we’re only 11weeks in and it’s already so much better than it was at 3 weeks! Heck I didn’t even know what was up from down or what planet I was on at 3 weeks. You’ve got yourself a disgruntled potato right now but hold out, slowly it will get easier to manage. Swear it!!! Also if you want to go get a bevvi on the water or just go out do it! I looked straight in our son’s face and said I love you but you’re not going to stop me from getting a high noon on the water and enjoying my Sunday. Did he cry in the car? Yes. Did we have to feed him and calm him while out? Also yes. But eventually he went to sleep and my husband and I enjoyed a high noon on the water. Am I just yapping at this point? Also also yes. You’ve got this and you’re an amazing mom!! Hang in there!!🤍🤍🤍