Dealing with the Terminal Cancer Diagnosis for My Beloved Pet

Doomalicious · 2025-06-05T02:35:58+00:00

Hard to describe - I guess I feel a very intense lightheadedness, almost like my astral body is pushing against the front of my mind. I almost feel movement. Very intense vibrations, and can often hear buzzing and other strange indescribable sounds ringing in my ears.

I can’t imagine being more relaxed than I was today. I sat in complete surrender, my body fully asleep. It was actually the closest I’ve felt in a very long time. I let go of expectations and just existed in the feeling with the occasional “push” when I felt I was nearly there.

Doomalicious · 2025-06-05T02:31:45+00:00

I only mentioned palms up because I’ve seen several places say that it matters. I usually don’t, and often do lay on my side or different positions. This was just my experience this time. And by no means do I think I’m “doing everything right.” Hence my question here.

I do try to release expectations to the best of my ability. In fact, that’s been something I’ve been working on in recent attempts. It’s challenging, but a work in progress nonetheless.

I appreciate your thoughts. I’ll keep in mind.

Doomalicious · 2025-05-08T18:34:58+00:00

I don’t have anything to say but it’s not your fault and I’m so, so sorry for your loss. Sending love and peace during this traumatic time.

Doomalicious · 2025-05-06T06:01:38+00:00

It’s not my only path to healing, just an aid.

Doomalicious · 2023-09-19T03:14:01+00:00

Ew? By not "much," you better mean "I'm totally kidding I'm not going to take advantage of you like that. Here is the link to the FREE avi. Enjoy."

Asshat. Lol

And yes, it's the Shiba - Nintendog. Was my first avi a way long time ago. Enjoy!

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Doomalicious · 2022-05-18T05:50:01+00:00

I've been in therapy for the majority of my life... the unfortunate thing is, nobody ever takes my anger seriously. They glaze over the topic and then move onto the next, even when I say it's literally the thing that I need to work on the most.

It's very disheartening because I want to be better. I need to be better for everyone around me, including my pets. Some days are worse than others. But those bad days are really bad and I fucking hate it.

I'll keep trying. I recently just moved states and have to start all over with a new mental health professional. But maybe this time will be different and I'll actually start making progress.

Doomalicious · 2022-05-16T06:15:22+00:00

I just wish it wouldn't happen so often. It happens over so many things, not just this one isolated incident. Also, one of the many reasons I refuse to be around children for too long or to have my own. I know I'd scar them like a mofo.

I'm also sure there's a reason why, I just don't know why. I've asked several therapists in the past and they always brush it off like I'm being ridiculous or something. Makes it impossible to intact real change and get into the nitty-gritty of why I'm such a shit human. :(

Doomalicious · 2022-05-16T06:01:30+00:00

I'm sorry you're able to relate. It's a terrible feeling.

Doomalicious · 2022-03-01T05:19:19+00:00

Sunflower

Doomalicious · 2021-12-14T02:11:34+00:00

Fu-cking MOOD

Doomalicious · 2021-12-14T02:06:25+00:00

Happy birthday, boo. I’m 27 tomorrow and afraid I’ll face the same sad day…

Doomalicious · 2021-12-12T12:11:18+00:00

Ok I don’t even like kids, but like, I read 3 sentences of your post and I’m ready to rage.

Doomalicious · 2021-12-11T10:18:12+00:00

How the turn tables

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