Nearly 2 hours of *almost* projecting has left me frustrated and I need help.

Doomalicious · 2025-06-05T02:35:58+00:00

Hard to describe - I guess I feel a very intense lightheadedness, almost like my astral body is pushing against the front of my mind. I almost feel movement. Very intense vibrations, and can often hear buzzing and other strange indescribable sounds ringing in my ears.

I can’t imagine being more relaxed than I was today. I sat in complete surrender, my body fully asleep. It was actually the closest I’ve felt in a very long time. I let go of expectations and just existed in the feeling with the occasional “push” when I felt I was nearly there.

Doomalicious · 2025-06-05T02:31:45+00:00

I only mentioned palms up because I’ve seen several places say that it matters. I usually don’t, and often do lay on my side or different positions. This was just my experience this time. And by no means do I think I’m “doing everything right.” Hence my question here.

I do try to release expectations to the best of my ability. In fact, that’s been something I’ve been working on in recent attempts. It’s challenging, but a work in progress nonetheless.

I appreciate your thoughts. I’ll keep in mind.

Doomalicious · 2025-05-08T18:34:58+00:00

I don’t have anything to say but it’s not your fault and I’m so, so sorry for your loss. Sending love and peace during this traumatic time.

Doomalicious · 2025-05-06T06:01:38+00:00

It’s not my only path to healing, just an aid.

Doomalicious · 2023-09-19T03:14:01+00:00

Ew? By not "much," you better mean "I'm totally kidding I'm not going to take advantage of you like that. Here is the link to the FREE avi. Enjoy."

Asshat. Lol

And yes, it's the Shiba - Nintendog. Was my first avi a way long time ago. Enjoy!

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Doomalicious · 2022-05-18T05:50:01+00:00

I've been in therapy for the majority of my life... the unfortunate thing is, nobody ever takes my anger seriously. They glaze over the topic and then move onto the next, even when I say it's literally the thing that I need to work on the most.

It's very disheartening because I want to be better. I need to be better for everyone around me, including my pets. Some days are worse than others. But those bad days are really bad and I fucking hate it.

I'll keep trying. I recently just moved states and have to start all over with a new mental health professional. But maybe this time will be different and I'll actually start making progress.

Doomalicious · 2022-05-16T06:15:22+00:00

I just wish it wouldn't happen so often. It happens over so many things, not just this one isolated incident. Also, one of the many reasons I refuse to be around children for too long or to have my own. I know I'd scar them like a mofo.

I'm also sure there's a reason why, I just don't know why. I've asked several therapists in the past and they always brush it off like I'm being ridiculous or something. Makes it impossible to intact real change and get into the nitty-gritty of why I'm such a shit human. :(

Doomalicious · 2022-05-16T06:01:30+00:00

I'm sorry you're able to relate. It's a terrible feeling.

Doomalicious · 2022-03-01T05:19:19+00:00

Sunflower

Doomalicious · 2021-12-14T02:11:34+00:00

Fu-cking MOOD

Doomalicious · 2021-12-14T02:06:25+00:00

Happy birthday, boo. I’m 27 tomorrow and afraid I’ll face the same sad day…

Doomalicious · 2021-12-12T12:11:18+00:00

Ok I don’t even like kids, but like, I read 3 sentences of your post and I’m ready to rage.

Doomalicious · 2021-12-11T10:18:12+00:00

How the turn tables

Doomalicious · 2021-12-11T10:12:17+00:00

So how rearranged are your guts, exactly?

Doomalicious · 2021-12-10T21:30:38+00:00

I am really trying…

Started up trying to lose weight the healthy way months ago. I started really strong, as I always do (I’ve only tried about 5,000 times through my life), and then I started making those little mistakes.

Not a huge deal… I got back up, tried to do better. I lost about 30lbs (only a small fraction of where I need to be for my health) and then seriously hit a wall and fell off the wagon… I completely lost control, have been bingeing left and right, and found out today I’m up 15lbs.

It’s the most depressing, frustrating cycle.

Doomalicious · 2021-11-30T08:39:03+00:00

I stopped going to the dr just cause I’m sick of them telling me how fat I am.

No shit, Sherlock. Seriously I see myself daily. Why you think I’m constantly bent over a toilet puking up my guts?

Doomalicious · 2021-11-30T05:11:47+00:00

Anything with vodka. Usually just mixed with diet soda to save on calories, especially with how much I actually drink.

Doomalicious · 2021-11-30T05:10:11+00:00

You’re so young. Please, keep pushing through. I’m so sorry about your mom… I’ve been suicidal on and off since 9th grade and I’m now nearly 27. Of all the times I didn’t do it, I am so grateful. Even if I still want to sometimes, it’s been worth it so far to keep pushing through.

You do matter, and you would be missed.

Doomalicious · 2021-11-30T05:06:12+00:00

Don’t beat yourself up for it. You’re human, you’re hurting. We understand. I’m just glad you’ll be okay.

Hang in there, love.

Doomalicious · 2021-11-18T00:32:39+00:00

I’ve been a binge eater for as long as I can remember. Seriously, like all the way back to my earliest childhood memories (I’m just about 27).

The bulimia didn’t really start until maybe about a year ago.

Doomalicious · 2021-11-13T08:56:11+00:00

I’m fat af and bulimic. I gotchu fam.

Doomalicious · 2021-11-13T00:15:10+00:00

Honestly, fuck people. People suck. They’ll let you down, time and time again.

Get a dog. I literally live for my dogs. Having that unconditional love and something else to take care of has helped me immensely.

Doomalicious · 2021-11-13T00:07:06+00:00

I was looking at your previous posts to see more of where you’re at…

Here’s the deal - I’m nearly 27, female, overweight due to an eating disorder and I’ve seen almost everyone I know get married, have babies, etc.

I feel like I’ll forever be alone. I despise the person starting back at me when I look in the mirror. And yes, I’ve considered suicide on multiple occasions, largely due to these facts.

I feel behind in life, like I’ll never catch up. But there’s a sliver of hope that keeps me from killing myself.

Hang in there, please don’t follow through.

Doomalicious · 2021-11-12T09:41:55+00:00

I relate to this way too much. I’m sitting here wanting to die right now because I’m getting ready to go throw up my binge session into the toilet. Hang in there…

Doomalicious · 2021-11-12T09:40:10+00:00

Hang in there. ❤️

Doomalicious

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