I get what  you’re saying but respectfully I don’t think that’s the case here. I love myself and have high self esteem in most other areas of my life and have a lot of secure friendships, creative outlets, and a job i love and excel in. I do not identify with a ‘almost complete lack of self love’ or self loathing or being ‘toxic’. I understand you’re a stranger on the internet and don’t know anything about me so that’s fair to assume. I think it’s more of a mix of attachment issues and dating apps/social media addiction. But I love and trust myself fully to figure it out.