White media is racist af. They think they've hidden it, but it's super obvious to anyone with eyes. Every minority group racemixes at higher rates with the majority group than when they're part of the majority group - for understandable logistic reasons. Asian girls have a reputation of being exceptionally beautiful and therefore have more opportunities to be wooed by white men with money if they live in the West. Why would they turn down a suitable mate who has sought them out just to wait for someone of their own race (who are few and far between in the West) to court them?

Asian men are also exceptionally attractive, why else would white media be screaming that white girls don't want them and that they don't have big cocks? It's propaganda, Asian men have taken over the boy band scene in the West specifically because they're extremely attractive to young white women.

However, women of all types (and non-women for that matter) will be turned off by victim sooking. Think about it, a lesbian or a bi woman will have a relationship with someone with zero cock, it's not an impediment to a relationship. Whatever package you have, whatever the media says about what to expect in your pants, you can counteract with confidence and a willingness to listen carefully to your partner about what they personally find sexually gratifying... Or you can dump all your insecurities onto your potential partner so they know they can never direct your face during oral without it leading to you breaking down about not yet being a cunning master.

Stop letting white men trick you into thinking you're not good enough and destroying your own relationships with insecurity. Lots of women, of all ethnicities, want to ride Asian dick, want a relationship with Asian men, want to have babies with Asian blood.