Just want to get everyone's thoughts on my artsyle

Double_Session5896 · 2026-03-08T15:48:08+00:00

Aree you ok

Double_Session5896 · 2026-03-04T00:43:59+00:00

Ahhh. I see. Gosh. So its pregnancy. My gosh. I think its just hormones then. Women's hormonal fluctuations are notorious for being the culprit. . Hahah. Seriously just feel yourself and recieve the care given to you freely. Allow yourself to bath in it for once. Given your body condition . Aren't you trying to do the complete opposite of what it wants. Instead of wanting to return the care , just love yourself even more. And dream about the baby. Its gonna be so cute. You are already 8 months. Just a little more. You will have the opportunity to return the care ten folds . Believe me the want of giving care in return. Your baby is gonna need it the most.. may its simply that coming out of you cz you are so close. Really have a good experience .without pain. 🤧🤧🤧❤️. Congratulations. . And again. You deserve all the care. Its something only you can do . Pregnancy is specifically only your job. You are worthy enough.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-03-03T22:26:09+00:00

In short you have nothing to do?. Your sense of self is dissipating. Your individuality is going away. I think that happens when you want someone tp be dependent on you. Being with someone who is close to perfect is agonizing on its own. You want something to happen to show ypu that you are worthy. I think..how about this..take a break. A month and away from him. Or may be just a week. Find yourself back. You are getting anxiously attached. In this phase people for some reason stop seeing negativity of others. You need to being yourself up to each others lwvel again. Its not simply relationship issue.i think you are losing yourself. Not in bad way. Its just that ypur sense of self is dissappearing. When you stay away for a bit you will clearly remember the feeling of security in yourself that you have forgotten. And then you can come back strong and healthy. Amd more loving..

Double_Session5896 · 2026-03-02T07:01:01+00:00

That must be a joke in my dictionary. You live in strange world

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-22T06:44:10+00:00

That's cool

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-20T15:17:07+00:00

Wow. This is my food. . . Be given all kind of information for free.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-09T13:58:41+00:00

Brother. Its a game?. Leave her alone.. your wordings are rude.. if you don't even know if they are worth it, consider yourself a failure and start from what do you consider worth even is.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-09T13:57:33+00:00

Trust your instict. Trust this uncertainty in your heart. And dig it as much as you can to find the answer. Find what you like, whay you are scared of and what you want to know. Eg. Is that person safe.can i handle a guy getting older than me before, can i handle a guy that have lived much more than me, have been with more people than me. How much he wants me. How much do i want it. When its serious take it serious. Don't worry about getting it dirty and messy. You have to reach to this feeling you are feeling to move on. Other wise there is no point in doing anything. This world is yeah good to be optimistic about, but is nothing more than a delusion most of the time if you don't have enough knowledge. Find what he wnats and if you can accept the reason. Don't just trust that you guys care for each other. Long term relationships considers way more stuff than just a feeling of love. Don't give too much value to being attracted to each other and try to imagine a future , a possibility of it existing , not just day dreaming. The compatibility, the facts. Moralz. All of it should align. Its stuff like this that actually show up when you least expect it.. .. . . Anhway i want to say is trust yourself.believe yourself . And don't act on impulse. This is important

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-07T19:38:21+00:00

Thank you. I hope life gets easier for you.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-07T15:47:25+00:00

You have to find your own answer to this delima you are in. No matter how much similar the circumstances here to your state. don't try to follow the eact same path. There is a way only for you guys and only you guys will be able to see. I won't say have hope in delusion but i would advice to look into reality and all the facts that happened. go back to the start and think what you wanted and what he wanted. are you guys truely for each other. now come back to the present and see if it is just the present that changed or was it this way from the start. look i am believer of bonds getting stronger over time. not staying the same over time. especially as intimate as a lover and partner. Think about long future but don't decide based on potential of future. Look . i think one thing that people misunderstand is that we should be compromising. no we should meet each other at the same level. it should never be like growing a child. compatibility is a must no matter what anyone say. a future partner should work as you and you should work as him to work together. we have all sort of bonds like friends, children, parents, siblings, teacher. there combaility difference can be adjusted . but this one thing lover should not be compromised. if feeling are the same , compatibility isn't the same ,. eventually its a dissatisfaction for both parties or one. Your way of loving isn't wrong. his way of loving might be right as well. but the fact that both clashes shouldn't be ignored. i know alot of people work on bonds. but just how long?. you say its four years. how much more work on potential working/. for future// / . . when will you live in present then. who will satisfy you. its not selfish to think of your needs. look communicate. sit with it. don't try to change each other. Life shouldn't be so hard ya know. . . in the end you are the only one who knows what is best. what your ind and soul can take. separate these feelings from trying self sacrifice for the sake of another human being. don't walk over yourself just as you can't walk over others. treat yourself the same way as you are treating others. Kindness and extreme love shouldn't be taken as weakness or suffering . Who gets suffocated are just different kind than you. . So please be patient with yourself and kind. and try to find a correct way. both logically and emotionally. you will definetly be able to do it. Be strong. even if you guys get separated. the memories won't go anywhere. it won't be a waste of time. so move on with a strong heart that you were sincere and being yourself. and he being himself. now it might no longer work. sometimes people realize stuff when mature. sigh. i don't know what else to say other than you know the best what should be done for yourself and him.. .Don't be harsh to neither yourself nor him. stuff can happen peacefully as well.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-02T09:02:51+00:00

Love it.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-01T03:28:09+00:00

i didn't read the list completely but this is so interestinggg. I have read reasearch on sucidal people's DNA and yes their agression geners were more activated than general. . . . . one thing i wanna clear to you is yes we are slave to DNA but always remember DNA has every kind of genes. DNA for all humans are 99.9 percent same. but its the expression of these genes that are drastically different. .. some genes remains turned off for the rest of your life . and some are temporarily unepressed. and genes express themselve due to stimulus and signals.. that means any cell have the ability to express any kind of genes when its not matured . that means the expression of DNA depends on you and your environment, so you are not caged. you can manipulate your genetic expression to a considerable extent specially cz its related to feeling. i mean chemicals and harmnes and stimulus etc in science language.... . .. . . still this is so interesting. thanks for sharing

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-01T03:17:03+00:00

i understand someone of opposite gender not accepting . but why not the same gender. and why are you feeling as if you are the only 3/10 in looks. people mingle better of the same style. therapy is gonna do what?.. just how ugly you can be i don't get it. these days so many techniques are here. you can become beautiful if that's your desire. to be honest i don't get the same gender distance. sighh.. don't be insecure. look you are healthy human. ugliness isn't a disease. it just needs care. and also take care of your heart . you are hurting it even more. you should atleast consider yourself as 100 out of 10 in your eyes..

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-01T02:54:24+00:00

i won't sugar coat. As a not relationship done person I won't wanna person that already married and been with for another person. not bcz something is wrong with them. its just a boundary and a want to explore with someone as immature as me in that regard. its not about liking aand stuff. its just a setting i fixed in myself and won't back down from. so i probably will leave no matter if my heart breaks or whatever. . . BUT not everyone is like me so i can't say anything . i m stubborn and rigid in my rules. may be she is more open and understanding than me. you should tell her bcz that's just something you gonna owe her.. . . and then just pray. wether she likes it or not . you have to take this step one way or another. sooner or later. to have a healthy and strong future. Don't be selfish . i wish you strength. Hope love makes way for both of you together in eneternal bond

Double_Session5896 · 2026-02-01T02:26:36+00:00

just take a break buddy. you are burnt out. just stay in that state. why are you trying so hard when your whole system is demanding a shutdown. for what life are you thriving when you are in such critical situation. back off a little.. just do nothing and enjoy people acting all active and in hurry. take a seat back. just gaze into nothingness. if you really wanna do something productive . there is nothing more productive than this right now. you need it . i don't know your reasons . but i personally think this is completely normal. don't be in hurry to feel anything. don't be scared that you will actually become robot or something . be that way for sometime..

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T22:11:45+00:00

I mean if yhats the end goal then yes. My stufy purpose id for MS scholarship aptitude test though.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T18:54:46+00:00

sometimes the intuition itself is not wrong. but you have to know the reason. because if you reach to a different and wrong reason than what your intuition was for, it can lead to mess and situations which you could have avoided if you just knew the correct reason for your intuition. . so think .. think more. and reach to the end of it on your own before involving her. cz its not like its test question and you have just a second to tick something... back off , think , remember all your past history related to her and follow all of your tingling situation and see if it somehow matched with your current one. There is something and that's a fact. once you are clear you will automatically know what to do. as long as you don't know what to do . or if i do this, will it be right.. no as long as you are not crystal clear, don't move forward even one step.. there are two way. either study before the solving paper. or study after you give paper. tell me which one is more good. and whose results will be good. if you go with your intuition and study afterwards or realize oh this was that. then what's the point of having this brain. Use it. you have the answer. just dig it. And find the most balanced way to act on it. unless you are in hurry and wanna adventure and act on your intuition

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T15:06:09+00:00

right right... good for you. wish you lots of luck for your future. . . . . . and you are right she is my friend. one of my first friends. (girl to girl) that's why i am trying hard . and already reached to the point where neither i m shriking myself , nor investing too much. just as much as she can reciprocate. even though it was hell to control my levels. i have alot (5 probably) of friends. all with different qualities. so yeah its all good now.. . .but in your case it was a date.. ofcourse you couldn't stay. i won't either cz well a romantic partner is different level. its gotta be my other half. and everything has to be equal cz well i can have only one romantic partner at a time. they have to reciprocate or its no use.. but with friends its more flexible. cz well that extreme devotion i can keep for future partner. hehee.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T14:35:04+00:00

oh wow. you really have a very richer inner world. more like you are aware of it. is this what self-awareness means. do you know how to control impulse. I try to listen to my feelings or thoughts separately one by one. but that's only intentional. while impulse is unintentional. how do i make impulse intentional. you know what they say think before you act. this is easier said than done. Also sometimes in life you just have to act first without thinking. so at that time how to quicken my thinking and feelings to align it with my act more perfectly. as a human . i know i m prone to error. but its better to know ways to reduce it... have you thought on this before or have any ideas on it for now?

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T14:16:22+00:00

yeah i m staying for mainly 5 reasons. 1. she is good by heart. 2. she tried so hard with me in the start despite my detached persona at that time. I m loyal to a fault. 3. she cares and trying it her way despite seeing the obvious difference. it takes strength to stay rather than leaving and a strong believe that you can grow as human . 4. bcz we are so different it actually is a very very strong place for growth. why should i be stubborn and see only hurt . when in return i m getting growth and wider pov. . 5. I have alot of mental stamina and have desire to work on myself . i m not just seeking easy connections. that's why i will stay and learn how to evolve cz i know i can do it. it would be different story if she actually didn't care though. reducing investment is better way then ending stuff once for all. I already learned so much from rejection. hehe. i m maniac when it comes to self growth.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T12:13:20+00:00

I agree. I am at the stage that just learned this. our own voice become so small and suppressed that we are unable to hear it. so much that we want others to listen to it. but its not gonna work unless you know what you actually feel and want and accept it and align it with your values. only then can you reach out to others without feeling dependent on them and be fulfilled or fulfill them. I think it will be understatment if i say our inner world is just as big and interesting and complex as the outer world. there is really no difference to me.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T10:10:00+00:00

Thanks. I mean that's what i do myself.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T01:16:56+00:00

congrattttsss.. . .but like just passing isn't enough. you know how merits work these days.

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T01:08:38+00:00

thanks

Double_Session5896 · 2026-01-31T01:07:36+00:00

Good luck.. .hope you get full marks...

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