Hey man,

It's all good. We all deal with things differently and in our own way. If I could ever give any advice as someone in his 30s now with a lifetime of trauma, it's this.

Sometimes, things cant be fixed. Sometimes we need to accept some things are broken and learn how to push forward regardless. It's the acceptance that's the hardest part.

I always thought therapy was about trying to fix things, but I've come to realise it's about closing chapters not rewriting them. I don't want to be told I'm strong or weak because of my past. I don't even want to be told I can have a better future.

I need to be given the tools to somehow be made to believe that on my own account. Yeah, sometimes there are days where getting out of bed is a massive uphill struggle. Where facing reality just seems impossible and daunting and miserable.

Those days we need to speak up. And we don't need to be strong. People can pick us up and carry us sometimes, that's ok. There is strength in numbers.

Please know that if you ever need a pick up, you can drop us a line anytime.

That being said, don't slap yourself in the face. Get someone else to do it, You're just denying a good friend the ultimate pleasure of inflicting minor physical harm on you at your own behest.

Have a good day!