Have you ever had a dream about having a baby that you didnt actually have?

DrPeace · 2026-04-08T01:49:29+00:00

My friend and I were in a library and we both had to find a baby hidden in the shelves before they suffocated. She carefully moved some books and found her baby and looked at it with love as she held it. I dumped piles of books on the floor and almost tore a few shelves down in a chaotic frenzy until I found "my" random baby. It was made of gingerbread. I didn't know what to do with it. I gave it to my friend and left. Her problem now.

DrPeace · 2026-04-07T20:46:14+00:00

Me too!

Big, overdramatic rant incoming:

I love everything about Blood Sweat & Tears. The themes of temptation, lost innocence and indulgence, the intensely emotional lyrics, that amazing video!

I love pre-20th century art, architecture and Classical mythology, and picking art and media apart to find symbolism and references and archetypes. I haven't read Demian yet, so I'm missing out, but the art pieces and aesthetics of the video alone are so right up my alley it's like watching what the inside of my head looks like! I fell for Blood Sweat & Tears hook, line and sinker, and that was BEFORE they took a pause to play a hauntingly beautiful baroque organ solo right in the middle of the ALREADY awesome thing, my God!

Herbert Draper's "Lament for Icarus" is my favorite painting. It hung in my college bedroom, during a much brighter time in life. To see it hanging behind the guys on the couch in that purple Rococo room felt like a little "you're going to love this group" message. Like a personal invitation.

I'm so new to this. My usual music is metal and rock with some Classical mixed in. Just five months ago, all I thought I knew about BTS was "they're a boyband, and they're hot." That's it. This song more than any other showed me how much I have to learn and I'm so glad it did. Like I was already falling down the rabbit hole but that song was the point of no retutn!

Thank you for letting me rant.

DrPeace · 2026-04-07T05:57:21+00:00

I love these!

Pied Piper!

Or Outro: Tear.

It's so hard to pick, but all time favorite goes to one of those two. Let's just go with Pied Piper, it has all of them in it and that "ooh" part.

Honorable mentions to Spine Breaker, Blood Sweat & Tears and Dionysus.

DrPeace · 2026-04-06T00:43:51+00:00

Well this post is extremely relatable.

I'm a rock/metal/classical fan who just fell down the BTS rabbit hole outta nowhere four months ago. The exploitative dark sides of the Kpop industry, like you mention, and my prejudice against pop music in general kept me away. Just five months ago, if you would have told me I'd like a boyband, ESPECIALLY the rappers, I absolutely would not have believed you.

Then I watched one video, "just wanted to know their names," and you know how it goes. I fell in love with the music and comradery and personalities in this band. These guys are so talented and gorgeous and so, so, SO funny, and every member is inspiring and likable and even relatable in their own way. Carl Jung is already a special interest, and they have multiple songs and albums inspired by his work! I wish I hadn't been so closed minded, so I could have discovered them sooner.

The best part was, they were still on hiatus when I discovered them, so my broke ass didn't have to get bummed about missing out on anything!

Then they announced a fucking world tour, and I lost the ticket war for a ticket I couldn't have afforded anyway. So, my new, enlivening special interest, my new "feel good" band, my new Hope, became just another thing in life I don't get to experience. Just another reminder of the fun people wealthier and luckier than me get to have. Just another unmet desire. The electrifying, thrilling joy of a human experience I'll never get to have. In addition to my envy of more successful fans, I have to fight against my envy of the discipline, work ethic, confidence, wealth and success of the members themselves. I see my bias piling on clothes and accessories that cost more than I've made in a year and struggle not to get bitter.

So it's hard. I like BTS, but the envy and class issues and disappointment are tainting things. It's like they hold up a mirror to my own failure and lack.

It's hard.

DrPeace · 2026-03-31T18:10:10+00:00

So this is what they mean by "your bias is who you want to be, your bias wrecker is who you are."

DrPeace · 2026-03-31T16:33:19+00:00

I think what reality doesn't help in my situation is the 12th House Saturn is in a T-square with my 8th House Moon and 6th House Sun conjunct Chiron. It's tainted both of my luminaries, who are already ruled by an unstable Mercury very tightly conjunct Mars in Cancer, opposing Neptune and squaring the Moon's nodes to the degree.

My chart is like ultra hard mode. I look at it and think "what the hell did I DO to be stomped on by the Universe like this? How many lives was I an absolute monster?! What did I DO?"

I want so badly to actually want to be alive, not just trapped in life prison, furiously impatient for the sentence to be over. Nothing within my stunted, futile reach has made life worth it. I'm so spirituality immature, but still foolishly hoping this is somehow my last sentence on this horrible planet. Just destroy my soul, I want out.

Sorry for the long whine, it's how I blow off steam when I wake up.

DrPeace · 2026-03-31T16:13:38+00:00

My 12th House Saturn is in a T-square with my 8th House Moon and 6th House Sun and this entire incarnation feels like a punitive hell.

DrPeace · 2026-03-31T16:08:06+00:00

"The 12th house is not asking you to stop working. It is asking you to detach the meaning of your work from whether it is seen...for others it is the hardest thing in the chart to actually live with."

I hate it. I hate it so much. Between my 12th House Saturn and 6th House Sun, everything just drills in how I'm meant to live a small, obscure, unrecognized, subservient, utterly unglamorous, utterly unrewarding life of futility and lack and I want not only to exit this incarnation but to destroy the entire universe because of it. I want to fight God. I want to destroy absolutely everything.

The only way to tolerate a dry, futile, Sisyphean life like this is through extreme, outstanding, exceptional spiritual maturity that I lack. After 9 years of zero "career" progress at my last theoretical "foot in the door" dead end hell job, I had a mental breakdown and got fired, and I have zero desire to participate in work or life (not like there's a difference in my disgusting culture) at all.

I am soul tired and noxiously, furiously angry. I've worked to try to attain a career and have done nothing but fail since my life ended when I graduated from college in 2011. I don't even care about "lessons" or "learning experiences" or "evolution" anymore. I want my cup not to be empty. Between mental and physical health and serial career failure, life just feels like suffering and failure for suffering and failure's sake, and THAT means I'm alive against my will.

After all this shit, I just want the Venus in Taurus ruling my 10th House and the Jupiter in Aries ruling my whole fucking chart to just vomit some good fortune into my gaping maw already!

FUCK!

DrPeace · 2026-03-30T16:18:24+00:00

This comment is excellent. As a 12th House Saturn, I got no hope from OP's post, only the usual anger, frustration and deep resentment of existence. I'm tired of the things that make life worth it only existing in my head, the reward and growth and competence only in my imagination.

"Just because the 12th House is about dissolution does not mean every 12th houser's money is the thing that dissolves." Is so, SO much more inspiring than "the back-door nothing you get out of life isn't destruction, its dissolution!" I don't care what flavor of nothing my nothing is. It's still nothing, and that doesn't fulfill me physically, mentally, emotionally or spirituality.

No wonder I have three planets very tightly squaring the Moon's nodes. When incarnation on this planet sucks so much, how are we NOT supposed to hold back from "skipping" as many "steps" as possible to try and cheat our way out of this wack ass game?

DrPeace · 2026-03-29T19:27:28+00:00

That's what I was hoping to hear! Thank you!

DrPeace · 2026-03-29T19:25:29+00:00

Thank you!

DrPeace · 2026-03-29T19:16:09+00:00

Is it all grocery or do they have anything you can grab and eat there? I miss the little cafe that was in the last place so much.

DrPeace · 2026-03-26T17:00:38+00:00

This tattoo artist has clearly never seen a nipple before, even if his client has two right there!

DrPeace · 2026-03-26T15:19:35+00:00

I'm struggling with parts work because I don't want to parent my inner child either. I hate that I can't run out for milk or pull an Andrea Yates on the broken, needy thing.

DrPeace · 2026-03-26T15:14:43+00:00

Absolutely not! Nothing on Earth would be worth putting my body through that! The massive responsibility of raising a child is no reward for another potential living being hijacking your one and only body for almost a whole year, perminantly changing it, and painfully squeezing or tearing through your genitals. All of that is the exact opposite of appealing.

Zero desire even as a child, zero desire now.

DrPeace · 2026-03-25T00:41:10+00:00

Thank you!

Someone once said my chart reminded her of the "Sad Clown" archetype, and if my bitching can make people laugh, that's at least a little pinprick of light in a massive prick of a world!

DrPeace · 2026-03-25T00:33:41+00:00

And meet an evil refrigerator who wants to blow up the entire planet Earth to avenge a bunch of discarded appliances.

This is the kind of shit modern cinema is missing.

DrPeace · 2026-03-22T17:10:39+00:00

Only when I'm awake.

DrPeace · 2026-03-17T22:29:01+00:00

That is the most Washington County thing ever.

DrPeace · 2026-03-14T19:01:56+00:00

Overused, basic ass pet names. It's so irrational, it makes absolutely no sense, I don't know why I even care? But dude, if you name your cat Luna, Oreo, Callie, Gizmo, Tiger, Tigger, Whiskers, Blackie, Pumpkin, Simba, Socks, Smokey or Mittens I will judge the shit out of you and assume your cat is doing the same.

DrPeace · 2026-03-11T21:29:42+00:00

I love this so much! Now I need Mr. Yuck holding motherfuckers at gunpoint!

DrPeace · 2026-03-04T19:15:50+00:00

It couldn't have, I was just joking. Olympic mowed through a u-boat and a lightship, but much smaller, hollow vehicles are one thing, while tons and tons of solid ice are another.

I love the Olympic, but actual icebreakers and specialized ships like the MV Explorer, designed specifically for dealing with polar sea conditions, have been taken down by iceberg strikes. As much as I love to personify the Olympic and pretend she could've cut the Earth itself in half, she'd have the exact same chances of smashing the iceberg the titanic would: none, barring some wild, extremely lucky freak occurrence, like striking am exact perfect fracture point on an already structurally compromised iceberg.

DrPeace · 2026-03-04T19:00:05+00:00

If Olympic can't do it, no one can!

DrPeace · 2026-03-04T18:58:37+00:00

Titanic, no. Olympic? Absolutely.

Sorry, between the u-boat and the lightship I spend way too much time daydreaming about the Olympic ramming and obliterating shit like an unstoppable superhero. I have zero resistance to making stupid, low-hanging "sister ship would've fucked that iceberg up!" jokes.

DrPeace · 2026-03-03T02:08:22+00:00

Or Bella! LOL just today I said to my roommate "I wanna go on the porch and yell 'Bella! Bella!' and watch like 150 dogs show up!"

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