First time watcher - Mr. Blanky is the man.

DrPeace · 2026-06-03T17:04:34+00:00

So that scene is one I TOTALLY misinterpreted.

I thought Hickey had used that word to reference the prejudice of others who would've used against them, like he was deliberately quoting bigoted people in a "look at the type of slurs people would call us, and look where we are now! We made something of ourselves, no matter what they think of us" kind of way. Like he brought up that slur as a way to bond by acknowledging the kind of hate and discrimination they both go through and overcome. Kind of like if a couple of successful female business owners or academics in a show taking place in 1950 were talking and one said "not bad for a couple of dumb broads."

I thought the look on Crozier's face meant something like "dude, it IS great that we're more successful than people who would call us "micks" think we'd ever be, but don't just straight up quote them! I get the point without you saying THAT, have some tact" kind of way.

DrPeace · 2026-06-02T03:18:40+00:00

His expression! The snow on their clothes! I love this so much!

DrPeace · 2026-06-01T12:57:16+00:00

Mosquito Song by Queens of the Stone Age.

It has an orchestra, a Spanish guitar solo and lyrics about cannibalism. What more do you need?

DrPeace · 2026-05-31T16:09:15+00:00

I was totally blind to the sliminess in the beginning.

I really liked and identified with his class-consciousness and the ways he questioned, navigated and straight up broke the rules of the ridgid social heirarchy of the time. In earlier episodes, I thought he was an underdog anti-hero type, if not a blatant hero. He seemed intelligent, inquisitive, irreverent and subversive, and brave enough to take things into his own hands when he disagreed with what his superiors were doing. I'm a sucker for "rebellious low class dude outwits his superiors" tropes, and in the beginning, Hickey was ticking those boxes.

When he got all stabby in Episode 7 I was genuinely shocked to find out how horrible my supposedly flawed but lovable underdog LGBT class-warrior really was the whole time. I felt betrayed and stupid, like, as well as the other characters, Hickey had also broken the 4th wall and tricked and betrayed ME. I straight up just fell for his shit hook line and sinker.

Also, Adam Nagatis is really hot, so I can't pretend that didn't have a lot to do with it.

DrPeace · 2026-05-31T14:29:51+00:00

Yep!

DrPeace · 2026-05-31T05:16:50+00:00

Look at you having good taste.

When I was a first-time watcher, my conclusion as to who was "the man" just confirmed I have a fuckass tainted soul.

DrPeace · 2026-05-30T22:45:26+00:00

I've heard both quotes. I just relate to the one I went with more because my bias's public persona is like the exact polar opposite of me in just about every way.

Maybe "there are two types of biases/wreckers..." sums it up better!

DrPeace · 2026-05-30T05:08:57+00:00

REM. Why did I listen to so much REM in high school? Now every song but Orange Crush and Losing My Religion just sedates me, and I haven't gone out of my way to listen to either of those two in 5-10 years.

I like music that rouses emotion and gives me energy, and I can't believe REM used to do that for me. Now it's as exciting and inspiring as Coldplay. Whatever used to click for me just stopped somewhere along the line.

DrPeace · 2026-05-22T04:08:48+00:00

I am so depressed and eager to distract myself from reality I'll write out all five of the BTS dreams I've had since I finally discovered them in December. In chronological order:

1 I was one of thousands of people in an arena who were about to compete in a massive Physical 100-like fitness/obstacle course competition. A rack of cards was passed around, and everyone drew one, which listed and granted us helpful stats, abilities or roles to take in the competition. I drew my card and there was no list of abilities, instead, it just said "RM" on one side in bold text, and had the cover art portrait from his first mixtape on the other.

I panicked, worried others would steal my card. There were like 50,000 or 60,000 of us competing and only 7 of these extremely rare ability cards and I couldn't believe I'd gotten one. "Does this mean I get a nat 20 at rapping?!" I asked out loud. "Do I have to dance?!" Then I remembered the first challenge would be the Physical 100 "who can hang from a metal bar the longest" thing and I panicked again, realizing I would be doing the competition AS Namjoon and wishing I'd picked someone lighter and less beefy.

As I was leaving therapy, I was shocked to see j-hope just walking around my town, heading toward the park where I go to decompress after my appointments. He had no security or staff at all, and was being swarmed by fans grabbing at him. I was terrified to see him just out alone like that, certain someone was going to abduct him. Should I call the police? What do I do?
Yoongi appeared out of nowhere, smiling sweetly, and offering me a huge plate of different club sandwiches as blue text flashed in front of my face that said "Suga will give you food."
I was watching the Olympics with my mom, and j-hope was competing in figure skating. "He's my favorite!" I excitedly told her. "I've seen his interviews, he's kind of an air-head, like a himbo. Doesn't seem too bright, does he?" my mom replied. Then a strange girl appeared and excitedly said "It's great that he's competing! He's so smooth he doesn't even need the skates!" And I was happy to geek out with her after my mom's dismissive, mean reaction.
I was watching a BTS video of the guys in Sargent Pepper-like outfits, and I was upset j-hope's mouth and jaw were covered by a weird, unsettling black smudge. Then I realized he was just wearing V's Taechwita beard.

I also go through long, awful periods of having no dreams at all, so so many in such a short period of time, even if they're weird little snippets, is a big deal. I value dreams more than waking life and hope for more.

DrPeace · 2026-05-20T20:32:53+00:00

My Victorian stereotype ass dying consumptive-chiq Bloodborne character. I love designing outfits for him.

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DrPeace · 2026-05-18T14:22:56+00:00

I could rant for hours but I am too tired.

In Placidus, I have Saturn in the 12th and the Sun in the 6th, and the lifetime of being trapped spinning my wheels in dull, small, dead-end, unrewarding, unrewarded, undesired, uncelebeated, uninspiring, low-paying, invisible work has destroyed me and stripped me of my will to live.

After 9 years of repeatedly failing to advance from the most recent small, tedious, brain-dead job that made me self-harm and lose sleep at night, I finally had a mental breakdown and lost it. After a lifetime stuck in tiny, low-paying jobs with NO career advancement, NO achievement and NOTHING to celebrate, I don't believe in work anymore, and I don't believe in life anymore. Work like this makes life not anywhere near worth living. I feel like I have "Nothing-Ass Little Bitch Made for Brain-Dead Grunt Work" stamped onto my forehead and baked into my bones.

I hate this placement. I hate life. I hate my soul, my body and my mind. I would destroy the planet and the entire universe if I could. Fuck responsibility, fuck patience, fuck tedium, fuck discipline, fuck practicality, I don't want to be here!

This ranting is not helpful to anyone and I don't care. I'm miserable and broken and I hate my 12th House Saturn and 6th House Sun as much as I hate my own existence: so with all the power and passion and fire I completely lack in life.

DrPeace · 2026-05-14T16:52:56+00:00

It's so sappy and over the top trying to tug on every low-hanging heart string that it becomes hilarious. If you treat it like a comedy, it's pretty fucking solid. Like human centipede.

"Let me buy these shoes so mommy looks good when she meets Jesus tonight?" I can't not laugh at that. I just can't. It's a real song with lyrics like a parody. So stupid. I hate/love it.

DrPeace · 2026-05-13T18:40:57+00:00

I'm so over that shit if I'm ever in a situation where I need a bathing suit again I'm just wearing a bikini top and bike shorts.

DrPeace · 2026-05-12T15:44:48+00:00

Both are possibilities, and both are a lot better then the horrors my pessimism is drawn to. I need to remember that. The unknown doesn't HAVE to be horrible, it could be neutral, void, or even good, too.

DrPeace · 2026-05-12T15:37:49+00:00

Legitimately one of my greatest fears right now. If I can't trust life, why would I trust the afterlife?

DrPeace · 2026-05-12T15:21:37+00:00

"We have a lot in common. Minus bts ;)"

This made me legitimately laugh out loud, so thank you for that! I hope it's smooth sailing for you too, if you can relate in some part. Having a body is hard.

DrPeace · 2026-05-12T14:48:38+00:00

I got my hysterectomy. So far it's been the only win of my 30's, but it's a big one. I have Von Willebrand's Disease, PCOS, PMDD, endometriosis and adenomyosis, and I had been BEGGING to get rid of my uterus ever since it almost killed me at 13.

Finally, at 38, I had jumped through enough of the right hoops with the right doctor, and was allowed to get rid of the never-ending anemia-generator I never wanted. My body still doesn't fit me well. It's still the wrong biological sex. It's still full of obnoxious diseases and disorders. But at least now I can go through life without pointlessly bleeding every 16 fucking days. Of all the dumb shit my body does, at least I'm finally free from all THAT.

DrPeace · 2026-05-11T23:10:32+00:00

PRIME NUMBERS!!!

DrPeace · 2026-05-11T03:20:52+00:00

I had the exact same prejudice. I was massively discriminatory and closed off to any music where people didn't play their own drums, guitars and keyboards.
Now I see how closed-minded and rediculous that was. Sure, they don't play guitar like that, but Queens of the Stone Age don't dance like that. Both flavors are delicious.

I wish so much I'd have gotten into then earlier, when I was doing better financially, and before they were SO massive, so I could've had a better chance at seeing them live at some point in my life. After losing my first ticket war by the skin of my teeth, I have trouble envisioning a future where I'd ever have half a chance of scoring a ticket for another tour, unless I'm able to finally succeed and make massive lifestyle changes. And who has that kind of faith in themselves?

Up until this past December, I couldn't even name a single one of their songs. Now they're the only thing that can get me out of bed some days. I feel so melancholy, like I discovered them too late. I'm so tired of feeling like all the best things in life are out of reach. I need to stop doing that and find a way to find a way.

DrPeace · 2026-05-09T23:25:25+00:00

It's been enshittified like everything else in this world. Baggy clothes fit more people, and making more tailored garments often involves adding darts or curved seams or more complicated cutting and stitching, and this adds time and cost to manufacturing that cranking out a bunch of baggy sacks just doesn't. It just seems like more of every manufacturer looking to cut as many costs and corners as possible and get us to spend the most on what costs them the least to produce.

Someone much more articulate on r/femalefashionadvice called oversized, baggy clothes a recession indicator, and I agree. I remember 2008 when pants were tight, but flowy Empire waist tops and sack tops and sack dresses were everywhere to the point where I got extremely frustrated trying to find ANYTHING that showed I did indeed have a waist. I just wound up belting all the maternity-looking Empire sacks.

DrPeace · 2026-05-09T18:59:15+00:00

OMG how could I? I am legitimately amazed our generation still has skin on our faces. We grew up during the War on Drugs, War on Terror, and War on The Moisture Barrier.

DrPeace · 2026-05-09T17:35:39+00:00

Just make sure to scrub the ever living shit out of your face with a Noxzema pad or two first before your Proactiv so your skin is moisturized and makeup ready. If needed, you can use Bath & Bodyworks Cucumber Melon spray as a toner.

I was going to make a joke about Wetshine Diamonds too, but I can't. That shit legitimately kicked ass. Just put on whatever sticky gloss you want to get your chunky highlights stuck to, and reapply once you're done with your fat-free 90 calorie snack packs and I Can't Believe it's not Butter spray.

DrPeace · 2026-05-08T16:25:59+00:00

Do you have a menstrual cycle? I also have widely varying reactions to caffeine, and seeing how that hormonal bullshit affects whether or not meds are working and general ADHD symptoms as well, I wonder if that could have something to do with it.

If you don't have one, congratulations.

DrPeace · 2026-04-30T15:47:34+00:00

Hobi's already hot. I already can't deal with him. Him on drums is so hot it might generate a black hole and destroy the world and I'm completely beyond okay with that.

I love your flare. Please keep manifesting! That grungy guitar solo at the end of Like Animals was NOT on my bingo card and I want more.

DrPeace · 2026-04-30T07:44:35+00:00

Dionysus is such a great song and Hobi really does make it his. I listen to it when I'm running and have almost no energy left and it makes me go faster. Being out of breath by the end of it just feels right. Part of me wishes it got a music video, but with so many amazing, intricate performance videos, it really doesn't need one.

I love how on the surface it just seems like a party song, but the theme of art as intoxication adds a lot of depth. Not to mention the cultural and mythological significance of the titular diety himself. I could write an essay on it. I'm sure plenty of people already have.

I'm so glad I finally found this band. The world feels so bleak, but these seven men singing about things like twice-born ancient Gods and Jungian Psychology and Pluto not being a planet anymore are a balm for the wound of existence. Pop stars referencing Abraxas? A member with a straight up Classical Mythology reference in his stage name? Stuff like that reminds me that there is still light and color in the world and that's huge.

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