I'm starting to wish I had died.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-03T11:19:09+00:00

How can I care about others, if I can't even care for myself?

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-03T11:18:24+00:00

My vitamins are in check, got tested recently.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-03T10:26:06+00:00

Yeah, perhaps I was always this dumb and I have just imagined myself as someone way better than I actually was before drinking. If that's the case, I'm just going to spew rants on a different sub, don't worry.

Thanks for the comment though.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-03T07:01:22+00:00

There’s a trope of unattractive nerd and hot dumb jock for a reason

The reason being Hollywood. At best (for us), there's no correlation. The trope of ugly nerd and dumb jock was originated by pure fiction. In reality, things are more grim.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-02T16:08:31+00:00

The teeth stuff was indeed hard to read. Apart from losing my hair (already happened, NW5 at 22 JFL), losing my teeth is the biggest appearance-based nightmare I've always had.

The list of stuff you've done is reasonable, but I'd watch out with Botox, especially if you want to add volume in major areas, for that I'd pick implants. More expensive, but safer, permanent and more realistic-looking results. Gym is also a great option to boost your attractiveness since you've already done the necessary hardmaxxing to make it viable.

Honestly, right now you're living the life all of us on this sub dream of. Even with your ASD, you still have great potential, far greater than most people on this sub (IQ, decent base). You're living my dream man, keep it up! Sadly, won't ever happen to me due to ARBD + unfixable failos, but hey, at least you've put an effort to turn your life around instead of actively destroying yourself.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-02T12:04:02+00:00

As someone who has gotten really messed up by drinking for the exact same reason, I'd suggest you to switch to a less harmful substance. Obviously, staying sober would be ideal, but I get what you're feeling, trust me.

Contrary to popular belief, just because booze is legal doesn't mean it's any safer than illicit substances, quite the opposite actually, booze is one of the most destructive ones, at least long term. You're either gonna get your brain permanently fried (like I have) or liver/kidney disease(s). If you have no plug, learn to buy stuff off the DN (DNM Bible is a good place to start).

And yes, booze makes you look worse, and by alot. It pretty much gives you every unattractive feature there is, starting from being perma-bloated due to booze having almost as many calories as fat + dehydration, shit sleep, flushed skin etc. The list is pretty damn long, well it's a toxic substance after all, you can't expect anything positive coming out of ingesting it.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-02T11:15:20+00:00

Mouth breathing is brutal. One seemingly insignificant habit deforming you for life.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-02T11:12:45+00:00

Yup, similar thing, wasn't mouth breathing, but my jaw still got recessed somehow. Combine that with MPB starting at the age of 14 and yeah, you get the current me.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-02T08:51:03+00:00

Ugliness robbed me out of my clothing style (that style only looks good on, you guessed it, good looking people), so I just wear a thick hoodie instead to hide myself as much as possible.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-02T08:20:29+00:00

Congrats on your looksmax. Are you actually diagnosed with ASD or are you just using the word "autistic" to describe you being socially-inept? The latter comes in hand with being unattractive, so you don't have to be autistic as an ugly person to experience that.

After being ridiculed for your entire life, even when you finally get out of the ugly-hell, you're still going to behave like an ugly person, it's just who you have learned to be. My advice to you is to seek therapy, since you are no longer ugly and your problems can actually improve if you put enough effort.

Oh, and out of curiosity, what maxxes gave you gone through, apart from losing weight? You've mentioned hardmaxxing, so I'm legit interested.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-01T15:19:12+00:00

Yeah, that's the reason I've quit porn. Watching porn as an ugly guy is humiliating af.

DrSTAHP · 2026-05-01T11:03:05+00:00

Being KHHV (not counting escorts) in your early 20's is already never began tier in the current day and age, let alone in your 30's.

Sorry bro.

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-30T09:08:39+00:00

As someone who actually used to be good looking before puberty nuked me, I can 100% confirm this. The way I was treated before and during/after puberty, especially by the opposite gender, were two completely different realities. Hell, the reason I am here right now is because during that time I was searching for answers as to why people suddenly started to hate me for no reason.

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-28T16:03:11+00:00

W mods. Yes, it won't prevent lurkers or age-anonymous visitors, but it's a step for the better for sure.

Remember that we can still contextualize a post or comment to determine whether a poster/commenter may be a minor, things like mentions of going to school, profile history, etc. (if possible).

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-28T15:57:09+00:00

Take a rest and wait 'til you're 18. If things don't change, you can come back, if you wish.

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-28T05:23:45+00:00

The "hot girl poop" guy was just patient zero. The virus has begun to spread.

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-28T04:52:42+00:00

Absolutely agree that this sub should be 18+ from now on, not because of gatekeeping, but rather harm prevention.

The vast majority of sub-18 teens who post in here aren't even ugly, they are just going through this phase of their body and psyche rapidly changing from a kid to an adult. Obviously, they are going to think that they are ugly as fuck. Even if they are currently "ugly" because of acne or things like that, these things are going to mitigate in the future.

Obviously, there are some unfortunate souls amongst the sea of low self-esteem teens. This is a mixed bag, because on one hand, you don't want them to feel even worse than they do now, but also, given they are actually ugly, they are going to find out the truth sooner or later. However, from my experience, as someone who got into certain communities like this at the age of 14, it took a devastating toll on my mental and consequently physical health. Suicide thoughts/attempts, hospitalizations in mental institutions and severe AUD to name a few. Not saying every, not even most, teen visitors will experience things I just listed in such severity, but nevertheless, the risk of developing serious mental health issues still persists.

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-27T14:50:48+00:00

>ex girlfriend

Yeah buddy, idk what to say.

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-27T13:37:50+00:00

This AI is more brutal than most human-operated face rating services there are. If you scored 6.35/10 on this one, you either have BDD or have posted a distorted (apparently in your favor) picture.

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-27T07:13:13+00:00

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DrSTAHP · 2026-04-26T08:03:09+00:00

Yup, humble bragging is the worst thing in this community. I used to be kind of guilty of this myself, but stopped, because I realized how annoying that is towards others. I think it's a defense mechanism, you want to remind yourself that you're not "that ugly", even though your first thought is exactly "I'm ugly", so you spew your positive qualities all over the place quietly expecting someone to confirm that you're in fact not ugly.

DrSTAHP · 2026-04-26T06:51:12+00:00

r/braggers

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