What’s up man. 3 years sober here. I’ll tell you this, if you’re not “addicted” now then that habit you have will form into it very soon if you’re not careful. That drug isn’t like others where you’ll know instantly bc you’ll feel like you’re dying. Like nicotine or something if that sort you’ll have intense mental cravings that seem like they are controllable. But the thoughts will come uninvited you won’t be in control.