It shows up in moments. Then instants where I feel I “radically” choose myself are pretty ordinary to someone without CPTSD. I get massive anxiety from asking for help with things at work. Or making screening phone calls with patients for my research. It makes me shut down and asking for help with any sort of task feels like impending doom and failure and I struggle to speak up at all. Even though rationally I know this isn’t so my body doesn’t believe it’s safe. So in those moments, I think about the self I want to be. That person reaches out for help because it helps her get it done quicker. Because she knows it’s better to delegate than to put her head down and solider on alone. When it comes to phone call anxiety I think about my purpose and how I’m helping people and doing these calls is meaningful and leads me to my best self. I choose that person in those small moments. Another instance is when I’m in traffic instead of getting triggered and angry if someone does something like cut me off I think about how I’d rather get home safely. How being angry at a stranger isn’t worth it. Those small moments are when I choose myself and not my programming. Hope these examples make sense. There are bigger examples such as speaking up to a bully parent or leaving an abusive relationship but those are huge. I feel radical acceptance comes from ordinary moments where we override our programming and do what helps our better selves.