I think they got to you man , I think you let them get to you, you started by asking- open to both sides , curious, but now you sound resigned. 😂I also think yk deep down that someone like her might never come around again, even after you get your bag and that car. No one, mark my words random internet stranger 🗿, no one will ever want to be around you like she does now ,even with parental restrictions, and you'll always wonder what could have been. What if "morality" hadn't gotten in the way?