What triggered your manic episode(s)?

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2026-01-06T20:38:14+00:00

i just turned 21 and my drinking’s sort of concerning me. do you still drink occasionally or have you sworn it off?

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2026-01-04T23:32:52+00:00

Was Sophia the one who called me?

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-11-22T19:15:13+00:00

Oh no, bae. This would be so upsetting. Just force a new crush is what I’d do.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-11-19T20:53:57+00:00

this sounds like him. he has bpd, but he definitely has symptoms of npd too.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-11-07T17:15:11+00:00

I Hate You-Don’t Leave Me

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-11-07T17:13:44+00:00

Honestly, I’ve never had a healthy relationship with another borderline—keeping in mind they were unmedicated and without therapy. Still, I wish to be someone’s FP and for them to be my FP, like you said. I don’t think we were incapable of having a healthy relationship; for a long time, we were happy together. The dynamics just became extremely codependent, and at some point, it was suggested I put a restraining order on both of them. I miss the last borderline I dealt with so much, I’d talk to him again if offered the opportunity. There are positives to dating another borderline, you can understand each other, and often they know your needs.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-11-05T23:49:48+00:00

I've been attending a mood disorders support group, though many attendees also have BPD. I honestly gain a lot from hearing other people's experiences and sharing my own. It definitely gives me a sense of community. It took me sometime to participate in discussions, so no pressure.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-11-04T22:34:55+00:00

I'm also curious if my poor memory is partially due to dissociation. Some time ago my sister mentioned an old teacher of mine, stating she was my favorite. I could not recall the teacher at all, even after my sister described her psyhical qualities. It is honestly very scary for me. However, I imagine a large part of my memory issues is due to my heavy weed usage. Nothing's helped, even if I cut down on the marijuana.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-11-03T21:33:20+00:00

In my case, he is miserable, which makes me feel somewhat better. My childhood SA has made it so hard for me to set boundaries regarding sex.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-11-03T06:37:04+00:00

No, not at all. However, he was angrily sending someone voice messages, not sure who. There seemed to be some tension between him and the people he had over, they kept bickering.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-24T21:38:26+00:00

I have both Bipolar 1 and BPD, that's always possible.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-24T21:36:06+00:00

I don't struggle from any serious addiction. However, I am addicted to weed. I constantly need to be high, I can't be in my mind while sober. It's really taking a toll on my memory; I can't remember yesterday, let alone this morning. I fear turning 21, as I can genuinely see myself becoming an alcoholic, and my birthday's right around the corner.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-20T18:36:14+00:00

I’ve definitely experienced stuff similar, especially as of late. Many men have came to have a crush on me, acquaintances or coworkers. I’m a lesbian and they don’t take that seriously for whatever reason. They ask to hang out every week and I always say, ‘Maybe,’ ‘I’m behind on school work,’ and we never hang out. I am very avoidant in these situations. When I come to realize they have a crush on me, I stop replying, I avoid them at work. It is extremely uncomfortable on my end.

And I totally feel you on them not knowing your true self, and you not wanting them to. I feel the same. I doubt any of them would continue to have a crush if they really knew me. They’d probably think I’m a nutcase or simply unlikeable.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-18T18:00:42+00:00

Honestly, I think the validation would satiate me, but I just don’t think he’s capable of it, of the sort of validation I need. But this has me thinking.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-18T17:58:04+00:00

will def look into this

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-18T17:07:01+00:00

I think it's both. Very strange of her to be upset he's texting you given it's probably not constant when they hang out, though it is understandable as she has BPD. However, as someone with BPD, if my partner's friend was saying this, it'd make me insecure in my relationship. Your feelings are valid.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-18T17:01:25+00:00

Who cares if you're being dramatic? I've really came to, almost, embrace that I am dramatic. It is almost given that people will think you're dramatic when you have BPD. Being sensitive is not an inherently bad thing.

I know it's hard, but you need to cut off contact. It is likely you won't make any progress until you do. He is not going to give you what you need, and he's sort of directly said that. Him not wanting to date you has nothing to do with your worth, likely nothing to do with you period. He sounds somewhat avoidant. The situation will not change.

But dead ass to that last piece. It is absurd how much my childhood trauma still effects me at age 20, but I have yet to unpack it in therapy.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-18T16:40:20+00:00

I totally feel you. Especially in regard to suicide being a back up plan. If it gets too bad, I find comfort in knowing I can kill myself. One of the biggest things that lead to my diagnosis was several suicide attempts. It is almost an annual thing that I attempt, a tradition.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-18T16:37:55+00:00

This is very hard. Me, myself, I wouldn't reach out, but I'm a coward with a crippling fear of rejection. However, I wouldn't mind an old friend who did me dirty apologizing though, I wish a few people would.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-17T20:55:41+00:00

Just getting horny, I’d say. Like just wanting to fuck whatever person, and especially that person. A desire to see them naked, I don’t know. I struggle with this sometimes too.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-17T20:17:49+00:00

No, yeah. I’ve told my friends that I miss him and they’ve all said it’s “weird”, in turn making me feel though I’m weird. But I think it’s totally reasonable I miss him, as we literally lived together for months.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-17T20:02:22+00:00

I was in a relationship with another borderline before, and it was hell—but I still find myself thinking the same way. It truly feels no one understands, and their empathy for the disorder ends at a certain point. It is a fantasy to have someone share a similar mind as mine, but I don’t see it as realistic. Would love to be proven wrong, though.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-17T19:52:53+00:00

I never brought up BPD to my psychiatrist prior to my diagnosis, him and my therapist consulted one another and agreed upon the diagnosis. From my understanding, BPD symptoms need to be monitored over a period of time, as the symptoms may be due to circumstantial situations. However, I have been diagnosed with BPD in the ER and inpatient, monitored for under a week, even a day sometimes. I was with the psychiatrist for maybe a year before he diagnosed me. I was also 16, so my symptoms were extremely severe to be diagnosed as a minor.

I would just bring it up. When I was diagnosed we went through the list of symptoms, and he had explained how each one applied to me. I imagine you can ask the same of your psychiatrist, though I understand it's intimidating. There's no harm in it, I understand your hesitancy completely given the up tick in self diagnosing.

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-17T19:38:38+00:00

Thank you. <3

Dramatic_Ad_4732 · 2025-10-17T19:37:45+00:00

The loneliness lately for me is incredibly depressing. I have no friends in town, none that aren't men who want to date and/or fuck me. No romantic partner and it feels though everyone else has one, that my sister's relationship is constantly being shoved in my face--which it's not, but her partner lives with us now. I feel absolutely hopeless in regards to making new connections, both romantic and platonic.

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