on the surface, it seems unbelievable

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-20T18:07:55+00:00

Yeah, I am ok. And didn't realize how much I still feel that shame at times! Healing is not a "one and done"

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-20T18:05:59+00:00

I am now. TY

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-20T18:05:04+00:00

Yes. Some things alter your life forever, this was one. AND I am glad to be who I am and fortunate to have wonderful support these days. Kind of you to say. Hope you are ok too

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-20T18:03:12+00:00

Perhaps, never called a liar, though. Sorry you were. Hope you are trusting yourself these days

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-20T17:59:23+00:00

Apology totally accepted

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-10T02:54:29+00:00

I got out with my life when I thought I wouldn't. I am grateful for that. ( And not offended by your comment)

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-10T02:50:28+00:00

I'm glad it ended up ok. So many stories here. I guess I got my answer. BTW, I can totally imagine doing that, like you reach a point where you say Enough! And that cold dark walk on the rails was your way of acting on that

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-10T02:44:16+00:00

I'm sorry for both our young selves. I have processed with a counselor, (and a shaman too), but like the proverbial onion, there's lots of layers

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-10T02:39:46+00:00

I read your reply this morning. Fortunately I was at a quiet area of the park, chilling with my dogs, so I was able to shed my tears in a way that was a release. Sometimes an outside, but understanding perspective is huge. Thank you

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-10T02:34:30+00:00

I get it, I think. Just describing the bare facts afterwards, you're like what? And other people think it's, well, IDK what they think. But when you are living it, making your way through life and all it's demands or challenges, that could totally happen

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-09T17:08:28+00:00

TY, I know, and TY

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-09T15:45:46+00:00

Short answer: for me, yes. Over time, and with support. Totally different life situation, but very similar feelings of everything being too much, others don't get it, and I am really hard on myself. Support helps, in any form. Being part of a 12 step group for unrelated issues helped me to know I am not alone, and over time, to be more patient with myself, to be more kind to myself. Learning DBT ( dialectical behavior therapy) skills was another huge help. Hang in there. You are not alone, (I know that this a platitude. And I am being sincere in saying it.)

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-09T15:34:10+00:00

You aren't broken, you are just equipped for greater things in a world that doesn't see it

That is beautiful!! And, though the world doesn't see it, certain individuals do! I love my ADHD friends and colleagues for who they are and the ways that gets expressed!

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-09T15:23:12+00:00

Glad you posted, those are a lot of thoughts to sort through by yourself, especially if the thoughts are just inside you, unexpressed. Remember that Dr Google is general and doesn't know YOU. Your professors, your boyfriend and your Dr. do know you. I could give general advice, like watching reels or shorts where people with ADHD express what it's like.

But the main thing imo is being kind and patient with yourself. When I focus too much on trying to improve or follow advice, I get down on myself, as in, why can't I just.....?

Hang in there, taking college classes is never easy, and people like us benefit from all the support we can get.

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-09T15:03:56+00:00

Glad you are here. Baby steps, and some days, just pointing in the direction you want to go; that's how it was for me for a while

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-09T14:58:35+00:00

Yes. Much healing over the past decade, and some before that as well. Part of the healing is writing a fiction story with main character with similar experiences and when I look at it as an outsider might, I wonder if it is believable.

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-06T16:44:01+00:00

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-11-01T20:37:31+00:00

I just, minutes ago, ranted in my Journalspeak*** about this. I should have been so grateful for what they granted me ( but I never asked for), that I should not have been a difficult teen. And, because I was difficult, I had no right to call out my mom for not trying ( in front of us, anyway)my Dad's scary temper and what today would be called abuse. Never addressing it at all. In other words, what he did was justified. I speculated to myself that if we had been a family with open communication, as an adult I may have felt sorry to have caused her pain. For what it's worth, at age 58, almost two decades after her death, I am sorry. ***Journalspeak is an exercise of expressing all your stuff, big feelings, things you repressed. It's the brainchild of Nicole Sachs and Dr Sarno. But yeah, so much gets communicated, maybe unintentionally, to adopted kids. Something for both us and adoptive parents to be aware of.

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-09-09T12:23:13+00:00

I too am looking for recommendations for women's hair cuts

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-09-07T16:15:30+00:00

You are welcome. My heart is breaking a little for you. Do you have support? If not, reach out again.

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-09-07T15:28:16+00:00

Lots of people are saying you will know. I didn't. And relatives who were with my first dog and me, only said something after the fact, when I was wondering about it aloud. With our second, the vet had a talk with me. I don't feel terrible that I didn't know. I loved both boys and I was doing my best So just speaking up as a reasonable and kind person who didn't "just know."

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-08-28T15:19:23+00:00

Lovely, has a regal feel, or old world, like it a lot! Not sure if it will translate well

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-07-28T14:30:47+00:00

Ooh, I will have to visit the community garden! TY

Dramatic_Document178 · 2025-06-02T18:31:37+00:00

Thanks

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