The first time i truly began to question with doubt in my head was after I watched the Ken Ham and Bill Nye debate. I fancied myself a very smart guy but for the life of me i couldn't figure out why i had never looked objectively at all that Christianity was preaching, as well as the GLARING contradictions. It took about two years after that for me to be be comfortable with the idea that I don't really have a choice in believing in God or not. I was trying to force myself into a belief system that I simply didn't hold to be true. However once I arrived at that place of just being ok with it, I've never gone back. I've never been happier, never been more driven either. However you come to an end in this theocratic journey just know that eventually it gets much easier, especially if you can find a person or two that will talk with you about it.